Reckless

Chapter 59

"Hmm..." Louis murmured. I think I woke him up.

Tinignan ko siya at hinawakan niya ang kamay ko. He slowly opened his eyes and looked at me with his half opened eyes.

"Where are you going?" He asked.

"To the bathroom, but I can't stand properly."

My knees are weak. Hindi naman nangyari to noon nung una naming ginawa ni Louis. pero sabagay, dalawang round lang naman kami nun. Dahil din siguro ito sa gigil.

"I'll help you up."

He stood up and walk towards me. Inakay niya ako at sumunod naman ako sakanya. Nakakahiya man, pero ihing ihi na talaga ako. I also want to take a bath.

Hindi pa ako naliligo simula umaga. Sobrang pinagpawisan kami kanina kaya naman nanlalagkit na ako kahit malakas pa ang aircon dito sa kwarto.

"You can leave me now. I can handle from here."

Tinignan niya lang ako. He tried to let go of me for a second, but I almost fell. Luckily he was able to catch me.

"Just do your think. I won't disturb or distract you."

Pumayag nalang ako dahil wala din naman akong maagawa. Mamaya ay madulas pa ako dito. I don't think I can handle taking a bath alone.

"Can you get the acrylic chair outside?" Sabi ko.

Tumango siya at lumabas na ng banyo. I'll shower while sitiing. This is the best solution I can think of. Hindi naman nagtagal ay bumalik na si Louis dala dala ang upuan.

"Thanks. I'll just call you once I'm done."

Una ay nagtataka pa siya pero nung nakita niya akong umupo sa upuan at tumapat sa shower, hindi na siya umangal pa at lumabas na.

All my life, I didn't think I would be taking a bath while sitting. Feel ko tuloy ay ang tamad tamad ko, but what can I do? Hindi ko naman kaya maligo ng nakatayo.

Wala namang nakakaalam kung hindi ako at si Louis lang.

After I finish taking a bath, I changed my clothes. Suirprisingly, mas relaxing pa nga umupo habang naliligo. I feel so alive and refreshed.

Sa bath tub sana ako, kaso parang wala ako sa mood magbabad. I want a aquick bath.

"Louis?"

"Yes?"

Nairnig niya pa din ako? Mahina pa ang pagtawag ko noon unless he's in front of the bathroom door.

"Can you hand me the brush from my vanity?"

Wala akong narinig kaya naman sinbuukan kong lumapit sa pintuan pero bigla 'yon bumumas. He handed me the brush that I wanted. Nag blower muna ako saglit so that I would still look presentable kahit nasa bahay lang.

I checked my phone and nagbibigay ng updates si lolo from Brion, It seems like he's having fun. Ngumiti ako.

I hope he won't have too much fun dahil baka ayaw niya na bumalik sa'kin, Of course I still want my child to be by my side.

Lumabas naa ko ng closet at hinanap si Louis,

"You done? Shall we have dinner?"

I just remembered, Ang kinain lang namin kanina ay breakfast. I wasn't hungry when I woke up though. I'm used to not eating at the right time.

Tinignan ko si Louis dahil palaging gutom to. He never skips his meals.

"What? Why are you looking at me like that?" He chuckled.

"Did you eat lunch?"

Natawa naman siya sa sinabi ako. I pouted. I'm just asking though.

"I did. You were sleeping peacefully so I don't want to wake you." Sabi niya.

It was the longest sleep I had after the incident happened. I see. Tama nga ako na he never skips meals. Mas mabuti na din 'yon. Sakitin pa naman siya.

Tinignan ko ang phone ko dahil nag vibrate 'yon. There's a message from Gio.

Gio:

How are you doing? Do I need to send a doctor now?

I feel really guilty and I don't know why. I can't even compose a message to reply to his message. Bahala na.

Me:

I'm fine, you don't have to.

Nagulat ako dahil biglang may dumating na bagong message.

Gio:

Okay. Call or text me when you need anything.

Hindi ko na sinagot 'yon. I know he's my assitant, pero hindi ko naman kailangan iasa lahat sakanya. Madami din naman ako pwede utusan dito sa bahay if I need anything.

I'm sure he's busy right now. I don't even know how he's messaging me at this hour. Ganitong oras ay busy siya samantalang ako ay natutulog sa office ko.

Hinding hindi mo siya mahahagilap sa building ng ganitong oras.

"So? Are we having dinner? Who's that?"

"Gio. He's just asking something about work."

"Hmm... really? That guy likes you though."

"I know. But he's my assitant also. We talk about work a lot." Sabi ko.

I lied about Gio being concerned because I feel like Louis's gonna be mad at it. Not really mad, pero baka magtampo.

Nanuna akong lumabas ng kwarto at nilingon siya. Sinenyasan ko siyang bumaba na dahil ayaw ko na pagusapan 'yon. Lalo lang ako na guiguilty sa mga ginagawa ko.

Pag baba ko ng hagdan ay bumungad sa'kin si ate Reah. She was fixing the table. Nung narinig niya ang foot steps ko ay lumingon siya at tinignan ako.

Umangat ang tignin niya sa likuran ko.

"Kumain na kayo," Sabi nito.

I can see from her eyes that she has a lot questions, but I can't answer any of them right now. Hindi rin ako sure sa kung anong meron kaming dalawa ni Louis ngayon.

I don't know if this will work, but It's not bad to try. Gusto ko lang din subukan para kay Brion. I'm sure he wants to be with me and his dad everyday. Kung mag work man 'to ay mas mabuti.

Hindi ko na kaialngan i-explain kay Brion lahat ng nangyari and he will never realize that he once did had a broken family.

Nilagyan ako ng iba't ibang pagkain ni Louis sa plato ko.

"Hey, that's too much."

"That dosn't look too much too me. You didnt eat lunch, Katherine. Eat up."

Hindi tuloy ako nakaaangal. I pouted. Bakit ba halos lahat ng lalaki sa buhay ko pinapakain ako ng madami? Am I really skinny?