My New Love

Chapter 1

“Hey Aubrey, what’s up,” my best friend, Nicole, shouts as soon as she sees me. Nicole has always been very loud and outgoing. I’m the complete opposite of her. I’m really shy around people I don’t know. I’m also a complete bookworm. Nicole and I live in completely different worlds. Nicole is a cheerleader. I’m in the literature club. People always ask us how we get along so well since we are polar opposites.

            “I’m getting ready for class, Nicole. You should be doing the same thing,” I respond while rolling my eyes. I’m really not in the mood for this today. I’m still very upset because of my break up with Jonathan.

            “Why do you still seem so down? It’s been a week now, Aubrey; I think it’s about time you get over him,” Nicole responds. I feel myself start to get irritated with Nicole. I really can’t believe she said this to me right now. Nicole doesn’t understand what I’m going through. She’s still dating the man of her dreams. How can she possibly understand anything like this? I’m still in love with Jonathon...she knows that. I really wish that she didn’t have to be so insensitive.

            “You really don’t understand what I’m going through right now, Nikki! Jonathan and I had been dating since the beginning of eighth grade! Next week was supposed to be our fifth year anniversary! Do you really think I can get over him that quickly,” I scream at her. Nikki shoots me a shocked and hurt look. I look down at the ground. I have never yelled at her like this before.

            “I’m sorry; I guess I just don’t get it. I’ll see you later, Aubrey,” Nicole says and walks away as quickly as she can. I sigh. Today is going to be a very long day. All of my friends really have been on edge with me lately. I have been in a crappy mood since Jonathan broke up with me. I have been taking out my anger on everyone. I don’t mean to do it, but my anger comes out all of a sudden. I always feel horrible afterwards. It’s none of their faults. I’m still hurting at the moment. For some reason writing hasn’t been helping me lately. I’m kind of surprised it hasn’t.

            Before Nicole can walk around the corner; I catch up to her to apologize. I feel bad for hurting her feelings. “I’m sorry, Nikki, I have just been an emotional wreck. I wish that Jonathan would talk to me. He’s been ignoring me since we broke up. I don’t like the way he’s treating me. When he does respond he’s normally nasty to me. While we were dating I have never done anything to hurt him. Why is he treating me like this?”

            Nicole doesn’t answer for a couple of seconds. Nicole is not great at these kinds of things. She normally comes to me when she is having trouble with her boyfriend, Nicholas. Nicholas treats Nicole like crap most of the time. It ticks me off when she tells me he’s treating her like crap again. I try to tell Nicole to leave him if he isn’t treating her like he should, but she doesn’t want to. She loves him with her whole heart and soul. I can see that he loves her back just as much. I just wish that he would treat her better. Her situation reminds me of how Jonathan and I used to be. When we first started dating he treated me like crap. He got better as time went on.

            “It’s alright, Aubrey, I know you’re going through a hard time right now. What I said to you was really insensitive. I apologize as well. He might be going through something and can’t open up about it. I believe that he doesn’t want to hurt you. He knows how easily you get hurt. Lately, you have been really emotional too. He might just be tired of that side of you. I know I am...I just want you to be back to normal, Aubrey,” she responds. She’s right...I have been emotional lately. My brother committed suicide two months ago...

            “Yes, I know I’m emotional right now, but my brother killed himself, Nikki. It’s only been two months since I lost my brother. Both of you must have forgotten about that entirely,” I respond while trying to hold back tears. I hate thinking about my brother’s death...especially at school.

I sigh and look over at the clock. I notice the bell is going to ring soon. Our classes are on the other side of the building. We have five minutes to get to class.  

            “I’ll see you later, Aubrey,” she responds with a few tears in her eyes.  She always gets teary eyed when I mention my brother. She misses him too...but not as much as I miss him...

            When I walk around the corner...the image I see makes me stop dead in my tracks. Jonathan is kissing another girl on the lips. My heart starts to rip into tiny pieces again. Tears are welling up in my eyes. I’m trying to hold them back as best as I can. Jonathan notices me and he pulls away from her quickly. She pouts when he stops kissing her. I have never felt so betrayed in my life. Jonathan told me that he would get back together with me...I guess that’s a lie...

            The girl has long blonde hair, green eyes, and she’s smirking at me. The girl’s name is Michelle. She’s the cheerleading captain. Michelle is the most stuck up person that I have ever met in my life. I really question what Jonathan sees in her. No one in the school likes her much.

            “Oh hey, Bre, how are you,” Jonathan asks me as casually as possible. The tears I’m trying to hold back start streaming down my face. I shoot him a glare. He looks away from me. How can he ask me something so casually like that? I have a feeling that Michelle is the reason that Jonathan broke up with me. After five years...this is how he repays me after all we’ve been through? I really thought Jonathan actually loved me. I guess I was wrong...like I always am...

            “How do you think I feel,” I shout at him. He seems a little taken aback. I have never yelled at him before either. Yes, we did get into arguments sometimes, but I tried not to raise my voice at him. He would always be the one yelling. Normally I would be in tears.

            “I’m sorry...” he responds.

            “Sorry, isn’t going to cut it! You promised me that we were going to get back together! Or did you forget,” I respond with tears streaming a lot faster now. Michelle shoots me a wicked smile this time. That smile makes me want to punch her really hard in the face. I really want to do it, but I control myself.

            “I didn’t forget about that, Bre. It’s just...I’m not in love with you anymore. I was just getting tired of everything. You were so stressed out about your brother’s death. You were crying all of the time. I honestly just didn’t want to deal with it anymore. By the way, I’ve been cheating on you for the last couple of months. I’m over our whole relationship now. I know we were together for almost five years, but dealing with you was bothersome. It’s not because you aren’t beautiful. You are really beautiful still.  At first, I did love you a whole lot. Dating the same girl for a long time gets boring after a while. To be frank, Michelle is a better person than you are. She makes me feel so much happier. I’m smiling and laughing more than I have in a long time. You never made me happy when we were together...I was always miserable. I was just using you to get to Michelle anyways. Well...not in the beginning. I actually really liked you a lot in the beginning.  I’m sorry, Bre, I really am,” Jonathan responds.

            I start to go numb after hearing everything Jonathan admitted to me. I can’t believe that he’d been cheating on me for the last few months. What Jonathan said hurts so badly. I need to get away from them...I have a really strong urge to cry. I don’t want them to see me cry. That would just satisfy them.  My knees are starting to shake underneath me now. Right before I’m about to walk away Michelle decides to open her big fat mouth.

            “You know what, Aubrey; you aren’t as pretty as you think you are. Your personality is lacking as well. You should give up on Jon now. He’s mine and you need to get over him,” she says while winking at me. Anger seeps inside of me. I walk closer to her and punch her with all the strength I can muster. Her nose starts to bleed instantly. She starts crying as well. Jonathan is in shock. It’s been a while since I’ve punched anyone. My brother was the last person I punched, but it was playful.       

“This is why you have no friends. No one likes you, Michelle. You have an ugly personality,” I tell her and then I turn towards Jonathan. “Jonathan, I wish you the best of luck with this tramp.”

            I run away from them as fast as possible. I run into the girl’s bathroom. I lock myself in one of the stalls. I’m bawling my eyes out now. I know I’m going to miss first period. I really can’t bring myself to go. How can I go when I feel like absolute crap?