Reckless

Chapter 22

I’ve told my mother na ayaw ko ipagsabi to sa kahit kanino. Why did she tell her?

I wrinkled my forehead. Siguro inisip niya na hindi ko kakayanin mag-isa, but I still feel so betrayed. Tumingin ako kay ate Reah at tumango. Nagtungo ito sa kwarto ni Brion.

Is she planning to take away my child from me?

“Alam po ba ni Louis ito?”

“Hindi ko pa sinsasabi. Gusto ko din muna makita ang apo ko.” Sabi niya.

Bumalik si ate Reah at dala dala niya na si Brion. Buti nalang at gising na ito. Pag tulog kasi hindi siya pwedeng buhatin. Ang bilis niya magising pero mahirap patulugin.

“Hello, baby,”

Tumayo si lola at lumapit kay Brion. Inakmang buhatin ito ni lola pero hindi siya kaagad binigay ni ate Reah.

“Ok lang, ate Reah,” Sabi ko.

Hinayaan niyang buhatin ito ni lola. Si brion ay nakatingin lang sa kanya at hindi nagsasalita.

He’s not crying. It means he feels comfortable and not scared.

“He’s such a cutie. He looks exactly like Louis.” She said and looked at me.

“But he got your eyes.”

I know. He looks so much like his father. This is the other reason why I don’t like him sleeping by my side, ‘cause every time I look at him? I remember his father. I’ve moved on, but not completely.

I’m just forcing myself to forget him para hindi na madagdagan ang stress ko. What I do is, I care less about others. ‘Cause once I care about them, it gives me a lot of stress.

“Are you planning to raise him alone?” She asked. “Yes. I’ve got ate Reah with me too--”

“But you’ll be busy with work, right? Sure ka ba na kaya mo?”

I don’t even take care of him personally. It’s ate Reah who does. It’s not that I don’t love my child. I love him of course, pero siguro kasi sobrang daming nangyari and I haven’t even moved on from my mother’s death.

“If you want, I could take care of hi--”

“No. You want to take away my child?” I said.

I started too strong, but I won’t let her take my child. Ayoko. Kahit na hindi ko siya masyado naalagaan, I want him by my side.

“Just think about it, hija. Once you get busy at work, walang magbabantay sakanya.”

“Ate Reah’s here.”

“How can you be so sure that he’ll be safe?” Tumingin siya kay ate Reah. What the hell? I’m offended.

“Ate Reah took care of him the moment Brion was born. If there’s anyone I want to trust my child with, si ate Reah ‘yon.” Sabi ko.

“Fine, but please think about it. Mas maalagaan namin siya. Ako at ang mama ni Louis.”

Hindi ako nagsalita. Ayaw ko. I want Brion by my side no matter what it takes. Pag nakaadjust na ako, mas matututukan ko pa siya.

“I’ll leave now. Please do think about it again. I’ll visit again next week.” Tumango lang ako.

“Mag iingat po kayo.” Sabi ko. I’m mad and offended, but I have good manners. Tumango ito at umalis na. Pumasok ako ng bahay at umupo sa sofa.

“Lola po ‘yon ni Brion?” Tumango ako.

“Ibibigay mo ba si Brion sakanya?”

“Hindi, Ate at wala akong balak.” Sabi ko.

Hindi na siya nagsalita pa. Wala talaga akong balak ibigay sa Brion at hindi kailanman sumagi ‘yan sa isip ko. And why did she visit when Brion was already born?

Bakit nung buntis ako hindi man lang siya bumisita kung alam niya palang pinagbubuntis ko ang anak ng apo niya? She literally came to me to get my child after everything I went through.

Kung sana ay sinamahan niya ako o binisita man lang para kung tignan kung maayos ako, ay maiintindihan ko ang gusto niya. I just don’t understand. Bahala sila diyan.

I’ll do my responsibilities and take care of my own child. After a month, nakapag adjust na ako. I started working at the office. Mabuti nalang at nandun ang secretary ni mommy.

Tinutulungan niya ako sa mga basics na need ko gawin at malaman. There I met Gio. Anak ng secretary ni mama si Gio. Nag start siya magtrabaho dito eight months ago as--I don’t know kung anong puwesto niya.

Kinailangan na magretire ng secretary ni mama kaya naman siya ang pumalit.

“Where should I put this?” I said while holding the folder that I want to put aside.

“Just give it to me after you’re done signing.”

“Okay.” I said and gave it to him. It’s not that easy to sign this papers as what I thought.

I should really read every page and content before signing, ‘cause once I signed a forged contract, things will get messy. It happens, as what they said.

Kahit na ilang beses pa icheck, minsan ay may nakakalusot na ganoon kaya kailangan talaga tignan lahat. Hindi naman pupwedeng si Gio ang tumingin sa lahat ng ‘yon dahil may mga kailangan din siyang gawin.

He also attends meetings for me sometimes and arrange my meeting schedule with clients. Him and his father has been really helpful to our company and of course me.

They are the kind of employee that I want to work in my company in the next generations. I’m kind to all of our employees to, in fact I’m closed to few of them.

They were welcoming the first time I got in here. Especially with the girls. I sometimes have lunch with them, but then s**t happens. I got too comfortable and trusted them all so much.

They once gave me a paper to sign. I don’t find anything suspicious about it, but they made me sign a paper that I lose a lot of money.

“Didn’t you read the contents?”

I admit, I didn’t read the terms and conditions. I only read the proposal. That’s because I trusted them.

I got too careless and signed the paper because it’s from them. Yun pala ay niloko na nila ako.

My attorney was quick to attend to my needs and they got fired.

“Next time, don’t trust anyone that easily. Even if you do, double check the contents of the papers.”