The pain he never knew (Book 1)

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Chapter 19

"Are you serious? Do you really want to live with me?"

Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin.

"Bakit parang ayaw mo yata? Ayaw mo ba akong kasama sa iisang bubong?" Pagalit na sabi ko at binawi ang aking kamay galing sa kaniyang pagkahawak.

Tumaas ang sulok ng kaniyang labi.

"Baby, it's not that. Of course i do." He reached for my hand once again and softly planted a kiss of my knuckles while his eyes didn't leave mine. "Sa tingin ko lang, hindi ka papayagan ng daddy mo. Hindi pa tayo kasal."

"Oh so you're being primitive now? Siguro kaya ayaw mo kong patirahin sa condo mo dahil tumatakas ka kapag gabi, pumupuntang bar at nambababae?" I angrily said but there was a slight pang of pain on my chest just by imagining him being with other girls. The thought of him caressing other woman's waist makes me furious and jealous.

"Silly of course not. You're dad can testify, office at bahay lang ako palagi." He caressed my hand.

"Bakit? Palagi bang nakabantay sayo si dad? Magkasama ba kayo sa iisang bahay?"

"Hon, of course not." Tawa niya. "You're just being a jealous kitten again. Bakit ba napunta na tayo diyan?"

"You're being suspicious!" Pagmamaktol ko. "Sige! Kung ayaw mo, edi wag! Yung condo mo na lang ang pakasalan mo!"

He threw his head back and faced the ceiling just by laughing. Sinamaan ko lang siya ng tingin. Pagkatapos tumawa ay bahagya siyang tumayo at inabot ang pisngi ko. He then kissed me on the tip of my nose down to my jaw and slowly, on my neck.

I can feel him inhaling my scent, i got anxious, i bet i smell really bad right now dahil kamuntik na akong mapahiga kanina sa daan, or was it kanina? He slightly sucked the skin in it making me heat up and moan. I felt embarrassed kaya bahagya kong tinabunan ang aking bibig.

The intensity of what he's doing on my skin ay naghahatid sa akin ng siguraduhan na magmamarka iyon. I hope dad wouldn't notice.

After a minute of burying his face, binawi niya ang mukha niya at tinitigan ako ng malalim. I leveled the intensity of his stare. Sa huli, ay ako din ang unang nagbawi ng tingin.

"I'll talk to your dad."

Napangisi ako. Thought so...

"Ahh! Home sweet home!" I stretched my arms widely at tumungo sa sofa at prenteng umupo doon, na tila pag-aari ko ang buong condo.

"This feels good" i carefully dropped my body at siniksik ang mukha sa throw pillow. Hmm..smells like my kage.

"Careful." Napalingon ako kay kage nang iusog niya ang aking katawan papalayo sa back rest ng mahabang sofa. "Natatamaan ang sugat mo"

Ngumuso ako. So O.A! Even myself can't feel the pain.

"What do you want for lunch?" Rinig kong sigaw niya galing sa kusina.

"Tuna Sandwiches!" Sigaw ko pabalik.

"Real food zy! I promised your dad na aalagaan kita ng mabuti. And that includes monitoring your everyday meals."

I rolled over. Napadako ang tingin ko sa aking maleta sa kabilang sofa. I smiled unconsciously. That luggage symbolizes yung pagpayag sa akin ng daddy na dito tumuloy sa condo ng mapapangasawa ko. Though, I didn't know kung anong ginawa ni kage para mapapayag si dad, i didn't bother to ask, what's important is pinayagan ako.

I was kinda happy about it, pero kalaunan, bahagyang nagbago ang isip ko, i was in doubt for some time. To eager to be with kage, i forgot about dad and my promise to mom na aalagaan ko ang asawa niya. My feelings for kage blinded the empathy i felt towards my dad, it saddened me.

I talked to dad about my worries and he seemed not to mind my lack of presence on our house. Sabi pa nga niya "salamat naman, she's your problem now kage. Goodluck." Then they both laughed.

In the serious side, nangako naman ako sa kaniya na bibisitahin at tatawagan ko siya from time to time. Even though he said na magiging okay naman siya at may mga katulong naman, iba pa din kung ako ang nadiyan para mag monitor sa kaniya. But he also reasoned out na "wether i like it or not, sooner or later magpapakasal din kayo ni kage kaya mas mabuting isanay ko ang sarili ko na wala ka sa bahay. I already readied myself, i knew you weren't going to be my little girl forever. Be happy."

