Melody of Broken Strings (Completed)

Chapter 8

"But maybe this thing was a masterpiece

Till you tore it all up

Running scared, I was there

I remember it all too well"

~Taylor Swift, All Too Well

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8

Yssa's POV

That night I slept with a relaxed mind and a firm decision. Tama si Jordan, as long as there is love, fight for it or you might regret. I have so many things in mind, like how I can approach him. Alam ko, in the past few days, medyo nagkalayo kami ng loob. But this is the time para bumawi. Whether it was my fault or his, it doesn't matter anymore. Ang mahalaga, bumalik kami sa dati.

When I woke up in the morning, I felt so excited. Para bang bumalik ako sa panahon noong first date namin. Noong nagliligawan pa lang kami. Those were the happy memories that I want to feel again. 'Yong tipong, kilig kilig lang at walang sakitan. Ang sarap sa pakiramdam na balikan ang mga alaalang yon.

Sa sobrang excited ko, maaga akong bumangon at nag-ayos. Fifth monthsary namin ngayon, I want to surprise him with a homemade breakfast. Sobrang desidido na akong suyuin siya. Di bale nang magmukhang tanga. Hindi naman ako nabubuhay para sa sasabihin ng ibang tao kaya gagawin ko lahat para sa kanya.

Nagluto ako ng bacon at itlog at nilagay ko sa lunchbox. Pagkadating ko sa office, wala pa siya. Naghintay pa ako ng ilang sandali, pero walang Jaxon na dumating. Instead na mawalan ng pag-asa, I tried to call him.

Naka-ilang ring pa muna bago niya nasagot ang tawag ko.

"Hello babe," his voice sounded husky and heavy. Bigla akong nag-alala sa kanya.

"Where are you, babe? Hindi ka ba papasok ngayon?" I asked him.

"Ahh, no babe. I'm in my house, may trangkaso ako." Muli kong narinig ang mabigat niyang paghinga, senyales na masama nga ang kanyang pakiramdam.

"Wait, bakit hindi mo sinabi sa akin? Dyan ka lang ha, pupuntahan kita ngayon---"

"No babe, wag ka nang pumunta dito. Ayokong mahawa ka sa akin. Don't worry about me, nakainom na rin naman ako ng gamot. I'll be okay."

I sighed. Gusto kong alagaan siya, pero parang ayaw naman niya.

"Are you sure you're okay? If you're not, I can go there." I was hoping he'd say no because I wanted to see him. To see if he's really fine.

"Y-yes babe, I'm fine-- ooh!" Rinig na rinig ko ang nahahapo at mabibigat niyang paghinga. At nung mga oras na yon, gusto kong lumipad papunta sa kanya.

"What happened babe? Are you really sure you're okay?." Lalo akong hindi mapakali sa inuupuan ko.

"Yes babe, medyo nahilo lang ako kasi bigla akong tumayo. I'll just rest for a while. I'll call you later babe."

Hindi na niya ako binigyan pa ng chance na makapagsalita dahil agad niyang ibinaba ang tawag.

Sobra akong kinakabahan at nag-aalala kaya naman, kahit alam kong ayaw niya, nag-undertime pa rin ako. Umuwi ako sa bahay at nagluto ng favorite niyang adobo at sinamahan ko rin iyon ng sopas para may kainin siya pagdating ko. Hindi ako mapapakali knowing na may sakit siya, kaya pupuntahan ko siya.

Agad akong nagpalit ng damit. Isang fitted T-shirt na kulay white, isang denim shorts at flipflops lang suot ko. Maingat na isinalin ko sa lalagyan ang mga niluto ko at bumaba sa parking lot.

Habang papunta ay marami akong naiisip. Katulad ng, ano kayang magiging reaksyon niya. Will he be surprised? Will he be glad to see me? Will he be happy if I take care of him?

Pabilis ng pabilis ang t***k ng puso ko habang palapit na sa bahay niya. Ngayon lang ulit kami magkikita at magkakausap ng masinsinan. Ngayon lang ulit kami magsosolo. At magiging ipokrita ako kung sasabihin kung hindi ko na miss ang halik at yakap niya, dahil sa totoo lang, I've been longing for him. Parang napakatagal na nung huli niya akong niyakap at hinalikan. I think it's time to give him what he wanted. Afterall, wala na rin naman akong ibang nanaisin na makasama habang buhay kung hindi siya.

