Paper Click

Friendzone

"hey T! one forth sheet of paper please! this would be the last I promise!"

he faced me like I'm the only person in the room and I thought for a moment that what if I'd give him then I will ask something in return hahaha maybe his love I guess, though I know I can't say that out loud, I still get the thrills from the thought of it hahaha

"of course it's the last B! it’s the last subject of the day, what do you expect?"

with my eyes rolling while handing over the piece of paper, he then suddenly get it but unexpectedly touched my hand from below and oooops!!!

our eyes met....

"Janu is as thrifty as my mom, you're the only friend I got please???"

he did change his gaze but his voice became awkward I can't stand the silence in between.....

and yeah that didn't miss my attention, I got friendzone this time! f**k!

"hahaha I know right? sometimes friendship can make you spend all your resources hahaha I get that! in ours, I gotta be the one to bankrupt myself hahaha"

well I guess they're right. Jokes are the best ice breakers hahaha it did break that huge iceberg in between...we both end up laughing before the exam starts.

THE NEXT MORNING

"hey T! did you have breakfast? I brought sandwich for you, take it!"

"what's the exchange? paper again? my god!!!for pete's sake B!"

I said as I tap my head as if I'm having headache hahaha but I don't really have any

"what the? I'm just giving it you for free and no return okay?"

he handed that piece of sandwich he's talking about and yeah it did look so yummy so I get it

"really? I mean really really? hahaha thanks B! you're so sweet!"

I got my chills again from the thought of it and wasn't really thinking of what I'm saying again so there....

I caught him staring at me

and that made me so conscious, I am over thinking already if my face looks chubby, if my cheeks are flushed and if my hair strands were in good position so heck!!! why the hell is he staring at me and I was staring back at him too???

"ah oh-okay you're welcome"

he cut the moment from what we have been stagnant into and flashed a big smile

so I smiled back...

"but since you've mentioned earlier, why don't you lend me a piece of paper again hahaha"

he laughed out loud as if nothing has just happened so I snapped myself out and carried on, yeah! this is right! we valued our friendship and we can never afford to lose it from just a simple childish affection...wait! what??? did I just say AFFECTION??? what the heck???

"oh god!!! there you go again!!! I knew it, every sandwich now is in exchange of a paper tsk tsk"

I said it like a usual dialogue we always have in everyday basis, yeah Tailor! you have to pretend that you didn't feel anything

and yeah for the Nth time now, all that he is doing special for me is only because I'm such a good friend...

when will I ever grow up???hmmm maybe when he already finds someone to love, yeah maybe and so up until then I'm gonna love you secretly to save our friendship

damn it!!!even in my head I still get friendzoned???urgh!!! I hate earth!!!