The Alpha!

Switches of pain.

The feeling that I was going to be with him didn't let me process the reason. 

"I think the alpha is really busy to discipline a pup, the gamma can do that really well." Nicole said.

"I am sorry?!" Hahah, she was jealous, so much jealous. God, I wanted to scream to her, "See he isn't your mate and you just made him to pass more time with me. For the first and last time thank you Nicole." 

I had a smug on my face. I was so naive!

"I can do that alpha, if you find it convenient." the gamma said. His name was Gust. He was a really strong wolf and a good friend of my father. I liked him, even though he scowled me so bed when I broke the arm of his daughter. But he knew that me and she wasn't even friends and he knew how delicate was for me to talk about grandma.

Meanwhile I lifted myself from the ground. So long staying there. I lowered my eyes and stepped a little far from the alpha.  Maybe it was better if I got disciplined by uncle Gust. 

"I think the same." Beta started talking. "She..

"We won't be having this conversation here." Father said his voice louder than it should be. Dad what you doing?!!

I saw a scowl on beta face but he nodded. Me what? What does that mean? I saw the beta's eyes getting darker same as dad, they were mind linking each-other. It was the same with Gust uncle's eyes. I wanted to see if the alpha was mind linking with them too, so slowly I turned my eyes towards him. He was really tall and ...was looking at me.  

Deep in my eyes.

Was he all the time looking at me?

His face was serious, no emotion to read. His eyes were cold. He looked scary. Yet, I couldn't stop myself from looking at him. 

I looked like a baby looking at the biggest candy out there.

I gulped my saliva while still looking at him. 

"STOP f*****g LOOKING AT HIM!" A loud feminine voice erupted through my head. I could feel the the waves of pain stronger this time. "YOU JUST DESTROYED MY MOST IMPORTANT DAY." Of course it would be more painful, she just shifted. It was more agonizing. My both hands went to my head. I tried with all my being to stop her, block her, but she was much stronger. 

Today wasn't the first time. She used to do this a lot of times apart from bulling with her g**g. When I was little it was that painful that I even spent most of my childhood in my home. I was scared of pain. I still am. I will always be. I just can't stand the physical pain. 

Why aren't you doing anything dad?

Than it hit me. She wanted to be disciplined by the alpha. What a stupid b***h! By that she was lowering herself in his eyes. 

I felt my tears forming. I should resist just a little more. Please!  

"Nicole for f*****g sake!" The beta said.

A throbbing pain went through my head and I let a cry. I couldn't stand, I couldn't.

"She was being disrespected Beta. She will show obedience." She said in menacing way. This was her wolf. Her f*****g wolf. 

Dad couldn't do anything. I was wrong. I am wrong. I collapsed to the ground and gripped the grass hard. 

"OBEY!" Her voice came again. I was crying now. She disrespected my nana I will never obey to someone like her. Never. 

"Obey!" I heard a voice filled with pain yet authoritarian. 

No dad, I can't.

You didn't hear that day. What she said to me. What did she say to my grandma. I will never forgive her, I will never obey to her. 

"Stop for a moment being stubborn and stupid. Obey to her and ask for forgiveness. Stop acting like a little child, you are tiring me so much! Stop causing problems!" My dad yelled at me. This hit me in the guts. I was tiring him? I was stupid? I was acting like a little child?

She was causing me pain, she always did that. She has been disrespectful to me her whole life. She should earn my respect. Let those, she insulted my nana, my definition of love.

Maybe he was protecting me, but that moment I didn't have the mind to think of that. I didn't have time to come to that conclusion. 

The pain was still there, yet fading slowly.

I know she had the right to rip my head off. I disrespected a highly rank by denying obedience. I just couldn't understand why I was still alive.

I heard a laugh in my head and the pain started again. "Maybe your place is at your mother's humans. Your a weak half human! Your dad haven't told you, have he? Your friends? Haven't they? You stink like human. Yeah, yeah, your mother is DEAD,  died trying to act like a warrior, she never was one.  Funny? Isn't it? She was a weak human. Mother told me that you two resemble too much."

I wasn't crying. I was numb. Confused. Devastated.

The pain wasn't anymore in my head, now was on my heart.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.

"This is so childish." A deep voice said. It was alpha.

Everyone wasn't tense anymore.  If he find this childish, then it is childish. Some of them even smiled. 

The party and music started. I was left alone with dad. I took a glimpse of Andra, I know she wanted to stay, but her mom took her with her. 

Slowly I lifted myself from the ground, not watching my dad in the eyes. It was weird, but I believed what Nicole said. It was logically acceptable. 

"You have the pride of hers." He said.

He shouldn't. 

I lifted my eyes and watched deep in his eyes. You could tell my pure hatred there. I saw him taken back. 

I left him alone and decided to go to the lake. Trying to not left any trace behind. 

I know dad would not follow me. He knows when to leave me alone. 

After long yet I thought short I arrived at the lake.

It was magically beautiful.

The moon was giving her light to my tears.

For the first time I didn't suspect the area. I took off my dress and went inside the lake wearing the pain I had in my heart. I plunged into the water and left a cry, I didn't want anyone hearing my cries.

I have always thought that this lake was a dead soul, today we had switched the roles. 

I came to the surface taking a deep breath when I heard the sound of a broken branch, immediately I turned to see a black tall figure. 

Scared I took a step back trying hide myself. 

"How about we start getting you disciplined?" A husky, dark, overbearing voice said. 

He wasn't asking.