Daddy's Girl

Chapter eleven - I won't leave until you tell me

Lizzy's POV:

Kevin is hiding something from me. He said something interesting. I wouldn't have been here if he hadn't left my mom. I have no idea what he meant with that. He knows something that no one else does. I don't know what to do with him. I can't stop thinking about this. Mom can't tell me anything. I bet she doesn't know what he meant by that. This is why I didn't tell her. She and Kevin are in good relations. I wanted them to get distant, but I couldn't do this to her. She deserves to have friends. Also, Noah likes this. Both of them became close. They go out often. I understand why he is always on his side. I can't do anything against this. The other thing is that I don't want to waste my time with this. I have more important things to worry about. Adam has been sick. Luckily, he feels better now. On Monday, he should be at school. I got bored being alone. He will keep me company. Ben wanted to go out with him again. All of us went out only once. I guess it was enough for him. It's good that my brother has friends. Well, they better be his age. At least my mom doesn't mind this. I know she is worried about him. It's not like I'm not. The problem is that what Kevin said can't get off my mind. I need to know the truth. I hope that he will stop hiding it from me and my mom.

The new week has begun. Adam is back at school. I told him about Kevin. He thinks that we need to talk. Me too, but it won't be easy. I believe that he won't speak to me. This doesn't mean I will give up. No matter what happens, he will talk to me. I want to know what is going on here. Something has happened that made him leave my mom. I can follow him, but this won't have a good end. He might end up getting mad at me. Also, I will get in trouble.

Currently, I am at school. Adam is sitting next to me. I haven't seen him paying attention in a while. I wish I could say this about myself. Sadly, I can't. I hate Kevin. Why did he have to say this? I'm sure it was unintentional. I have to focus on my classes. Good grades don't come this way. When it finished, I went to my locker. Adam followed me. I know he is worried for me. I appreciate it, but he doesn't need to do this. I switched my books for the next class.

- Hey, you can talk to me. What is going on? Are you still thinking about this?

- Isn't it obvious?

- Maybe he meant something else.

- Like what?

- I don't know.

- Exactly. I have to talk to him. Only he knows what happened between him and my mom.

- You are crazy.

- Won't you do the same for your dad?

- I have no idea where he is. Also, I'm not mad at him.

- Why? He left you.

- So? I'm sure he had a reason to do it. Mom doesn't earn much.

- Don't tell me you are complaining.

- I didn't say it.

- But you were thinking about this.

- We are talking about your dad.

- I know. He is not perfect.

- No one is.

- I wish we had better relations.

- It could've happened if you had done something.

- Don't start. Otherwise, you know what will happen.

- I know. I haven't met your dad, but I think you are like him.

- Everyone keeps saying this.

- Maybe because it's true. Your mom and grandparents know him better than you.

- This doesn't mean anything. People change.

- Then why don't you give him a chance?

- What?

- You said that people change. Give your dad a chance to prove that he has changed.

- I don't know who he used to be.

- You can ask your mom. She knew him well.

- Thanks, but I'll pass. I don't want to deal with this now.

- In that case, you don't need to talk to him.

- I have to do it. Only he knows what happened.

- Let me tell you something. You have no idea what you want. - Adam said and left

- Wait! What is that supposed to mean? You have to tell me.

Adam and I didn't talk about this anymore. There is no point. I'm saying one thing, but I'm doing the opposite. After school, we went to take Ben. I think it's time for him to come home. I have nothing to hide from him. My brother went to his room to study. I took Adam to mine. It's not big, but we won't do anything. He is not my boyfriend. I wanted to finish with my lessons. Somehow, I convinced him to study with me. First, we did our homework. The lessons came later. We finished in two hours. Now, we can rest.

- What do you want us to do now?

- We can go out if you want.

- I don't know. I have to go and talk with Kevin.

- I think it's time for you to stop calling him like that. He is your dad.

- So? I never felt like that. He didn't do anything for me.

- Because he had other priorities.

- This is not an excuse. She should've thought better before getting my mom pregnant.

- Is it only that, or is there something else?

- What do you mean?

- I don't think you are mad at him only because he left her.

- As if. There is no other reason.

- I think it is.

- Then what is the other reason?

- You don't want to get close to him. That is because you are afraid he will leave you.

- That was a good joke. I liked it.

- Lizzy, I'm serious. I would love to meet my dad.

- Good for you. I don't plan on getting close to him. All I need is answers. That's it.

- Keep repeating it until you believe it.

- I believe it.

