Since my talk with Kuya Nico, I kept thinking about what he said. Take a chance. Take a chance at love again. Take a chance with Jay.
At the same time, I kept asking myself, am I really ready for it? It has been more than three months since my last relationship, the only one I have ever had in my life. So maybe I can, maybe it's the right time.
And then I ask myself if Jay is really the guy I want to risk my heart for? I have only known him for a few months and although I am certain that he is a good man, that doesn't assure me that he won't break my heart. Something that scares me the most because whatever I'm feeling, I know it is far stronger than I ever felt for Fred which means when I fall and get hurt it will be far worse. It's terrifying. So maybe not yet.
On the day of our trip,