Tumayo na ako at naglakad papuntang kusina, there i saw my man standing near the counter, both hands were leaned and he was reading something, a cook book maybe?

Ngumuso ako, i stopped behind him at dahan-dahang pinulupot ang aking kamay sa kaniyang beywang, hugging him. I buried my face on his leaned back and sniffed his muscular scent.

"What are you reading?" Naglalambing kong tanong. Ini expect ko na haharap siya sa akin but he didn't, he was so focused sa kaniyang binabasa. I can even see his eyebrows furrowing na tila seryoso talaga.

"Our dinner" he simply said.

I just hummed. I reached for his abdomen at hinimas-himas iyon. I chuckled when i heard him groan. Hmm..rock hard abs. My fiancé is so hot! I started planting kisses on his back making his breathing slow at bahagya siyang natigilan.

"Masarap ba yan?" Ngisi ko. It was like i was referring to the recipe but at the same time, pinapalandas ko ang aking kamay sa kaniyang abs. "Masarap ba 'to?" I said in a malanding tone then i chuckled. Hindi niya pa din ako pinansin, bagama't ay inilingan niya lang ako kaya hinayaan ko na siya.

Pumasok ako sa kaniyang kwarto. And thank God madali ko lang nahanap dahil tatlo lang naman ang kwarto dito sa condo niya, minus the bathrooms. The first one was a guest room at nasa ibaba iyon. Upstairs to my left was the library i think? Or was it his office? At ang nasa pinakadulo naman ay ito, yung kaniyang kwarto, it was the biggest room in his condo, not to mention the satisfying view on his veranda. It was magnificent.

While i was fixing my clothes, narinig ko ang papalapit na yabag ni kage, he was also calling my name at the same time. Bumukas ang pintuan ng kaniyang walk in closet at bumungad sa akin ang kaniyang nagtatakang tingin.

"What—why are you here?"

"Anong why am i here? Nag-aayos ako ng mga damit ko syempre." nakangiting binuksan ko ang isa sa kaniyang mga cabinet at pinakita sa kaniya ang naka hanger ko ng damit, it was hanged beside his tuxedos, there was like a boundary between his clothes and mine. Same as the shoe racks na kung saan ay nandoon din ang aking mga heels tabi ng kaniyang mga leather shoes.

"Oh, bakit? s**t! Ayaw mo bang pinapakialaman ang mga gamit mo?"

Kung hindi niya gusto, i would accept it, hindi ako magagalit dahil may mga tao talagang ayaw na pinapakialaman ang mga gamit nila.

Naglakad siya papunta sa akin at inilahad ang kaniyang kamay sa akin. He pulled me up dahil naka salampak ako sa sahig.

"Teka—hindi pa ko tapos"

"It's okay. You can put all your clothes in there. I won't mind." Hinawi niya ang aking buhok at inipit sa likod ng aking tenga. "It's just that..isn't it a good idea na mag share ng iisang kwarto? Na tatabi tayo?" Tila nagdadalawang isip pa niyang sabi.

I looked at him weirdly.

"Babe, are you serious?" Nakaawang ang labi ko. "Talagang magkukunwaring primitive ka diyan? At ano? Hahayaan mo kong matulog sa guest room?—Ng mag isa?" I chuckled unbelievably.

Bumuntong hininga siya, "zy, hindi ganon. I was just thinking, what will your dad say?"

"Relax, Dad is not here" i cupped his face.

"What if he finds out?"

"So you're being a good boy now? Love, this is the 21st century, halos lahat ng magkasintahan ay naglilive in na. At ikakasal na tayo, Dad i think, already saw this one coming since pinayagan niya akong tumira dito kasama ka. At..anong bang kinakatakot mo? Talaga bang si dad lang o..may iba pa?" I wiggled my brows at him teasingly.

"Stop that." Simangot niya. "Okay fine, whatever. Let's just have our dinner." Hihilahin niya na sana ako palabas nang hilahin ko ulit ang aking kamay at niyakap siya leeg, tinitingala siya.