Pinark ko ang kotse at saka bumaba dala ang mga niluto ko. Hindi ko na kailangan pang kumatok dahil may susi naman ako ng bahay niya. Matagal na niya itong binigay sa akin para daw kapag bibisitahin ko siya ay diretso na ako, tutal naman daw magiging mag-asawa naman daw kami sa future. Napangiti ako ng maalala ko iyon.

Nilapag ko muna ang mga pagkain at isinuksok ang susi, but it turned out na bukas naman pala ang pinto niya. Pumasok ako sa bahay niya. May mga gamit na nagkalat sa sahig, pinulot ko ang isang piraso ng damit at muntik pa akong matumba nang marealized kong damit ito ng isang babae. Hindi kalayuan ay tumambad sa akin ang isang laced bikini na kulay pula.

Biglang kumalabog ng malakas ang puso ko. I tried to call Jaxon's name but I cannot find my voice. Parang may kung anong nakabara sa lalamunan ko. I was trembling with fear, and a searing pain in my heart. It's like my heart was literally pulled out of my chest, hammered and then cut into tiny little pieces.

I found myself taking the staircase and heading into his room. As I was coming nearer, odd noises filled the room. The loud purring and moaning of a woman can be heard. I bit my lower lip to stop myself from crying. I came here to surprise him, but alas! The joke was on me, as I opened the door of his room, I got the biggest surprise of my life.

I stood there, watching like a ghost. I leaned on the wall for support. His back was turned against me, he was grinding forcefully, thrusting deep into Mindy's p***y. Her legs curled up on his waist while his hands were pinching and massaging her swollen breast. Mindy's eyes were closed, and her mouth slightly open. While Jaxon was looking up to the ceiling with his eyes also closed. Sweat trickled down their bodies. He pounded faster and deeply plunged his manhood inside as the room echoed their sound of ecstasy.

Wow, I just witnessed a f*****g live show. I commended myself for staying and waiting for them to finish.

When they were finally getting back to their senses, I went near them and clapped my hand slowly and forcefully. They both looked at me with shocked and guilty faces.

I slapped Jaxon hard in the face, and then another one. Nanginginig ako sa sobrang galit at sakit ngayon.

"Masarap ba? Hindi ko alam, yan na pala ang gamot sa trangkaso ngayon, or did you even had a fever? I came here to f*****g surprise you! I brought you f*****g food and medicines, but oh. I didn't know you have a surprise for me too."

I laughed sarcastically. I didn't realize I was this strong despite trembling in so much pain and anger.

I looked at Jaxon, pierced him with my eyes like it could kill him any moment.

"Masyado ka bang natigang sa ilang buwan dahil hindi kita pinagbigyan? You know what, I'm really thankful that I discovered this sooner. Why? 'Cause today was our f*****g monthsary, and today, I have decided to finally give you myself! I was stupid to trust you!"

Sinubukan niya akong lapitan, hindi alintana ang kanyang kahubadan.

"Babe, let me ex---"

"Don't you f*****g come near me! Nandidiri ako sa'yo! Don't you ever lay your filthy hands on me! Wala kayong mga delikadesa. At ikaw!"

Dinuro ko si Mindy at malakas na sinampal. Mariin kong hinawakan ang buhok niya at malakas siyang hinila pababa ng kama bago binigyan ulit ng isang sampal.

"Ano? Masaya bang makasira ng relasyon? Ha? Ilang tao na ba ang napaghiwalay mo? Mas masarap bang makipagsex sa taong hindi sa'yo? Nasaan ang kahihiyan mo?"

Hindi siya makatingin sa akin. Nakayakap lang siya sa sarili niya habang umiiyak.

Gustuhin ko man umiyak, pakiramdam ko naubos na lahat ng luha ko.

Yung iilang gabing iyak ako ng iyak dahil nagkakalabuan kami, tapos heto pala siya at nagsasaya sa piling ng malanding babaeng to.

Nakatayo lang si Jaxon habang nakayuko. Hindi alam kung anong gagawin niya. Ako nga rin eh, hindi ko rin alam kung ano pa nga bang ginagawa ko dito.

I've had enough. Jordan said, na kapag wala na ang pagmamahal, isuko mo na.

