Autumn Season One (Las Rozas Series #1)

Chapter 4

Chapter 4

"Raze..." Tawag sa 'kin ng isang mahinhin na babae. Nandito kami ngayon sa tambayan namin dito sa school dahil nagtanong kami about sa grades ni Aries because he has failing grades kahit na wala naman dapat base sa computation namin kaya naman pina-correct namin. For me, it's important to know how to compute your own grades para kung sakali na may reklamo ka sa teacher mo at mali ang computation niya sa grades mo pwede mo ipakita sa kaniya as proof ang computation na nakuha mo.

Natahimik ang mga kaibigan ko sa pag-aasaran ng marinig nila ang tumawag sa akin. Isang babae na umiiyak. I frowned because of confusion.

"Why did you left me after our making love?" Naiiyak niyang tanong sa 'kin. Narinig kong nag 'Oh' ang mga kaibigan ko dahil sa sinabi niya. Kumunot naman ang noo ko sa pagtataka.

"Making love?" I chuckled. Her cheeks turned red because of the embarrassment. "It's just f**k woman. How come that I'll make love with you when I don't even know your name?" I asked sarcastically. She cried so hard because of what I said. I'm just being honest here. Bakit niya sasabihin sa aking 'making love' 'yon kung hindi ko naman siya kilala at mahal? That making love is only for the couple who is in love with each other hindi para sa dalawang tao na nagkakilala lang sa loob ng bar. Ni hindi ko nga alam ang pangalan niya. This woman is making me laugh.

"But I thought..." She can't finish her sentence dahil sa paghikbi. Nanginginig ang balikat niya dahil sa sobrang pag-iyak. Did she think that what we do is making love? And I don't remember na nagsex kaming dalawa kagabi? From what I remember I just drop her in a near hotel then left 'cuz I don't want to have s*x with someone who's not in her right state. It's rape Dude.

"Miss, Are you not aware how playboy are my friend here? He will just f**k you and nothing more." Singit ni Klaus sa usapan namin.

"You said a lot of things to me..." She said angrily. Ignored what Klaus said.

"He always does that to a girl he wants to fuck." Nakangiwing sambit ulit ni Klaus sa babae.

"Playboys always do that, anyway." Aaron shrugged and the girl desperately looked at me.

"And by the way... he didn't enjoy f*****g you. Actually-" Franz didn't finish his words because I cut him off.

"I already told you that I'm not into a romantic relationship while you were initiating to kiss me. I told you I don't do kissing and just f*****g. So, it's common sense that after our steamy exercise, I will leave you. So what do you want me to do with you after that? Cuddle? Greet you a good morning after you wake up? Cook breakfast for you? Or ask you some questions like... are you sore? Did I make you tired last night?" I said and laughed. Even my friends laughed. I didn't even remember that I did have s*x with her. Kaya hindi ko alam kung ano ang sinasabi niyang making love pero sinabi ko pa din ang gusto kong sabihin dahil lagi ko naman sinasabihan ang mga nakakasex ko na hanggang s*x lang ang mangyayari sa amin. After s*x, I'm going to leave them and they're fine with that.

"It seems like you didn't get me, or you do understand what I said, but you just acted like nothing. And you hoped that you can make me fall in love with you by just giving yourself to me. Like what happened in some kind of books or dramas. I told you that I only want to f**k and you agreed with me. So why are you crying In front of me now? Why are you making a scene? I always let the woman I f**k with know my intentions. They are aware of it and they are sports. So, in your case, don't be desperate. You're making yourself low in front of these people."

