The heartbeat

Everyday I sat under the bridge put on head phones and blast my ears with music and draw whatever I saw, whatever caught my attention, or just scribbled.i had the same routine from Monday to Sunday every sunset and sunrise.I had no friends I was bullied a lot which made me a social outcast and social awkward I couldn't even hold a decent conversation with my sisters. but one Tuesday I finally decided to do something different, instead of my regular routine I decided to go to the arcade,so I decided to go to closest to my home which was GameCube I took the alleyway which was usually abandoned due to the stench and animal infestation,so I could avoid all human interaction,I was halfway through when I came across a girl squatting down and feeding cats in the middle of the alley,she looked decently dress in her school uniform which lead me to believe she was from a prestigious school and as I drew closer to her she turned to look at me when she heard my footsteps and I was stunned for about 3 seconds when I looked at her,she was beautiful her black curly and fluffy hair glistened as the sun light fell on it her light skin which looked like a golden oak as it was slightly shaded by her hair. when I finally came back to my senses she smiled at me and waved and just got back to feeding the cats,I was bewildered by her beautiful I had temporarily forgotten my purpose of using the alleyway. i tried to say hi but I couldn't every word I spoke simply resounded in my ears never actually coming out of my mouth.so I just walked away but not to the GameCube but instead I walked straight home,no I ran straight home I lost all sense of my environment and just ran through whatever was in my way I couldn't pay attention to anything else I just wanted to get home and draw the heavenly face I had seen I finally got home and threw my back away and headed straight to my room locked the door and sat at my table I grabbed a pencil and started to draw I tried and tried but no matter what I did I couldn't reproduce her face on paper. I was torn apart I banged the table and fell to my bed as I was exhausted I had immersed myself I'm trying to draw her I hadn't noticed the time or the banging on my door for a meal I finally got a hold of myself and got up to open the door to see my mom with a worried expression on her face,she asked me what happened and I couldn't get myself to tell her so I just told her I had an exhausting day at school and needed some time to myself...she looked at me again with a worried expression and just smiled and pushed me to the table to finally have my dinner I had my meal,which I devoured in barely 2 mins because I was so hungry and I did the dishes, finally got out of my school uniform and took my backpack to my room and took a shower,I did my homework all that was left was to finally get some sleep. I slept with face looking up to the ceiling as I pictured her face, I kept wishing I would be able to see her one more time tomorrow.