Bella I walked into the banquet hall it was beautiful. Then I saw Abby and Lucas she had her hands all over him. It makes me sick I know I shouldn't care. But the way he looks at her I know that I was never good enough. Why would he care about me when she is so beautiful. He must have seen me looking at him and our eyes met. Then he walked off with one of the Don. I was done he made it clear he didn't want me and he was just using me. Tears wanted to come out but I didn't let them. I started talking to Luca's mom and my mom for some time. Then I needed a drink and my sister said she would come with me to the bar. I took to shoots of tequila. Then Nikolai walked up I was so happy I missed him so much. We started to talk. Then I saw him on the dance floor with Abby. I looked him in

