It's been weeks since Shermaine's last visit. Hindi nadin ako pinapalabas ng bahay ni Kael dahil ayaw niyang mapahamak ako. I spent my days on baking, cooking, swimming and even doing household chores. I giggled when I thought I am like Kael's wife. The thought of it making my heart hammered inside my chest.
Hindi na talaga to biro, I am starting to like Kael. His care, his gentle touches sends shivers down my spine. I've never felt like this before. I've never felt important. Hindi pa ako nakakaramdam ng ganito na tila ba isa akong mamahaling gamit na ayaw niyang manakaw o mabasag man lang.
My first impression of him is that he is a fuckboy. Pero, hindi, I was wrong. He is a kind, gentle, and polite man I've ever known.
Naka upo ako sa island counter ng kusina habang umiinom ng wine. The doorbell rang. I leaped from my chair and went towards the double door. Kapag may nag doorbell alam kong si Kael na talaga yun.
When I open the door I was shocked to see a different people standing at the entrance. They looked at me confused. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang sasabihin ko. I felt like my tongue was being caught by a cat.
"Yes? C-can I help you?" Tanong ko sa kanila. I glance at the woman beside the tall dark skinned man. She is intently staring at me, questions were visible in her eyes.
"We're here for Kael" the man said and scanned me from my head to toe. I cleared my throat and open the double door widely so they can enter
"I'll call him, wala kasi siya rito. Sa palagay ko nasa resort siya" sabi ko at tumingin sa kanila. They look around the area.
"Who are you?" Tanong ng babae. Kinakabahan ako, kung makatitig kasi siya sakin parang may inagaw ako sa kaniya.
"I'm Kael's friend" I simply answered. Tumaas ang isa niyang kilay.
"Are you one of his f**k buddies?" Tanong nya bakas sa tono niya ang sarkastiko. Naiilang ako sa tanong niya. Kael never did that to me and no matter how much I trust him, I still can't submit myself to a man I just met few months ago.
I shook my head and continue to the center table to grab my phone.
"You have his number?" Tanong ng lalaki. His eyes were blue, his hair is jet black and it was styled into a messy hairstyle. His brows were thick and define. His eyes were hooded his nose is perfectly straight and pointed from the bridge to the tip.
His lips are thin and reddish.
"Yes I do" I answered and give him the phone. The woman is still staring at me.
"Why are you here?" Tanong naman ng isang lalaki.
"I work for him. I was running away from someone and he said I can stay here" sabi ko sa kaniya. He just nod and never say anything.
"What do you want? Juice? Water? Snacks?" Tanong ko sa kanila.
"I'm fine with juice" sagot nung isang lalaki.
Tumango ako at nagpunta sa kusina. Napansin kong nakasunod sakin ang babae. Liningon ko siya.
"So, you work here?" Tanong niya sakin. I nod.
"Akala ko girlfriend ka niya or f**k buddy"
"No, he didn't touch me the way you think"
She stared at me for a moment.
"So he's kind and gentle to you? Because as far as I can see he is literally the stars of everyone. They can watch him but they can't reach him. He's too far from us or them" she said. It is a logical statement.
"Yes, he's not just kind. He is also caring and a green flag for me" humagalpak siya ng tawa na para bang may nasabi akong nakakatawa.
"You don't know him the way we did. We came before you, don't trust too much. It will hurt you and it will cause you a never ending pain" she said in a low voice. Mataman ko siyang tinitigan at tinimbang ang kaniyang mga ekpresyon.
Maybe, just maybe I was the one who knew him first. I was the one who have him but I can't remember a thing.
"Thank you for that wisdom, but that's how I see Kael. That's how I describe him because that's the Kael he showed me. That's the Kael that he wants me to see and not the other one" I smiled at her and hand her an orange juice.
"People have different sides miss. We can change personalities for different people" dagdag ko at nilagpasan siya.
Yes, she's right. I may not know Kael but I know somewhere in me knows him.
Nang makarating ako sa sala. Naka tayo parin ang dalawang lalaki habang nag uusap. The other one wears teal botton down shirt paired with black slacks and a black leather shoes.
"Why don't you sit down first. I'm sure Kael will be here soon" I said and put the drinks on the table. They stared at me for a moment before doing what I said.
