Reckless

Chapter 51

“Oh. You’re with someone. My apologies,” Sabi niya at hinawakan ang kamay ko.

Gio chuckled and said, “She’s my boss.”

“Katherine Valerio,” Sabi ko at ngumiti. He kissed the back of my hand and handed me a glass of drink.

“This is my friend, Benedict.” Sabi ni Gio sa’kin.

“Well, I hope you guys have some fun since I still have things to do.” Sabi nito at iniwan na kami.

I’m guessing he’s the host of this party. Based on his accessories, I noticed that he’s wearing a lot of expensive designer clothes.

I can tell that he has a taste too. Panigurado ako na siya ang may ari ng bahay na ito. Tumingin ako sa paligid at lahat ay nagkwekwentuhna.

I looked at Gio. Nakatingin siya sa’kin ngayon.

“Where are your other friends?” Tanong ko.

“They’re somewhere. We’ll bump into them later. Why? Is there something wrong?”

“Wala naman, Curious lang ako bakit isa lang ang sumalubong sa’yo.”

Kanina kasi nung tumawag yung kaibigan niya, which was different from the guy who called him at the restaurant earlier.

“Well, they arrived earlier than me I’m sure their wasted here somewhere.”

I can’t drink much without acting normal, but I guess it’s ok to get crazy tonight.

Gio and I just drank and talk non-stop. Una ay about lang sa trabaho, pero habang tumatagal ay mas nakikilala ko siya. If my judgment isn’t wrong, I think he really is a good man.

He’s not good just because he’s my secretary, but as a man.

“You look like you have a lot of exes before.” Sabi ko.

“Hmm… wrong. I’ve been only with two serious relationship.”

“So you had some non-serious relationship?”

“Nah. I don’t do that. I’m already too busy with work, how can I handle a lot of girls?” He chuckled.

Tumawa na din ako. Maski nga ako ay hindi na rin makapag date or fling. I’m not really interested to it. Gusto ko lang mag focus muna ngayon kay Brion, sa trabaho, at syempre sa sarili ko.

“I just don’t understand how I’m truly fascinated by you.” Sabi nito.

I think he’s a bit drunk now. Kanina ay medyo nahihiya pa siya magkwento sa’kin pero nung tumagal ay nagiging komportable siya which is good to me. Para naman hindi kami yung parang mag boss lang.

“I think you’re drunk….”

“No, I’m sober. I’m telling you the truth.”

“Well… I don’t understand too. Wala naman i-spesyal sa’kin. So why me, Gio?”

Tinignan niya ako ng mapupungay niyang mga mata. I don’t know why a young man like him in this age is single.

Dahil kung ako? Kung hindi lang kami nag kahiwalay ni Louis siguro ay kasal na kami ngayon. I dated him with marriage in mind, but having Brion wasn’t in the plan.

We got too reckless with our intimate times. There are times na hindi siya gumagamit ng condom and nakampante ako dahil sa withdrawal method.

“ Why did you and your last ex break up?” Tanong ko.

“Well, I don’t think we match. Masyado siyang masiyahin para sa’kin and I think I was too much for her. Parehas naman kami nag agree na mag break so no hard feelings attached. How about you?”

Hindi ko alam kung paano sasabihin sakanya. Why do I have to make a story every time these questions are being brought up? I should have a concrete answer and story for it dahil baka mabuking ako.

“We weren’t ready for something. I left him since that something can destroy all of his dreams.” Sabi ko.

“Mind to tell me the ‘something’?”

“Nah. I ‘d rather put it that way.”

Tumango tango siya at hindi na umangal. It seems like he respects my decision. Good, ‘causeI really hate people who dig in my stories.

“But you’re healed now?” Tanong nito.

Napaisip ako. Am I really healed now? I’m the one who left so why am I the one who’s brokenhearted? I sighed.

“Yes, maybe.”

I hope I am. It seems like I still miss Louis sometimes. Maybe because of the bond we spent together. I knew it was real. Alam kong totoo ‘yon at hindi biro biro lamang.

It wasn’t just flirting with each other. I gave him everything that I could and so he did. Ni minsan, hindi ko naramdaman na dapat akong malungkot kapag kasama siya.

He just makes my day better, before. Ngayon si Brion naman ang nakakapagpasaya sa’kin. I don’t know what I’ll do if someone takes him away from me.

“Then can I court you, Katherine?”

Anong isasagot ko? Hindi ko rin alam. I looked at the people around us and it seems like they’re just minding their own business.

“I don’t know…. Gio. A lot has happened these days and I don’t think I can talk about that--”

”Yeah…. I’m sorry. That was my mistake.” Sabi nito at parang nahimasmasan na.

I shook my head. It wasn’t a mistake and he doesn’t have to say sorry about it.

“I’ll answer that question once everything’s back to its place before.”

I have a lot of paper works to finish and I wouldn’t be able to finish it if me and Gio communicate with each other every time.

Napansin ko lang na maedyo nagiging madaldal ako kapag kasama siya.

“You’re not indirectly turning me down, right?” Tanong niya.

”No, Gio. I’m asking a bit more time.”

Hindi ko pa naman siya sobrang kilala. A lot can change in the future and I don’t even know what to feel or what I feel right now.

I’m attracted, yes, but I’m still not interested in having a relationship right now. Gio is a kind man and I know he’ll take care of me.

“Of course.” He said while his eyes are closed.

“Gio!”

Lumingon ako sa tumawag sakanya. Isang grupo ‘yon ng kalalakihan. They passed by me and one of them bump into me.

I suddenly remember what Mr. Garcia did to me in that party with a lot of people. Hindi ako makagalaw sa kinatatayuan ko.