Natahimik ang mga schoolmates ko. Kahit ang mga kaibigan ko. I think I am being harsh. Wala siyang ibang ginawa kundi ang humikbi. I sighed. I f****d lots of girls, even some of my girl schoolmates but this is the first time na may pumunta sa aking babae at nagdedemand na parang may responsibilidad ako sa kaniya, na para bang hindi ko siya sinabihan agad. Edi sana hindi nalang siya pumayag kung aasa lang pala siya sa 'kin. I'm not giving any women that I f****d false hope on me because I'm aware to myself na wala silang aasahan sa 'kin, so as much as I can. I always make them know my intentions before proceeding in s*x. Hindi lang ako basta humihila ng babaeng willing sa kama, palagi ko ding sinisigurado na sports sila sa gusto ko at tanging physical attachment lang ang mangyayari.

I shook my head and get my things. Ganun din ang ginawa ng mga kaibigan ko. Iniwan namin doon ang babae na umiiyak. Wala akong panahon na panoodin siya na ibaba ang sarili niya dahil lang sa 'kin. Wala akong ginawa sa kaniya, hinayaan ko lang siyang matulog doon sa hotel pagkahatid ko sa kaniya doon dahil ayokong pagsamantalahan ang babaeng lasing. Hindi ako gano'n, lahat ng nakasex ko nasa tamang pag-iisip nila dahil ayokong may nakakasex na wala na sa tamang pag-iisip dahil sa epekto ng alak. Bibigyan ko lang ng sakit ng ulo ang sarili ko and I know the rules on that. That's rape.

"You're so harsh." Sabi ni Cassie habang naglalakad kami papuntang parking lot. Sa aming lahat siya ang pinakamabait. She went to the club with us. She does party, drink, but she never goes on the dance floor flirting with some guys or making out. Parang sumasama lang siya para bantayan kami kasi alam niya na minsan, yung alak sa utak napupunta, at hindi sa tiyan. So kapag may nagawa kaming gulo, siya agad yung tatawag ng rescue para 'di kami mapapahamak.

"You can talk to her nicely. Kayong lahat. 'Di naman kailangan ipahiya sya sa harap ng maraming tao. And please, Raze, you're at fault here. Kahit di mo pinaasa, may nangyari sa inyo, in the hopes na mapapabigyan mo sya. Don't be such a jerk. And pati na rin kayo. Hinay-hinay nga sa pagiging malandi. Or wag kayong mambiktima ng inosente," pangangaral niya sa amin. Natahimik naman lahat ng lalaki naming kaibigan na nag-uusap sa likuran namin dahil sa mga sinabi ni Cassie.

"Hey. I didn't say anything. Kaya wag mong lahatin." Aries said defensively. If I didn't cut Franz's word and let him say something I'm sure Aries will say harsh words too. He's the harshest person that I know. He has a sharp tongue though.

Cassie just rolled her eyes at him and looked at me. "Or you just asked her to go somewhere private and talked with her there. It's not like— " She sighed "You make her feel embarrassed." She's mad. Oh no. Kapag nagalit to asahan mo na hindi ka niyan papansinin ng isang linggo. Barado ka pa.

Ano ba kasing ikinagagalit niya? Clearly, I didn't do anything to that woman, I just drop her at a near hotel then left. Tss palibhasa kasi padalos-dalos sa ginagawa at hindi muna nag-iisip kaya ayan, napapahiya ang sarili tapos kasalanan ko pa, tinulungan ko na nga.

"Aasa lang yon. Raze just being honest." Singit ulit ni Aries.

"Yeah." Sang-ayon ni Aaron. Cassie just stared at us and shook her head. She's disappointed.

"Still wrong. You should talk to her nicely or just say sorry. No need to say how low she's making herself. " Cassie said while looking at her phone.

"Why would I apologize to her? She's the one who makes a scene in our school, not me. And mind you, I didn't do anything to her. From what I remember I just drop her at a near hotel then left. You know me, I'm maybe an ass but I'm no rapist. She's wasted that day so I didn't have s*x with her. All the girls that I got on a one-night stand are in their right state. So it's her fault. She accused me immediately without knowing what's really happened that night." I said. Defending myself because it seems like for her it's my fault wala naman akong ginagawa. "And I'm sure that girl is not studying here." Dagdag ko.