I'm not sure if he really loved me, kasi sa nakikita ko ngayon, parang yun lang naman talaga ang habol niya sa akin.

I slowly walked back dahil nararamdaman kong malapit ng maubos ang lahat ng tapang na baon ko.

"Sayang naman yung pagkaing dala ko, baka masyado kayong nagutom sa exercise niyo, kainin niyo na lang. I cooked adobo, favorite mo yun di ba? Sinamahan ko rin ng sopas kasi sabi mo masakit ang ulo mo. Kahit ayaw mo na pumunta ako rito, I still did. I took a day off. I cooked for you and decided to visit and take care of you, pero huli na pala ako. Hindi man lang ako na inform na may personal nurse ka pala. Hindi lang magaling mag-alaga, magaling pang magkamot ng kakatihan mo. Alam mo yung masakit Jaxon? I trusted you. Kahit na ilang beses na kitang nahuling nagsisinungaling sa akin, lahat yon pinalagpas ko. Kasi mahal kita, sabi ko sa sarili ko na may rason ka. Pero kahit kailan, hindi ka nag-explain sa akin. You thought you were handling it fine, but no. You're not. And I am so glad na nakita ko kaagad kung ano ang kulay mo. Alam mo bang sa mga oras na to, parang dinudurog ang puso ko? Alam mo bang nanginginig ako sa galit habang pinapanuod ko kayo? Alam mo bang yung sugat na iniwan mo dito sa puso ko, sobrang lalim? I love you so much, but you traded a diamond with an ordinary gem. A very common stone."

I left them there and hastily went out of his house. So much surprise for this day.

Nang makapasok ako sa kotse ko biglang bumuhos ang mga luha ko. Muling nanginig ang mga kamay ko.

Hinayaan ko munang umagos ang luha ko, baka sakaling mawala ang sakit sa dibdib ko. Baka sakaling malunod na lang ako at mamatay para hindi ko na maramdaman ito.

Ilang sandali pa ay nakita ko si Jaxon na papalabas sa bahay niya, nakasuot na siya ng shorts. Nagapalinga-linga muna siya, at noong makita ang kotse ko ay dali-dali siyang tumakbo.

Mabilis kong pinaandar ang kotse ko at nagmaneho. Tumakbo siya at humabol, pilit niyang kinatok ang bintana ko.

Mas binilisan ko pa ang pagmamaneho hanggang sa hindi ko na siya matanaw.

I'm done with him. Tama na yung isang sakit, katangahan na ang hayaang siyang saktan ulit ako.

Umikot-ikot lang ako, walang direksyon. Hindi ko alam kung saan ako pupunta, ang alam ko lang gusto kong kumalma.

Natagpuan ko ang sarili kong tinatahak ang daan patungo sa bar na pagmamay-ari ang tiyuhin ni Jordan.

Pumasok ako sa loob at agad na umorder ng hard liquor. Sobrang sama ng lasa pero wala akong pakealam. Kung sa pamamagitan lang nito maiibsan ang lahat ng sakit sa puso ko. Gusto ko lang mamanhid ang puso ko kahit sandali lang. Hindi ko alam kung nakailang shots na ako, pero unti-unti nang umiikot ang mundo ko.

Napabaling ako ng may umupo sa tabi ko. Nang tingnan ko, si Jordan pala ito. Hindi siya naka-uniporme ng bar ngayon. Nakasuot lang siya ng simpleng itim na T-shirt at maong na pantalon. Tinungga niya ang sariling alak bago nagbaling sa akin.

"Problem?" Mahinang tanong niya.

Hindi ako sumagot. Muli lang akong tumungga.

"Ikaw ba, may problema ka?" Balik tanong ko sa kanya. Lasing na siguro ako kasi lalong naging gwapo si Jordan sa paningin ko. Bakit kaya hindi na lang siya ang minahal ng kaibigan ko?

"Well, today was the day I decided to let her go. In the first place, alam ko namang kaibigan lang ang tingin ni Sydney sa akin. Ako yung kusang nahulog sa kanya. Hindi niya ko pinilit. Hindi niya ginusto. Tanggap ko naman na mahal niya pa rin yung ex niya. Pero tao lang din naman ako, at masakit dito." Tinuro niya ang puso niya at nangilid ang luha sa mga mata niya.

