Reckless

Chapter 52

The feeling… It gives me shiver. Naaalala ko kung pano ko hindi kayang umalis sa sitwasyon na ‘yon. I can’t even move my eyes to look at them.

“Hey Miss, we’re asking you. Are you okay?”

Napatingin ako sa nagsalita.

They’re all looking at me including Gio right now. He looks concerned.

“Katherine…” Tawag nito.

“I-I’m alright. I’m sorry. I’ll just go to the bathroom.” Sabi ko nung natauhan ako at umalis doon.

I never felt that before. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero parang tumigil talaga ang oras and the fear I feel… It made me feel uneasy.

I just need to calm down a bit.

“Katherine… are you alright?”

“Yeah, a minute, please.”

Sinundan ako ni Gio. He shouldn’t have. Panigurado kanina pa siya hinihintay ng mga tropa niya at gusto siyang kasama ng mga to.

I want to tell him that it’s okay for him to leave me, pero parang may parte sa’kin na ayaw ko.

I feel safe with him. I know he will protect me if ever something happens. He knows everything that has happened and he’s aware of it..

Nung medyo nakahinga na ako ng maluwag ay lumabas ako ng restroom. Nakita ko agad si Gio na nakasandal sa pader at nakapikit ng mata.

“Hey,” Tawag ko.

Bigla niyang minulat ang mata niya. I can tell that he’s drunk and sleepy already. Tingin ko ay hindi na siya makakadrive ng ganito ang lagay niya. Maybe we’ll book an Obeer for us to get home.

“What happened earlier?”

”A-Ah… I’m sorry. Naalala ko lang yung nangyari dahil kay Mr. Garcia when one of your friends bump into me. I was kinda drunk so…”

Tumingin siya sa’king mga mata. I’m trying so hard to hide my emotions and all, but it seems like he’s reading me so well like his old favorite book.

“I apologize. Hindi dapat ako uminom ng sobra para nabantayan kita--”

”What? No! We’re at a party and we’re supposed to get drunk. This is not about you, Gio. Problema ko ito.”

“I know, but I care about you.” Sabi nito.

It’s not his job to check on me or watch over me twenty four seven. I can handle myself. Maybe I’ll adjust little by little, hindi lang ngayon dahil fresh pa sa’kin ang mga nangyari.

”I shouldn’t have brought you here. Dapat ay nagpahinga kana. I think this day is too much for you, Katherine.”

Yes. It is a bit too much for me. A lot has happened and maybe that’s why I acted like that earlier. Masyado lang akong pagod.

“I can’t drive, I’m sorry. I’ll just book us an Obeer.”

“I know. Neither am I.”

Alam ko kung paano I-drive ang manual at automatic, so it wouldn’t be a problem to me. Pero I drank too much tonight too.

I was surprised how I handled it. Dati pag nalalasing ako, humahalik ako ng kung sinong makita ko. Especially when it’s only the two of us drinking.

Panigurado ay hindi rin ako hahayaan ni Gio na gawin ‘yun. This is just based on my observation sa actions niya.

“Where are your friends? You should’ve stick with them. Baka kanina ka pa hinahanap ng mga ‘yun.” Sabi ko.

“I’ve talked to them. Puro lasing na din sila and they want another batch of drink. I don’t think I can handle it anymore.”

“And I want to be by your side.” Dagdag nito.

I somehow feel like I’m secured. I know I keep saying him to go, pero ayaw ko talaga. I feel like I’m moving him away from his friend, but I also don’t want him gone by my side.

Medyo dumarami na din ang mga tao dahil hating gabi na. This is where the party really starts dahil dito nagiging wild ang mga tao at kung makapag-usap akala mo ay dati nang magkakaibigan.

It’s getting noisy too. We’re sitting in couch. There are a lot of people around us, buti nalang ay walang nakaupo sakanila dito.

The couch is big and it could’ve been a make out place to some, but somehow people are enjoying their company while standing and dancing.

“I think we need to get you a psychologist.” Sabi niya.

“Why? I’m completely fine.”

“You’re not. Alam mo ‘yan, Katherine. I think what Mr. Garcia did to you left a lot of trauma.”

Hindi ako makapagsalita. I was considering it too. I mean going to a psychologist so he/she could help me overcome what I feel.

Ang hirap at ang pangit sa feeling. Para akong sinasakal at sobrang bigat sa dibdib kapag naaalala ko ang mga nangyari.

“Please give me a permission to find a psychologist for you,” He said and he looks like he’s begging.

I don’t know why he’s this concerned to me. I know he likes me and I don’t think he’s doing this just because he wants to get my trust or make me like him back. It’s pure. I wish I’m not mistaken.

“Okay.” Sabi ko.

Hindi ko rin naman siguro siya mapipigilan. I disobey his every advises and so he is. Ewan ko ba.

“Gio! Bakit nakaupo lang kayo?” Lumapit ulit sa’min ang kaibigan niya na sumalubong sakanya kanina.

“Nagpapahinga lang para mahimasmasan. Uuwi na din kami mamaya. Nice party by the way bro.” sabi nito.

Benedict smiled and looked at me.

“This man is a good man with pure heart. Be careful with him.” Sabi nito sa’kin.

“Bro!” Sabi ni Gio at sinuntok ito ng mahina sa braso.

Tumawa si Benedict at natawa na din kaming dalawa ni Gio.

“Pero seryoso. He won’t bring you here if he’s not interested. He never goes to a party with someone. He always goes alone.”