Love Me Again, Sweetheart

Chapter 5

Inilapit pa niya ang kanyang mukha until I could feel the fresh mint in his breath.

“Please, just break up with me when you're sober.” Sabi ko ulit sa kanya.

I looked at his face. He's totally perfect kaya maraming babae ang nagkakagusto sa kanya.

I traced his lips and I could feel his hot breath through my hands which sent a tingling sensation in my whole body.

“I’m sorry, Xandros!” Usal ko at huli na nang ma-realize ko na inabot ko na pala ang mga labi niya para hagkan. I just kissed him! And before I could get away with the kiss, I could feel him kissing me back.

We hungrily kissed each other as if the two of us were the only ones who could satisfy ourselves. A simple kiss that makes the both of us aroused.

“Stop me, please. Stop me!” I could feel his voice hardened. He tried to stop himself but the burning sensation of the kiss that we shared was so powerful that it finally took control of everything.

“I want you.” It's the only thing that I could say. I could feel his hands traveling all over my back until I could feel him above me while I was beneath him.

“Do you love me, Xandros? Please lie and say yes.” I whispered to him while he was undressing me that midnight. Yes, midnight, as I looked at the clock on his wall.

“Yes, I love you.” He spoke. I could feel my tears flowing as he said those words. Pero diba, ako naman kasi ang nauna? He embraced me tightly. I could feel his strong hands supporting me. I cried silently as I heard the three words I longed to hear. But sadly, it was just a lie.

Okay lang.

“Ahh!” he moaned as he kept his hands busy all over my body. I was afraid of what was happening but I couldn't resist it.

We were in bed and he's so drunk. I'm a little bit tipsy but I’m aware of what will happen to me next.

He pleasured me and I could say he's good in bed. I wondered how many women he had slept with?

“You’re too wet and too ready for me.” I can't stop myself from blushing. I could feel his hands in my flower. Flower? I don't know what else to describe it. Wala na ako sa tamang pag-iisip dahil sa ginagawa niya. I could feel one of his fingers getting inside me. He thrusted it in and out which makes me feel more erotic. How much more kung ang sandata na niya mismo?

My body moved along with the rhythm of an unheard song, na para bang may sarili itong gawang musika.

His kisses were getting deeper and hotter until I could feel his hard shaft right at the entrance of my purity.

“X-Xandros, this is my first.” I don't think he can hear me clearly with this hoarse voice of mine.

I could feel him kissing my earlobe until it gets to my neck and his hot breath is driving me insane right now. There is something that I want but I can't name it. Our body's fully aware of what it really wants. And it wants more than just a kiss.

“I’ll be gentle, sweetheart.” I blinked as I heard what he just called me. Did I hear that right? Sweetheart? He's calling me sweetheart? My heart is very happy right now. I mean, I just wished for him to call me baby and here he is now, calling me more than the endearment that I want. At least I got to hear it from him even though he's drowned with alcohol and with the memories of Mildred.

I never looked at how big he is nor touched it. I straightly looked at his eyes as he attempted to get his shaft inside me.

“You’re too big for me.” I voiced-out what's in my head and it's too late for me to realize as I heard him chuckle.

“How could you say so when you're not looking at it?” Napanganga ako sa sinabi niya.

Seriously? It's disgusting to look at what we've been doing. Siguro ay wala na akong pagkakaiba sa mga bold stars sa tv. The only difference is that Xandros is the only one who saw my body.

“Take a look, it won't bite.” He said, chuckling. I slowly paid attention to it and I was shocked.

He's that big?

Magkasya kaya iyan sa akin? I quickly traveled my eyes to his eyes at humugot ng malalim na hininga.

Gusto kong umatras but I could feel his kisses again. It's as if he felt that I wanted to retreat so he hurriedly kissed me to assure me that everything’s alright.

“I'll be pleasurably gentle, sweetheart.” He called me that endearment again.

I could feel him slowly entering at the entrance of my purity until he succeeded.

It hurt at first but it slowly faded especially when he entered in and out with a kiss.

This felt good with him and I want more.

“Hmm, like it sweetheart?” His husky voice added hotness to our lovemaking. Was it even the exact word to describe this? We're not in love and he's drunk so I guess, this is just pure lust.

All I could do was nod. “Ahh, Xandros!” I moaned and moaned in pleasure and in pain.

“Yes, that's it. Call my name.” He's getting rougher than I expected.

He's getting wild and I swallowed the thought that he might forget who I am and might skin me alive at that moment. Hindi naman siguro.

“You’re driving me insane, Maya. You're too tight and it feels good being inside you.” And his mouth was dirtier than I thought. Hindi ko maiwasan na mamula sa mga naririnig ko mula sa kanya.

“Ahh, I'm almost there.” His thrusts were faster than ever.

“Ohh Xandros!”

“I love you. I love you.” He said again and again as he released his seed inside of me. I cried.

I cried because of the endearment that he used to call me today and those three letter words that he just said. Kung sana totoo na lang ang lahat ng iyon. Kung sana para sa akin na lang iyon. Iba pala talaga ang nagagawa ng alak. You can do things you usually didn't do, and you can say the words you didn't usually say.

That midnight, he fully got my innocence. I could feel his soft lips that planted tiny kisses all over my body. His warm breath made me go insane. I feel it all and I hated myself for easily giving in.

I just can't say no to him.

I never slept right after that. I want to cherish this moment. He's inside me. I was scared but satisfied at the same time.

A smile formed in my lips.

Ngayon ko lang siya nayakap ng ganito.

Ngayon ko lang siya nakatabi ng ganito kalapit.

Ngayon ko lang siya nagawang hawakan.

Ngayon ko lang siya nagawang hagkan.

At ngayon ko lang siya natitigan ng malapitan.

[End of Flashback!!!]

“Mommy.” My son uttered while he's asleep. Dali-dali ko itong nilapitan at niyakap.

“I’m here, anak.”

I sighed because I can't sleep. Pabalik-balik sa isipan ko ang mga pangyayari noon.

Xandros, what should I do to forget you?