- Yeah, sure. Let's go out. Should we take Ben?

- Do we have to be outside?

- You can stay here. I will take your brother with me.

- No way. I'm not letting him alone with you.

- Why? I won't do anything.

- He should always be with me.

- Aren't you obsessed with him?

- No, I love him. There is a difference.

- If you say so. Call him, and let's go. We can go for drinks.

- Since when have you been so nice to me?

- I always have been.

- Sure. You can wait for me downstairs.

I called Ben, and all of us walked out. We were outside for an hour. Adam took us for drinks. My brother was happy that we took him with us. I will never leave him alone. Later, I took him home. Around 6 pm, I went to buy dinner. I wanted to talk to Kevin for a long time. I had no idea where he lived, so one day, I followed him. I deleted his phone number. Also, I have blocked him from all my social media accounts. I took a deep breath and knocked on the door. There was no one. Then, I used the bell. Soon, he came.

- Lizzy? What are you doing here?

- Can I come in?

- Yes, sure.

- Have you eaten dinner?

- Not yet. Why?

- I bought food.

- Ok, thanks. There was no need for that.

- I already did it.

- Can I know how you found me? I haven't told anyone where I live.

- Simple.

- Did you follow me?

- Maybe.

- No offense, but why are you here? I thought you didn't want to see me.

- True, but I have some questions. Only you know the answers.

- What are they?

- You should know that I won't leave until you tell me.

- Tell you what?

- Do you have plates? The food will get cold.

- I'll bring them.

- Good.

- What did you buy? - he asked and put two plates on the table

- Chicken with rice and mushrooms. Also, it came with this sauce.

- It looks good.

- I hope so. There weren't many options. Some things take time to prepare. I didn't have that much.

- Don't worry. I will still eat it.

- It's not like you have a choice.

- Something has happened. I don't enjoy the cold lower tone.

- You should get used to it.

- Am I in trouble?

- It depends on. You will be if you don't answer my questions. I always get what I want.

- Why aren't you like your mom?

- Because she is too soft.

- This is a good thing.

- Not in my case. Eat now.

- Yes, miss.

We ate our dinner peacefully. From time to time, I was looking at him. Kevin was so calm. I don't understand. He did so many things. For some reason, I feel bad for him. I mean, he is alone. He might have friends, but they are not here. I live with my mom, Noah, and Ben. Kevin has no one here. It doesn't look like this is bothering him. I want to scream and yell at him, but it's wrong. He doesn't deserve it. I felt eyes on me and looked up.

- Hey, are you ok? Did I do something?

- Why did you leave my mom?

- Lizzy.

- Tell me! I deserve to know the truth.

- I have already told you. I made my choice.

- What was it?

- My job.

- Which is?

- Not something you should worry about.

- But I want to know. I won't leave until you don't tell me everything.

- Lizzy.

- I said something. You better start talking.

- Who do you have to be like that?

- Because I look like you.

- Sad, but true.

- Well?

- If I tell you this, you should promise me you won't tell anyone. I mean, even your mom.

- Why?

- Lizzy.

- Ok, ok. I promise. I won't tell anyone. Now, start talking.

- What do you think my job is?

- Mom told me you are a drug dealer, but I don't believe it. Otherwise, you won't be nice to me.

- She is correct. Well, not at all.

- What is that supposed to mean?

- I am a drug dealer, but this is not my real job.

- I'm confused.

- Lizzy, I am a police officer who works undercover as a drug dealer.

- What? No way.

- Do you believe me now? - he asked and showed me his card

- What? How?

- Simple.

- I don't understand. Why don't you tell her? She believes you are a horrible person when you are not. - I said with tears in my eyes

- Because it's better if she doesn't know. Please, don't tell her.

- But.

- You promised me.

- Ok, ok. I will keep my mouth shut.

- Thanks.

- I'm sorry.

- For?

- Being mad at you.

- Are you still mad at me?

- I don't know. I feel bad for you. I mean, you are alone.

- I'm not alone. I have friends.

Kevin and I talked for some time. I didn't tell my mom I would be here. Now, it's better if I don't mention this to her. I'm starting to understand why he left her. I thought no excuse would take the guilt off of him. I was wrong. I believe that he still loves her, even if he will never tell her. At least I know the truth. This is all I wanted. For some reason, I don't feel satisfied. It's the opposite. I'm upset. I did all these things to him. The fact that he didn't give up meant how much he wanted it. Adam is right. I need to stop calling him Kevin. I hope that we can start from the beginning.