The Desperation of a Broken Heart(Tagalog)

** I've been waiting that maybe one day you'll notice me. For long years I've survived being in love with you when in fact you didn't even know my existence. You are my life. I did everything and all I can, just for you to love me back. And then I decided to give you up because I thought this one-sided love won't work anymore. But how come that when I given you up, it's your turn to make things more complicated for me to move on. You don't have any idea that I'm hurting most because of your action. And for me to escape that feeling, I decided to date another man in order for me to forget you. And then you came again and ruin everything I built. That is why; I asked "why are you doing this to me? Aren't you happy that I'm out of the feature?" Then you responded as you kiss me under the rain, "Because you're nothing back then, but now is different". However, everything turned upside down as time passes by, to the point that I even tolerated you when I knew all along that you aren't loyal at all. I'll fight till the end just for me to get your heart and be mine just even once but I doubt if I could.... Because at the end of the day..... You made me realized how stupid I am to fight for my one sided love for you. You made me realized how martyr am I to tolerate you cheating behind my back. And you, in the end, made me realized that loving you isn't the only thing in the world because as you turned your back on me that's the time I closed my heart to you and I would never open it just for you to ruin it once again. Until one day......... You just ruined everything, you just made my life miserable once again just for you to get me back but how is it possible that even you're that desperate enough to do those wrathful things toward me, I still don't have the guts to finally hate you, how is it possible that even you're trying to force me to love you again, is that I don't get the idea that my love was gone for you afterall? I don't understand at all. All I knew was everything changed now and I won't let you ruin it once again. I'll try to fight for myself and for my love ones even you'll do everything to make me by your hand once again. I'll fight! But I'm wrong.... Because after everything you've done to me, After all the sufferings, All the hardships, And all the pain! You still got me in your hand. I guess, this is "The Desperation of a broken heart"