Isabelle
It’s been five days since that bar incident. Hindi pa rin ako makapagdecide until now. He escorted me hanggang sa makalabas ako and then he handed me his calling card also.
Juan Diego Santos is his name. Ang naibigay niya sa aking calling card is his business card. So siya ay nasa field ng Hotel and Restaurant. Not bad.
Actually I already searched his name in f*******: yet wala siyang account. Triny ko ng pagbalibaliktarin ang kanyang pangalan pero wala talaga. I also searched him in Google yet wala din. He’s maintaining a low profile I think and we’re on the same page.
Ilang araw ko na ding pinagiisipang tawagan siya pero anong sasabihin ko? Hindi pa nga ako nakakapagdecide kung makikipaganek ako sa lalaking yun. Oo gwapo siya and I think yummy siya but will I let him if I can pleasure myself in the first place? All I want is his sperm and definitely not his p***s.
Even if I’m twenty eight and a virgin, I’m not celibate naman. I have knowledge when it comes to orgasms and the like. I have s*x toys that would definitely make me satisfied but it never crossed my mind to have s*x with a guy. I just don't feel like doing it.
Pero kung papayag naman ako ay may maganda namang kapalit and that is me getting pregnant. Bahala na nga! I got my phone and typed his number.
I’m done typing his number pero nagdadalawang isip pa ako kung itutuloy ko pa ba. What will I say then?
Juan
“Bro, you got it really bad. Let’s get laid tonight for fuvck's sake. Ano? Do it yourself lang ba ang mangyayari sayo? I pity that buddy of yours," said by the ever annoying friend I have. Ilang beses na niya akong niyayaya sa isang bar na may mga magagandang escorts and they are really clean. Legit talaga. But no, I won’t cheat. I’m only committing my life to that girl. That how I love her. Kahit hindi niya iyon malaman, okay lang maging isang lalaking iibig sa kaniya at po-protekta ng lingid sa kaniya.
“How many times do I have to tell you na ayoko! Bro just fvck off. I don’t do one night stands,” I answered him while watching Game of Thrones. Sobrang naaadik na ko sa story na to. I like medieval movies.
“Just trying my luck. Anyway a news came to me that you were seen escorting a girl in your bar. And bro they said she’s a f*****g pretty chick. Did you have a good fight in bed?” he teasingly said. What do I expect? Etong kutong Miguel na to na sobrang tsismoso at ganun na din ang mga tsismoso kong staffs na spoiled sa lalaking ito kaya kahit ako ang boss ay nakakapagsumbong pa din ng kung anu-ano sa lalaking ito.
“We didn’t alright. She’s not a chick and just don’t ask.” Not wanting to let the conversation get longer.
“Oh alright,” he said and then signalled his hand zipping his mouth. He's really crazy.
Tumunog ang cellphone ko.
At dahil nasa kanya malapit ang cellphone ko ay siya na ang sumagot. The ever pakielamerong kaibigan na mayroon ako.
“Hi! Miggy the pogi speaking... what can I do for you?”
Napaisip ako, who would call me in my private number. No one knows except Miggy. And I remembered I gave it to that girl again. Bigla akong kinabahan. It’sbeen five days. And I’m here waiting for her call pero nawalan na ako ng pag-asa.
“Ooh you’re looking for Juan the pangit? He’s having se-" I quickly got the phone on his hold kasi baka kung anu-ano na namang kalokohan ang ipagsasabi ng lalaking ito.
“Hi this is Juan. Who’s this?” Nagdadasal na sana ay si Isabbelle na ito.
“Hi! This is the girl who wants to have a baby. Familiar?” Muntik na kong matawa sa pakilala niya. Hindi na ako nabigla na siya ang tumawag. f**k! Sana pumayag na siya.
I’m not after the s*x thing alright. It was supposed to be a joke but hindi ko na nai-clarify sa kanya since sobrang dami niyang sinasabi. I only want her attention and time at ako na ang bahala sa susunod na mangyayari.
“Oh hi! It’s been five days I thought you will not call anymore. Have you made up your mind?” I turned my back to Miggy and divert my attention to the one's I'm talking to with my phone.
“Yeah. And uhmmm.. I’m agreeing to your proposal. Let’s meet. I want to discuss it with you in person. Anyway are you busy? We can schedule it next time naman,” she sweetly said.
“Ahhmm no. I’m free right now. Just here in my office,” medyo aligaga kong sagot sa kanya and start to walk back and forth.
Fuck this is it!
“Then I’ll just go there. Send me the address,” nagulat ako sa sinabi niya.
“Are you sure?” Pero sa loob loob ko tuwang tuwa na ako.
“Yeah, ako ang may kailangan so I insist. Wala din naman akong ginagawa.”
Halos mapasigaw na ko sa tuwa, “Okay. I’ll send you my address.”
I’m grinning like an idiot as the call ended. I immediately type my address and face my table. Nawala sa aking pagiisip na may kasama pala akong kupal dito. He’s taking a video of me.
“Hey delete that. And bro, get out of here for the mean time. I have a very important appointment right now.”
“Ooh seems like you’re having s*x again.” Mukhang tuwang-tuwa siya sa kanyang nakikita. Why did I let him see me like this. How stupid!
Lakas pa naman ng trip nito na minsan hindi ko na masakyan. He's a business tycoon and kilala ng marami as a strict boss pero kapag kami magkasama, those attitudes fade away. He becomes childish which made me childish too. Napailing nalang ako ng may ngiti sa labi. He's my best friend and I love him. But I'm not gay. Duuuh!
“Magtigil ka nga. I’m not alright. Just go. Magaayos pa ko. Bilis!” halos kaladkarin ko na siya palabas.
“Hey! Hey! My wallet is there on the couch." I got it for him and then closed the door as soon as he gets out. Mahirap na.
Fuck what should I do!
I began fixing things here in my office with my heart which is pounding real hard.