I will make you "mine"

My eyes suddenly flickered open as a surreal vision played in my mind "It can't be real, it's all in my head" I tried convincing myself with my head down in shame, my whole body shaking at the thought of it being true, "woah my nightmares are starting to look and feel more realistic" i repeated again. Hot stream of tears suddenly ran down my cheeks and my whole body started quivering beneath the unfamiliar bed cover. In anger, i clutched the bed sheets with all my strength, my knuckles turning white from the pain🐻‍❄️ but the pain was the least of my problem right now, I only just want to wake up again to find out that everything that just happened was a dream. Mustering up a little courage, I scanned the room trying to get a hold of my clothes so I can get the fvck out of here, suddenly, my gaze landed on a handsome man lying beside me. So this is the devil that used me huh, thinking of it again made me utterly disgusted,the only thing I wish I could do now is to go back in time and stop all of this from happening. I raised my hands to smack him on the face as that was the only thing that could make the anger boiling up inside of me decrease, as my hands were about to land in his face I stopped abruptly noticing the man's distinctive features, his curly dark brown hair that covered his face a little (I gulped hungrily thinking that it'll make a good tool for gripping, that's if you get what I mean) making him look so damn f*****g sexy (guys "sexy" is an understatement), his calm eyes (it's so calm that I could stare at them forever), his milk-ish skin (oh it looks like a baby's own, I could literally eat it up), his super soft lips that seems almost irresistible (oh the lips are making my body feel all excited🫦). "Damn I was really lucky, I can't believe I actually had s*x with someone like him" my mind thought naughtily My eyes lit up seeing his perfectly sculpted abs, my hands started moving down to touch it on its own command .... WHAT THE HELL AM I TRYING TO DO? DOWN WHERE? I scolded myself loudly jolting back to reality, did i just f*****g want to fvcking touch the fvcking man's abs (hehehe, I know the "fvcks" are too much buh don't blame me 🥲) someone that just destroyed my whole life, I felt like hitting myself a million times thinking about it, still reprimanding myself, my eyes caught a sight of the man's eyes slowly opening, "Arrrghhhh" a huge wave of panic flowed throughout my whole body "No I don't want my stranger to meet me, i already fell ashamed as it is" I mouthed as my body was thrown in a total state of frenzy, I jolted off the bed with my whole body shaking uncontrollably, I hurriedly scouted for my clothes on the floor, desperately looking for at least a ribbon or shoe rope to tie myself up with it. Finally I saw them....clothes, I picked them up (my undies top, baggy pants, sneakers and my purse), i wore them as fast as I can and left the hotel room sneakily. With no care at all at how the people in the hotel are looking at me, I marched into the elevator, squat down and broke down in tears with a heavy heart. After a few seconds, I stood up...looked at the people in the elevator with me, mustering all the courage i can, i shouted "We are all a victim of something, we just don't know what that is.....yet" I said smiling psychotically and slumped down on the floor again. "What is wrong with this girl, what is she saying, I think she has lost her senses, look at her body, is that hickey, so shameless, she's a disgrace to our society, I pray that my daughter doesn't end up like her" the whispering voice of the people around me echoed in my ear, bit by bit I took all they were saying into my head. At this point I don't even know if I should cry or laugh, all I did was just stare at the cold ground dazedly. I started to feel a knudge on my shoulders, "girl are u okay" a voice spoke up, I looked up slowly to see a middle aged woman with an arrogant look speaking what I think is gibberish. "do you have no shame at all" she spoke up again. "Shame huh" I asked myself melancholically "I am shame and shame is me" I said with a heavy heart. "Huh" she chuckled, "that explains your shamelessness then" she said with disdain. "This girl is a huge shame to the society, just look at her body, she might be a s*x worker or something like that" another woman rebuked pointing her fingers onto my face as if she's wants to poke my eyes out. I felt like the ground should just open and swallow me whole at that point. Not wanting to hear any more word from them, I dashed out the immediately the elevator door opened with tears streaming down my face like a river bank. I ran as fast as my legs could carry me and luckily for me the entrance door was close to the elevator. Immediately I exited the hotel, I halted and looked back at the building "FOREVER MEMORY" I thought that i saw wrong through all these tears but the name of the hotel was written boldly. Wow what a fate, I guess it has also given me my own forever memory....a bad one at that and an unforgettable one too. This is a memory that was gonna haunt me for eternity and no tom, d**k and harry was gonna make me forget it. I smiled and started walking towards wherever my legs took me to while singing wildflower by Billie Eilish as the song was like a reflection song for me Things fall apart and time breaks your heart I wasn't there, but I know She was your girl You showed her the world...........