ERASTHAI SERIES BOOK 3: Love, Remi (COMPLETED)

WARNING: SPG/MATURE CONTENT. THIS STORY CONTAINS EXPLICIT SCENES. PLEASE READ AT YOUR OWN RISK.

Dear Edward,

Habang binabasa mo ang sulat na ito, malamang ay nasa himpapawid na ako sakay ng eroplano. Lalayo na ako kagaya ng gusto mo.

Alam mo, magmula nang makilala kita noon, ako na yata ang pinaka naging makasariling tao. I want you all by myself, even though you don’t want me and can’t even spare me a glance.

You know that I love you, right? My heart is beating for you, and you only. Lahat ng pagmamahal ko, pati ang para sa sarili ko, I’ve given it all to you. Pero kahit anong gawin ko, siguro talagang hindi na darating yung araw na mamahalin mo din ako. And it hurts. It hurts like hell. Like my heart is being shattered into million pieces.

Lalayo ako, hindi dahil iiwan na kita. Kundi dahil gusto kong mahanap mo na ang kasiyahan sa iba na hindi mo nahanap sakin. At kahit ako ang aalis, pakiramdam ko, ako pa din ang naiwan. Kasi yung kasiyahan ko, sayo ko nahanap at hindi sa iba.

But I don’t want to be selfish anymore. I love you so much that I will finally let you go. That I’ve finally have the courage to love myself too.

I’m sorry that I’m not the woman you can be proud of. I tried. I tried to be in the same circle as you. But I’m not sorry that I am me. Kasi kung hindi ako ito, baka hindi kita nakilala. Baka hindi kita nagawang mahalin. Kasi kahit gaano pa kasakit ang nararamdaman ko ngayon, hindi ko pa din magawang pagsisihan lahat ng segundo na nagkasama tayo.

I’ll cherish it. Every second. Everything.

Go and find your happiness.

And I’ll go too and try to find the happy version of me that I was once.

You’ll always be my handsome husband. And I’m sorry that I can’t be your Fat Remi anymore.

I love you, goodbye.

Love,

Remi

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