"Don't worry love, i don't snore. I just bite...and crawl" ang huling salita ay binulong ko sa kaniyang tenga. i tiptoed and kissed him on his lips at nauna nang lumabas na may malaking ngisi sa mga labi.

Kage's POV

"Don't worry love, i don't snore. I just bite...and crawl" her warm breath sent unexplainable feeling to me. Bahagya akong nakaramdam ng pag-iinit ng katawan which made me groan in anticipation.

Just as i was about to grab the little tigress by her waist, tumalikod na siya at kumaripas ng takbo. I sighed deeply trying to calm myself. Mariin kong pinikit ang mata ko at tumingala sa kisame. That woman is such a tease. Hindi niya alam kung anong pagpipigil ang ginagawa ko hindi lamang ngayon kundi sa araw-araw na nakikita ko siya.

Every time she anticipates a kiss, hugs me while being oblivious that her boobs are touching my body. God can testify my restrains. Inayos ko muna ang sarili bago lumabas, I didn't want to scare the little tease away.

Nakarating na ako sa dining area and there i saw her, nakatayo pa din. I lifted a brow. She was holding her phone, taking a pic, i think?—of the food. She loves taking pictures and videos of everything. The last time i asked her about it, she said she considers it as memories, memories that can be reminisced, in time.

"Why haven't you started eating? Anong ginagawa mo?"

She flashed a beguiling smile at me. Damn man! You're lucky!

She didn't say anything. Naglakad siya papunta sa akin at hinila ako at pinaupo sa pinakadulong parte ng lamesa. She grabbed the bowl full of rice at aakmang lalagyan ako sa aking pinggan nang pigilan ko iyon. Her sharp eyes darted at me, like daggers ready to be thrown.

"I don't eat rice baby. Proteins would do" Mas lalong sumama ang tingin niya sa akin. I didn't have the choice but to stay silent lalo na nung nilagyan niya na ako ng kanin sa aking pinggan. s**t man! You're a p***y!

Hinawakan niya ako sa magkabilang balikat at hinalikan ako sa labi. My lips parted in shock because of her sudden moves. "Thank you love—thank you for cooking dinner."

I looked at her adoringly ng umupo na lamang siya nang matapos na niya na akong pagsilbihan. I didn't told her to do those things. Siya lang ang gumawa nun. Some men treats their woman like slaves. They have this mindset that women should just be a housewife, pinanaganak para pagsilbihan sila. Not to me, if my zy would want anything than just a being plain housewife, i would allow her. Yes i own her body, her attention, but not her decisions, most especially that she is independent in the decision-making department. I don't want her to think that I'm a controlling jerk. That's the last thing i would want.

"Hmm..these smells good. Saan ka naman kaya natutong magluto?" She stared at the food.

Bahagya akong tumayo at nilagyan siya ng pagkain sa kaniyang pinggan. She looked at me and our eyes met. She smiled. "Thank you baby" man! that is so satisfying to hear! I never felt this feeling before, not even with other women.

"You're welcome." I kissed her head with so much adoration. I stared at her while she was eating. Imagine going home everyday to this lovely lady in front of me? The thought excites me. Damn, I didn't even want to leave this condo anymore.

Zephyrine's POV

"Kage, what are you doing? Parang sira to! Dito ka na nga!" I laughed while looking at him trying to fit his large body on the sofa in his room. Yes, it is quite a normal-sized sofa pero kapag ikumpara sa katawan niya magmumukha iyong duyan sa liit.

"Hoy!" With all my might, i threw a pillow at him. Kamuntikan pang matamaan yung flower vase sa kaniyang harapan kaya napagat ako ng labi.

"Just f*****g sleep zephyrine. I'm doing just fine here" he growled.

"Ano ba kage! Para kang lolo mag-isip!" Alam ko kung anong rason niya kung bakit ayaw niyang tumabi sa akin. "Kung yan lang naman pala, na diyaan ka matutulog, edi sana hindi na lang ako umalis ng bahay!" Simangot ko.

Hindi siya nagsalita at nagkunwari ng natutulog. Mas lalong sumama ang mukha ko at padabog na nahiga sa kama, nagtalukbong ng kumot na tila naiiyak na sa inis. "Bwesit! Nakakainis!" Bulong ko sa sarili. I continues muttering curses.