"Today was supposed to be our fifth monthsary." Nabaling sa akin ang atensyon niya nang magsimula akong magkwento.

"I went to his house to surprise him and to take care of him because he said he was sick. Pero imbes na siya ang masurprise, ako pa yata ang higit na nagulat. I saw with my own eyes, how he cheated on me. It hurts so much here, Jordan. Parang hindi ako makahinga sa sobrang sakit."

Hinagod-hagod niya ang likod ko. Hindi ko na mabilang kung ilan na ang nainom ko, pero nagpatuloy kami paglalabas ng sakit ng loob hanggang sa hindi namin namalayang, magsasara na pala ang bar.

Inalalayan ako ni Jordan palabas dahil para na akong mabubuwal. Nakaramdam ako ng kakaibang init mula sa kanyang mga palad. At dahil hindi ko na kaya pang mag drive, sa kotse niya ako sumakay. Kung saan kami pupunta ay hindi ko alam.

Huminto kami sa tapat ng isang apartment. Muli niya akong inalalayan at inakay papasok sa isang bahay.

Doon namin ipinagpatuloy ang pag-iinuman. Muli akong napatitig sa mukha niya. Gwapo naman talaga siya, mabait at matulungin. Sayang nga lang at hindi siya mahal ng best friend ko.

WARNING: R-18

"You know what, you're really handsome." I blurted out, and regret the moment I realized what I have said.

I saw a smile crept up his face.

"You really think so?" He asked.

"Yeah, really." I answered without taking my glance from him.

His smile widen at my words.

I sighed as I looked at him, my thoughts quickly drifted back to what happened today.

"Hey, are you thinking about them again?" He asked, so softly like he was afraid to hurt me. I was so preoccupied that I didn't notice him until he was in front of me.

He cupped my face and tilted it upwards to meet his eyes. There is something in his eyes that comforts me. I don't want to look away.

I let out a sigh before answering.

"I cannot stop it. It was so fresh."

"Cheer up beautiful, you deserve someone better."

He looked at me intently, in my eyes and down to my lips. I saw something in his eyes, was it desire? My heart was beating really fast but I cannot tear away from his glance.

Slowly, he moved his face closer until his lips touched mine. My eyes closed automatically and I cling my arms in his neck. It felt like the world stopped, like time was forever frozen.

I felt his hand on my back, caressing, touching. What he did gave me a feeling that is so foreign. His kiss felt so different and for the first time, I felt like there really are butterflies in my stomach.

The kiss was magnetic, I couldn't pull away. He held me tight in his arms, pulling me closer. He left no space between us.

I found myself chasing his lips when we parted. Just then, he kissed me again. He traced my lips with his tongue, urging me to open. I let him in, felt his tongue dance with mine to a song only our mouths know.

We continued kissing until we reached his bedroom. He sat me on his bed never leaving my lips. He suckled my lips, his tongue exploring my insides. My mind was telling me to pull away, to push him away but my body does otherwise.

I felt his lips on my ear. Gently nipping, nibbling as it slide down my neck. He planted sweet small kisses on my neck, making me arch my back. The sensation brought by his touch and kisses was so strong. I felt a sudden desire.

The next thing I knew was my clothes thrown off the floor. He stopped for a moment to watch me. His eyes lingering on my breast.

"Hmm. Beautiful."

He said smiling. I felt my cheeks turn red. I suddenly felt the urge to cover my breast but his hands stopped me. He began kissing me again while his hands started touching my breast. He used his thumb to play with my n****e. I felt goosebumps as he continue to do so.

I don't know what to do. I arched my back, feeling his body with mine. His warmth waking up something in me. His lips traveled down leaving wet kisses on my neck and in between my breast. Then he sucked one of my n*****s. Making it wet with his tongue, tracing its tip. I could feel my body respond to it, I suddenly feel aroused. He sucked my n*****s alternately while his hands continued touching me everywhere. And in just a swift move, our bodies combined.

A tear escaped my eyes as I felt a searing pain on my private part. He kissed my tears away and slowly began thrusting within me. The pain was replaced by an indescribable pleasure. I found myself dancing to his rhythm. I felt something building within me. He pounded faster, my whole body was trembling. My legs convulsed as I felt my release. And with one final thrust, we found ourselves in heaven.

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To be continued....