"There is strength in vulnerability", they say but what if that vulnerability was used against you.
They say, "make that bold step, the worse that can happen is rejection", but nobody prepares one for the pain that accompanies rejection.
I was not new to this pain, in fact it controlled and consumed me.
I think I will have preferred to be rejected than my feelings, to be ridiculed indirectly.
I was a mess honestly, I couldn't stop myself from thinking about It, it was a bad idea, I should have known.
I was known for making bad decision but this has just got to be worse.
Why did I ever think that confessing my feelings was going to mean anything to him?
Like a fool I sent him that message on Grima,
"Marshall, I have feelings for you",
It took him a day and a half to reply my mes