Ilang minuto pa ay naramdaman kong lumalim yung side ng kama as i felt a warm embrace on my back. Dahan-dahan at Nakasimangot na humarap ako sa kaniya. He had this funny look on his face na tila nae enjoy na nainis niya ako.

"Hindi ako natutuwa kage. Nabu-bwesit ako" i warned. His hooded eyes became chinky because of his chuckle. He slightly pinched my cheeks pagkatapos ay pinulupot ang kamay sa aking katawan. Siniksik niya ang mukha sa aking leeg at doon ay naramdaman ko ang mainit niyang hininga.

"Why do you still look cute while angry?" He muttered on my neck.

"How so?" Pagalit kong sabi.

"Lumalaki ang butas ng ilong mo" he then chuckled on my ear. Malakas na hinampas ko siya sa tiyan. He slightly groaned pero bumalik din sa pagtawa. "Chansing ka"

"Mas chansing ka!" Singhal ko. "Umalis ka na nga! Akala ko ba sa sofa ka matutulog? Tsupi na! Alisin mo nga yang kamay mo! Nahihila pababa ang nighties ko!" Pikon ko.

"This is the reason why kung bakit ayokong tumabi sayo. Becuase of this damn nighties!" He whispered lowly. I glared at him sideways. "Bakit? Pinagsasampal-sampal ka ba ng damit ko?!"

He hummed on my neck. "No, but you're cleavage is showing, making me hard to control"

"Control ka diyan! Alis na nga!" Taboy ko. Napasinghap ako sa gulat ng bigla niyang hawakan ang aking dibidb, he was cupping it like for support. "K-kage, a-ano ba yan!?"

"There, paalisin mo na ko. Make me" mas lalong nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang bahagya niyang galawin ang mainit niyang kamay. He slowly and sensually massaged my right boob as he sucked the skin on my neck. Bahagya niyang tinaas ang kaniyang mukha upang tingnan ang ginagawa niya sa aking dibdib.

"K-kage"

"Stay still." He whispered sexily. "Damn baby. Sorry, I can't stay controlled."

"I-it's okay. s**t, it feels good" bumibilis na din ang paghinga ko. Hindi ko alam kung bakit hindi ko siya pinipigilan. As much as i would like to deny it, gustong-gusto ko ang ginagawa niya sa katawan ko.

Minutes of just massaging it. Binaba niya ang aking suot, at dahil wala akong bra na suot, my right boob sprung free. I felt the cold sensation of the air-conditioned pero agad din iyong napalitan nang hawakan na niya iyon. Later on, i just found myself moaning kage's name sensually when he started pinching it, playing with it.

My moan got louder when he rose from his bed at kinubabawan ako. As he stared at my freed t**s for a pleasing moment, i felt my face heating up at doon na lang ako nakaramdam ng hiya. Napatawa siya ng mahina nang tabunan ko yung mukha ko. But later on, nakalas din iyon at napunta sa likod ng kaniyang ulo when he dipped his head and suckled on my boob, hard. As the other was busy stroking the tip of my left breast. I closed my eyes tightly as i clutched my fingers on his hair.

"Oh God!" I moaned loudly and shamelessly. "It feels so good!"

"Should i stop?" I can feel his smirk.

"Please, no" i whined as i bit my lip. Mas lalo kong pinagduldulan ang mukha niya sa dibdib ko. He planted a soft kiss on its tip and sucked on it harder, grazing his teeth.

"These are mine, yeah?" He asked as he cupped both of it. Bahagya pa akong napaliyad when he pinched both of it at the same time, with some much intensity.

"Baby please" hindi ko na makilala ang aking boses, it sounded like i was begging for his touch, i was begging for him to touch me, i became needy for some skin contact.

"Please what baby? hmm?"

"Suck me, suck my hard n*pples please."

"As you wish"

The morning i woke up, i felt alive and contented. The feeling of enthusiasm got more intense when i rolled over and i saw my ever so hot fiancé peacefully sleeping beside me. His hands were all over my waist like he wouldn't let me go, like he was marking his property.

Ang nakaguhit na ngiti sa aking mga labi ay unti-unting nawala nang maalala ang nangyari kagabi. I bit my inner cheeks as i felt my whole cheeks reddened. Kagabi—i let him touch me. I let him caress and kiss my upper body! The hell!? Thinking that this man finds me to be the one to wake up first ay aasarin ako nito, non stop.

