Dating Tayo

Prologue Disclaimer This novel is a work of fiction, all characters, organization and other events are only work by the author's imagination ⓒ 2021, DARKNIGHTDJ20 All rights reserved Please be advised that this story contains, trigger warnings, sensitive content, mature themes, and strong language that are not suitable for very young audiences. Since I was a child, I have never gone to a place where happiness is actually felt. I undoubtedly believe that every person in this world is selfish and hypocritical. Is there really an actual person who feels delighted just because he/she’s in love? I don’t think so. The feeling of being constantly assured that someone’s there for you is the only reason why people fall in love. Not to be happy, but to feel that you’re not alone in this chaotic world. People tend to do everything just to fulfill what they desire. A person longing for happiness could hurt someone just to experience that satisfying emotion. It’s sad but it’s true. We have no limitations on doing what we want even though we could make everyone suffer, or even ourselves - and that is the reason why I hated to be alive. I never thought of being dependent on someone because that is not what I wanted. Hindi ko kailangan ng tao sa paligid ko para maging maramdaman ko ang emosyong ‘yon dahil lahat ng kailangan ko ay nagagawa ko. Every person in this world is just the same, especially all the girls. The moment you can't give what they are asking for, they’ll immediately leave. All men are trash? Nah. Akala nila lahat ng lalaki sasaktan ang mga babae, but did they even think na ganon din naman ang mga babae sa mga lalaki? Kung hindi na nila gusto iiwan na kaagad nila. That’s why I don’t trust all of them because of this nature. Lahat gagawin para lang maging masaya sila kahit na makasakit ng iba. That is how I live in this world. Some people think that I need someone to help me, because that is what he said to me. But for me I don’t need one. Even him, the one who helped me that night. I didn’t consider him as my ally because I know that one day, he will only use me to fulfill his dreams in the business. Kaya bakit kailangan ko pa ng kaagapay sa buhay kung sa huli gagamitin lang din nila ako? But something's off, alam ko na hindi dapat, pero bakit? I don’t know what this feeling is. This is so strange. Alam ko na hindi dapat ako mapunta sa taong isa sa kinagagalitan ko but why do I want to see her everytime that she is away? How did she become the reason why I get off my bed early in the morning? What does her smile have that makes me stupidly happy? Hindi ko alam kung ano ito, basta ang alam ko hindi na ito normal. Even him realized that I have changed. But did I really change? Did I really modify my perspective for someone to accept me? But how come those changes also change our happiness. How come that we both changed? I want to go back, gusto kong bumalik sa nakaraan para baguhin ang lahat, pero paano? Kahit saan ako tumingin ikaw lang ang nakikita ko, pero sa oras na tumama ang liwanag ng katotohanan sa akin kusa ka nalang nawawala? Tama pa ba na ipagpatuloy ko ang pagbabagong ito? Pero paano yung tayo? Kahit anong gawin ko unti-unti na tayong nagbabago.