Hindi na nagsalita pa ulit si Cassie. Bumuntong hininga lang siya at inilingan kami. Bahala ka d'yan. Basta sinabi ko na kung ano ang gusto kong sabihin. Sinabi ko na kung ano talaga ang nangyari. Bahala na siya kung sino ang paniniwalaan niya. Ang mali ko lang naman ay naging harsh ako sa kaniya. Iyon lang, then the rest is all that woman's fault. Ako nga ipinahiya niya sa harapan ng mga kaklase at schoolmates ko tapos ang lumalabas pa parang ako ang may kasalanan. Eh yung babae na 'yon ang hindi muna nag-iisip bago 'ko sugudin at akusahan na iniwan siya kaagad pagkatapos makuha ang virginity niya. Tss, ewan ko talaga sa mga babae.

Kami nalang nila Eros and Aries ang nandito sa bahay nila Eros dahil si Dice inaaya namin na pumunta dito, kaso ay hindi daw siya pwede dahil malayo at may recit pa siya bukas kaya kailangan niya daw mag-aral ngayon. Si Dice kasi ay sa ibang school nag-aaral ng law. Hindi namin alam kung bakit hindi sa law school kung saan kami nag-aaral nila Eros at Aries si Dice nag-aral. Mas gusto daw ni Tito Levi na sa ibang school mag-aral si Dice.

Napatingin kami kay Aries na biglang hinampas ang mesa. "Naaalala mo ba yung babae kanina?" Tanong ni Aries sa 'kin. Kumunot ang noo ko sa pagtataka sa kaniya.

"Bakit?" Takang tanong ko sa kaniya.

"Siya yung babaeng tinutukoy ni Ara na nag-set-up sa kaniya." Sagot ni Aries.

"Ah, Oo. Si Luisa. Diba nagparty si Ara noong nag-away kayo dahil kay? You know?" Eros said and shrugged his shoulders.

"Oh, tapos?" Walang interest na tanong ko.

"Diba nakita mo si Anthony and Ara sa iisang kwarto tapos naka—alam mo na yun. Tapos inakusahan mo siyang nag cheat sayo kahit sinasabi nila na hindi." Paliwanag ni Aries sa amin.

"She really cheated on me." Iritado kong sabi.

"Ah? Ganon?" Sarcastic na tanong ni Eros.

"f**k you," I said irritatedly to him. He's being a troll again.

"Tumigil nga kayong dalawa." Saway ni Aries sa amin ni Eros na nag-aasaran.

"So what's your point ba?" I asked.

"Na siya yung tinutukoy ni Ara na nag-set-up sa kaniya. Na what if hindi talaga nag cheat si Ara sayo? Na lasing lang siya?"

"Cheating is a choice. Lasing ka man o hindi. Hindi sapat na dahilan na lasing ka lang." I said and looked away. Kasi totoo naman. Nag-iwas ako ng tingin dahil ayokong makita reaksyon nilang dalawa.

"Hindi mo na ba mahal?" Tanong ni Aries. Napatitig ako sa kaniya at hindi nakasagot.

I sighed. "Uwi na 'ko." Sabi ko saka tumayo. Lumabas ako ng bahay nila Aries at nagpunta sa kotse ko. Hindi ko kailangang sagutin iyan dahil alam naman na nila ang sagot dyan. I just don't want to answer it because they'll ask questions by questions until we get to the point where I'll remember again what I did to... I sighed and shook my head.

And also, because I am also questioned myself if I still love Ara or did I really love her.

Malapit na ako sa bahay noong may makita akong babae na nakatayo at nakasandal sa kotseng kulay puti. The girl is wearing skinny jeans and tops with a coat.

Napatingin ang babae sa gawi ko. Naapakan ko ang preno ng maaninag kung sino ang babaeng nakatayo sa tapat ng bahay namin.

"Why is she here?" Tanong ko sa sarili ko.

Bumaba ako at saka lumapit sa kaniya.

"Ara, why are you here?"