Dahan-dahan kong kinalas ang kamay niya na nakapulupot sa akin. I tiptoed papuntang banyo. Nilagay ko ang magkabilang kamay sa countertop at pinagmasdan ang sarili sa salamin.

Ito! Itong gaga na 'to ay napakalibog kagabi! I even have the decency to moan his name aloud and beg for more! f**k! Unang gabi ko pa lang sa condo na to ay yun na ang nangyari? What more mamaya? O di kaya sa sususnod na gabi, mga araw at linggo? Gosh! He might think that I'm an easy girl! Baka sa sobrang karupokan ko ay maibigay ko na ang big V ko!

I looked at my reflection once more at ganon na lang lamang ang pagsinghap ko nang makita ang mga mapupulang marka sa aking leeg. It was like it was sucked by a hungry leech—A sexy leech!

Horrified, pinaglandas ko ang aking daliri sa mga markang iyon. Seconds later, i just found myself opening my nighties, hanggang boobs ko iyon. Napasapo na lamang ako sa noo nang makitang mas madami pa palang biniling marka yung kage na yon sa dibdib ko. It was like my whole breast were covered in love marks!

I was Just about to cover up nang biglang bumukas ang pintuan, revealing my hot sleepy baby. Kinukusot pa niya ang mata niya nang magtama ang tingin namin sa salamin. His gaze lowered down and a naughty grin plastered on his sexy face when he saw where my hand was positioned at.

Kinagat ko ang aking dila at inayos na ang damit. On the other hand, kage was smirking while whistling teasingly.

"Well hi there beautiful. This is indeed a good morning" he hugged me from the back at hinagkan ako sa sintido. "Last night was amazing, yeah?"

Naiinis na hinampas ko siya sa braso at hinarap siya nang nakasimangot. As expected, aasarin nga ako. Mas lalo lang yatang nadagdagan ang ipang aasar niya sa akin. Bakit ba hindi ko ni lock yung pintuan?

"My baby is pleasuring herself first thing in the morning? You couldn't get over last night?" He then leaned over and whispered on my ear. "You should've woke me up. I would gladly do it for you"

"Ang bastos mo!" Pagalit ko pero tumingkayad pa din para mahalikan siya sa mga labi. "Good morning"

"Well that's not a real good morning kiss." He leaned over and supported his hand on the counter, pressing his body on mine then raked a finger on his hair, pushing it back.

"Mamaya na. Hindi pa ko nakapag toothbrush." I informed, oblivious that i was already lightly massaging my right boob using my palm. Nang makita niya iyon ay gumuhit ang mapang asar na ngisi sa kaniyang mga labi at tumawa ng mahina.

"Zy, seriously, stop that. You're turning me on."

"You ass! I can't help it! Sumasakit! Siguro sa kakahimas mo to kagabi" i whispered the last sentence but he seemed to hear it kasi napatawa siya. "Ang saya ata natin ngayong umaga ah? Kung sabagay, naka score kagabi eh" pang-uusisa ko.

"I sure did. At alam kong nag enjoy ka din." He winked at hinawakan na din ang dibdib ko at siya na ang humimas nun. "Saan ba masakit? Dito?"

I bit my lip to prevent myself from moaning. Oh no! Not again! Not this early in the morning! At dahil nga wala akong bra. Pinasok niya ang kaniyang kamay sa aking damit. He massaged it from the inside. Sumunod ang tingin ko sa kaniya when he lowered his head and brought his lips on my covered breast. He planted a soft and hot kisses on my hardened tip then smile. "Good morning my babies" i laughed loudly when i figured out that he was pertaining to my boobs. "And to you too, mommy"

Pigil ang aking ngiti. "Mommy ka diyan! And dami mong alam! Magluto ka na lang kaya ng breakfast dun?"

"Yes queen, noted" tango niya at lumabas na.

Kumawala ang ngiti na kanina ko pa pinipigilan. I made sure na talagang wala na siyang bago tumili ng malakas. I never felt so alive and happy like this before! Not even with my past boyfriends! Not that i have a lot but kage has this unique effect on me. Being called one's queen is a whole new level of kilig! Oh gosh! I hope this wouldn't last. Of course it won't! I just have to follow his rules,I just have to stay with kage. I mean, what's the worse that could happen, right?