Writer's Diary

Saddest Goodbye

As I walked near by the plaza, I saw his figure. If I'm not mistaken, it's him.

Tumakbo ako para mahabol siya, pero dahil sa dami ng tao nawala siya sa paningin ko.

I stopped and looked around, I want to see him. I wanna hear his explanations. My vision gotten bury.

I'm about to burst into tears when someone tapped my shoulder, " Huh? " humarap ako sa tumapik sa'kin pero 'di ko nakita.

" Yow! " A manly voice in unison.

Nagulat ako sa nangyari, nakita ko siya. Nakaharap na sa akin at nakangiti.

" Arc? "

" H-hi? Hehe, " nakangiting saad niya at nahihiyang tumingin sa akin.

" Why? " I asked in confusion.

" Why did you leave without telling me? " And there I exploded.

" May pa email ka pa ng sweet photos natin and nawala ka nalang bigla, ang sama mo! " naiinis at naiiyak 'kong saad sa kanya.

I saw his face, is he crying? And he pulled me again to hugged him, it was a flashy move. I couldn't react for the moment and my tears starts to fall down.

He tapped my shoulders, " I'm sorry, sobrang saya ko na nakilala kita, " saad niya na may halong lungkot sa kaniyang boses.

And slowly, he faced me, " I had a lot of fun, too. " saad ko habang pinigilang 'di umiyak.

Alam 'kong pinigilan niya ring umiyak, " Oo nga pala, I have three things that I want to tell you, " lintanya niya habang nakangiti sa akin.

" Tatlo na naman? " reklamo ko, yung huling tatlong request niya sa'kin... That time, he confessed.

" The first one, I love Sachi. Gusto kita as a friend and a human being, " I know.

Naalala ko tuloy nung time na he confessed.

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" Listen carefully, it's my third request. "

" Forgive me for what I'm about to do, "

" I don't want to be your friend after all, "

" I want you by my side, talk with you, laugh with you, feel the sadness with you. Your the only one who made me like this. Everytime..."

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Remembering it all, it hits me. Now I really know what's the real reason at umalis siya ng biglaan, I hurt him so much.

" The second one. At least think of me when using a smiley emoji, " saad niya at sabay kaming natawa. I nodded.

" And the third one. Enjoy your life, " he said with a big smile plastered in his face.

I looked at him intently, " and your answer is? " he asked.

I nodded like a kid infront of him, " yes! " sagot ko.

" Good. " saad niya at ngumiti ng matamis.

And I was late to realize that he was slowly fading away, " No, this can't be right! " I panicked.

He me hugged tightly with his glowing and slowly fading body, " Be happy, Sachi. " mahinang saad niya at hinalikan ako sa noo bago sa maglaho ng tuluyan.

Natulala ako sa mga nangyari, Arc is one of my trusted friend. He was the best man I wanna have.

I feel my shoulder is a bit wet, to think that he cried in my shoulder when waving his good bye. But, he's not that selfish enough. He thinks of me first bago ang sarili niya. Napahawak ako ng mahigpit sa dibdib ko, If I can teach myself to love him I would love to.