My 26-year-old female tenant

This rainy evening，The cold wind swept the fallen leaves and ravaged the city，Le Yao and I stood at the entrance of the Women's and Children's Hospital with umbrellas，In the crowd，She looked at me with a slightly pale face。 “Zhaoyang, I'm pregnant” I froze for a moment，Then he stared and said:“Find someone who made you pregnant，Why did you call me to ask me out?” “I have only slept with you this year, who else should I go to if not you?” “I told you I have only slept with one woman this year, do you believe me?” “Zhaoyang, are you a man?” “We're all here to have fun, don't blame me when something like this happens to you，You want me to be responsible，Just bring out something practical，Don't play games with me，Who wants to be a father without knowing what's going on?” Le Yao was silent for a while and said to me:“The child has been aborted, so how can there be any evidence” I'm a little angry:“Do you think I look like a fool? You had your child aborted, and then...”I raised my hand and said speechlessly:“Then, she told me that the child was mine.Are you pretending to be naive or am I really stupid?…Le Yao, we are all adults, can we do something decent?” Le Yao bit her lip and looked at me, then said after a while:“You don't want to take responsibility, right? I'll go to your company tomorrow…” “Damn, are you really that serious?”I said angrily。 Le Yao bit her lips tightly and looked at me，I think she is a good actress. I met her in a bar，Then a one night stand happened，A woman who frequents bars，She said she had s*x with a man in just one year，I'd be a fool if I believed her. I didn't want to bother her anymore, so I took out my wallet, took out all the 100-yuan bills and handed them to her: "You just want money, take it, and don't bother me anymore!" Le Yao didn't say anything and didn't bother me anymore. She nodded, turned around and walked into the hospital with an umbrella, as if she still had some unpaid fees. Looking at her lonely back in the rain, I suddenly felt an indescribable emotion in my heart. Although I didn't believe that the baby in her belly was mine, and although I was very annoyed with her, I felt that her life must be difficult now, otherwise she wouldn't blackmail me like this. I was silent for a long time and finally called her: "Wait” Le Yao looked back at me. I took out a bank card from my wallet and handed it to her: "This card can be overdrawn. You just had surgery, buy some things to replenish your body." Le Yao did not take it: "......No, seeing that you are willing to take responsibility is my purpose. I look for you because I don't want to be slept with by someone in a confused state, and get pregnant in a confused state!" In the bar, I drank alone while waiting for Fang Yuan, my only close friend and colleague in this city. Since the first day I came to this bar, I have seen too many lonely women and empty men drinking all kinds of wine here, either in silence or with eyes full of desire, looking for something called "drunkenness and dreaming death". In fact, when we abandon the body during the day and let the soul get lost in this bright and colorful world, we are already drunk and dreaming death. I forgot which night it started, I regarded this place as a place to settle down. I like the women twisting their waists here, the swaying lights, the various colors of drinks, the smell of perfume mixed with tobacco, and the drunken life here, and then in the drunken life, I carved the messy past into a tombstone. I lit a cigarette, took off the film on the cigarette box, covered it in front of my eyes, looked at the swaying lights, and my body swayed with it. In the light refracted by the film, I seemed to see a kind of erosion of muddling through! I couldn't help but be a little fascinated! Fang Yuan took the film from my hand, and my world suddenly became clear again. "Why are you looking for me so urgently?" Fang Yuan put down his briefcase, took a cigarette from my cigarette box and lit it for himself. "Lend me some money, I'm being blackmailed!" "You got the girl pregnant again?" Fang Yuan said as if he was used to it. "f**k you again! I'm really being blackmailed this time "Who blackmailed you this time?" "Why are you asking so many nonsense questions?" "I lend you thousands every time, can you at least let me know who is cheating me out of my money?" "Le Yao." I said angrily as I lit a cigarette. "That print model?" "Isn't it her? Your circle is so chaotic. She said that I was the only man she slept with in a year. Do you believe it? Fang Yuan, if this happened to you, would you believe it?" I knocked my fingers on the table with excitement. "This kind of thing can't happen to me. Besides, she wouldn't cheat you out of a few thousand dollars. Last month, she took all the promotional posters for our department store. The remuneration alone was 10,000 yuan. I interrupted Fang Yuan with a sneer: "Don't you see what she usually spends? Can more than 10,000 yuan last her for a month? Now she has something wrong with others and has no money to deal with it. She thinks of me, her cheap friend... I'm so cheap. I shouldn't have introduced her to our company out of kindness. I didn't make less money for her. Now she's cheating me. Do you still have a conscience in the industry?" Fang Yuan ignored my anger and asked me in a low voice: “Have you taken safety measures?” I thought about it for a long time and only remembered that I was almost blacking out from drinking. I really couldn't remember it. After a while, I said: "Of course... Or I can't say I was cheated!" Fang Yuan looked at me suspiciously, and after a long time, he sighed and said to me: "Zhaoyang, we have been friends for almost ten years. Sometimes I really want to persuade you. I know that Jian Wei broke up with you, which was a big blow to you, but it has been two years. You really don't need to treat yourself like this... Youth waits for no one, find a girlfriend and settle down, okay?" When Jian Wei's name was mentioned again, I subconsciously froze for a while before saying: "Don't worry about my idleness, buddy is doing well!" "No lack of troubles! Right?" …… Fang Yuan counseled me for a long time, and I impatiently dealt with him for a long time. In the end, he left with a sentence "a piece of rotten mud cannot be helped to the wall", and left with dissatisfaction, but forgot that I borrowed money from him. Fortunately, I have been hanging around in the bar for two years, and I often bring some friends to the bar to consume. I am familiar with the bar owner. The consumption of drinking this time is temporarily recorded in the account. Walking out of the bar, holding an umbrella and walking on the rain-soaked street, I truly experienced what it means to be alone. I have struggled in this city for two years, but what I gained is endless emptiness and loneliness. In order to get rid of this poisonous emptiness and loneliness, I have to wear a mask to hide my shame. With this mask, I can live in a carefree and laissez-faire state. But no matter how I struggle on the edge of pain, she will never come back! I walked for several stops alone in a state of loss before returning to the community where I lived. This is an old community, so old that there is not even a property management. On the first day I came, I heard from the aunties in the community that this community was built in the early 1990s. Under the erosion of the long years, each building in the community looks so dilapidated, but one building is next to another, as if they are afraid of being lonely, so it seems that each building has life again, which makes me feel: in the dead of night, they will also whisper a few words to dispel decades of loneliness. Holding a cigarette in my mouth and taking out my key from my pocket, I walked towards the building where I lived. This building was the only one in the community with ivy. Every summer, the south-facing wall would be very green. If these buildings were also divided by gender, then this building was undoubtedly a woman, a cold woman. Often people feel sad for her! What surprised me was that there was a red Audi Q7 parked under this shabby building. In my impression, after living here for two years, it seems that there has never been a car over 500,000 yuan in this community. Without thinking too much, I whistled and walked along the corridor to my house. When I reached the top floor, I was surprised to find that the door of the house was ajar. I remembered that I had locked the door when I left. I subconsciously thought that there was a thief in the house. After calming down, I remembered that I had not paid rent to the landlord Lao Li for two months. Most likely, Lao Li came to urge the rent. Pushing open the door, the landlord Lao Li and a strange woman were sitting on the sofa. There was a bunch of Audi Q7 car keys on the coffee table. There was no doubt that the Q7 parked downstairs belonged to this strange girl. Then a question flashed in my mind: What kind of magic does Lao Li, a street wretch, have? He actually brought such a noble and inviolable girl like a white lily to this simple house. This really made me feel very uncomfortable.