Hindi ko na sila ini-entertain dahil mukhang mas kumportable silang wala ako. Umakyat nalang ako sa kuwarto para maligo. Kahit na air conditioned naman ang buong lugar. Naiinitan parin ako.
Pagkatapos kong maligo bumaba ulit ako. My eyes widened when I saw Drakke sitting on the couch. My world stops when I saw him smirking at me. Kael is standing behind him, unable to look at me. I look at him with so much questions.
Bakit? Did he turn me in? I felt a thud inside my heart, s**t. Bakit hindi ko naisip na puwede akong isauli kay Drakke. Parang napako ang mga paa ko. Hindi pa ako nakaabot sa sahig ng living room.
With my heart pounded so hard I ran upstairs. I can feel someone is following me ina fast pace. I ran towards the hallway upstairs. My feet became weak and I felt like my knees wobbled.
I tried to reach for the door. Before I could turn the door knob for it to open. A strong arm wrapped around my waist and pull me away from the door.
"BITAWAN MO AKO!" I screamed. Pinapadyak padyak ko ang aking mga paa at hinampas hampas ang mga brasong naka pulupot sakin. I felt his breath on my earlobe.
"Oh no, I won't do that Maia" he whispered with a low and playful voice. He pinned me to the wall. Kinulong niya ako sa kaniyang mga braso. Nakatalikod ako sa kaniya. His body pressed against mine. Nakatagilid ang ulo ko. I can see his rage on my peripheral vision.
Hindi siya ang Drakke na nakilala ko some months ago. This Drakke is different, he looks like a.... monster.
I can feel something big ang bulging on my back. Gusto kong kumawala sa kaniya. Nasa parte kami ng bahay na walang masyadong pumunta which is ang storage room dito sa itaas. Medyo madilim ang area dahil hindi naman nakabukas ang ilaw banda dito.
I can feel his tongue licking my earlobe. I whimper to the sensation I felt.
"Pinapahirapan mo ako. Hindi ako makatulog. I can't be able to sleep because I am thinking of you" he whispered. His voice is low but deadly. I can feel his rage against his voice.
"Bakit ba? I am nothing, just a payment for you" I rebut. Mas lalo niyang idiniin ang kaniyang katawan sa katawan ko.
"You're more than what you think Maia. I badly need you" he answered. His breath became ragged. I felt like he loses control.
"Let go of me! You are a monster. Ayoko sa mga katulad mo!" Sigaw ko na halos naiiyak na. I can't stop myself. My heart aches so bad. Dito lang ako nakahinga ng maluwag na walang ibang inaalala kundi ang trabaho ko sa resort ni Kael.
"Please let me breath. Ayokong pinapangunahan ako. Ayokong may nagmamay ari sa akin kasi hindi naman ako bagay" I exclaimed. My chest tightened. Uminit na ang mga mata ko. My throat hurt because I wanted to cry.
"Wala ka namang mapapala sakin eh. Bakit mo ba ako hinahabol?" Nanghihina kong tanong. I felt him froze behind me.
"Why are you chasing me? What am I to you?" Gusto kong sigawan siya pero wala na akong lakas para gawin yun. Napapagod na ako sa kakatago. Napapagod na akong mandamay ng ibang tao. My feelings is all mixed up right now, hindi ko alam kung anong nararamdaman ko.
"Dito na lang ako. Mas mabuti pang isang estranghero ang makakasama ko kesa sa iyo!" pagpatuloy ko. Naramdaman kong lumuwag ang pagkaka dikit niya sa akin.
Tuluyan na siyang bumitaw sakin. Dahan dahan naman akong humarap sa kaniya. I stiffened in place when I saw his eyes. His eyes full of fear, full of doubts, sadness, longing and fury. Nakatingin siya sakin na para bang isa akong santo na handa niyang luluhuran.
He grab my hand gently, pinisil pisil niya iyon. My heart hammered inside my chest not because I am afraid but because I am nervous at the same time it tickles my stomach when I felt his touches.
Hinila niya ako sa kuwarto ko. My heart pounded so hard. Para akong na hipnotismo sa kaniyang mga kamay. Pinapasok niya ako dito. Wala siyang imik, tinignan niya ako. His eyes now is clearly full of fear. As if he witness something veru traumatizing.
"Diyan ka muna, huwag ka munang lumabas. Susunduin kita dito". After he said that he closed the door. I stared at the it. Anong nangyari?