Reckless

Chapter 16

"Where's Brion? Is he asleep?" I asked.

"He's with Ate Selya." I see. I let him carry my luggage and things up back to my room.

"I'm sorry." I said. "Why?"

"Because I attempted to leave,"

"It's fine. Hindi naman bago sa'kin 'yon." Tama naman siya. I leave when it's only convenient for me. I don't even think about Brion or him before leaving, but this year's different. I don't know what's gotten in to me.

I know I love Gio, it's clear, but I don't know why I'm getting confuse now.

“You should rest." He said.

I don't know how to face him tomorrow. Whatever. I stayed for my son and I should focus on him. Buti nalang talaga at lumabas si

Brion para pigilan ako. I was willing to leave.... I was hesitant, but I said to myself that what happens happen. Pero ewan ko kung bakit masaya ako na pinigilan ako ni Brion.

I feel like I'm more happy and act like myself when I'm here. You know.... free from everything.

I sighed and looked at the ceiling. I wonder what Gio's thinking right now. If he already knew about Louis and Brion, then I can't do anything anymore. He was already mad at me for lying, how much more if he really knew about it?

Pinikit ko ang mga mata ko, pero parang hindi yata ako makakatulog ngayong gabi.

I opened up my phone and looked at Gio's social media. He doesn't post much, but when it comes to important event or meeting, he posts group pictures.

He's not here in the Philippines. He's out of the country as what he said. I wonder who told him or who saw me with Louis.

He/she has a sharp eye for sure. There's a lot of girls in the picture, but I can't seem to get jealous. I never got jealous of him. I don't know if it's because he's too business oriented so I know he'll never cheat on me or whatever.

I don't think he'll do though.

I didn't receive any texts from Gio. I don't even know what I feel right now. Too much emotions are taking over me. I drop my phone on the bed and closed my eyes.

I don't think I could sleep tonight. I stood up and walk towards Brion's room. I opened up the door and there I saw Louis laying beside Brion.

They're really close to each other. I envy how Brion looks for his dad more than me. Mostly, children call for their mom or cry when they sleep without them, but Brion's different.

He never asks me to sleep beside him which is understandable. Kung hindi ko lang sana kailangan na lumayo sakanya ay hindi ganun ang mangyayari.

I shouldn't blame anyone for this. This is all my fault. Me and my reckless decisions. I sat on the bed.

Hinawi ko ang buhok na nakaharang sa muka niya. I looked at Louis and his eyes were opened. He's looking at me. I was about to stand up, pero nahawakan niya ang kamay ko. Hinila niya ako pabalik.

"Ako na ang aalis. Sleep beside him." He said and stood up.

Hindi ko alam ang sasabihin ko. Ayaw ko naman sana siya paalisin, pero nakatayo na siya at paalis na ng kwarto. I couldn't say anything. Hinayaan ko nalang siya at humiga sa tabi ni Brion na sobrang lambing ng tulog.

"Goodnight my little one," I said and closed my eyes.

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I woke up with Brion playing with my hair. I slowly opened my eyes and the sun is already bright.

Louis didn't come back? I fell asleep the moment I closed my eyes. Akala ko ay hindi ako makakatulog.

"Good mowning mommy," Brion smiled.

"Good morning," I said and smiled as I kissed him on his forehead.

"Are you hungry?" He nodded and said,

"Daddy went here earlier. Sabi niya po wait daw ako dito." I carried him up with me in the bathroom.

I don't want to leave him unattended although he's getting big now. Naghilamos lang ako saglit at nag toothbrush.

Binuhat ko ulit siya at bumaba na kami. Nakita ko na kaagad si Louis na nakatalikod at nagluluto.

I should be the one doing that. I sighed and walked towards the kitchen.

"Daddy!"

Pumiglas si Brion sa hawak ko kaya naman dahan dahan ko siyang binaba. Lumingon si Louis at nagtama ang tingin namin. Bumaba ang tingin niya kay Brion at ngumiti. Sinalubong niya ito ng mahigpit na yakap.

"You should've woke me up. Gusto ko din sana magluto para kay Brion."

"Then you should set up an alarm." He said.

He's response is really cold. I shut my mouth and let him do what he's doing. Whatever. I know I'm at fault too. I looked at Brion who's being carried by his father. Nilagay niya si Brion sa upuan at hinayaan siyang tignan nito.

He finished cooking and Brion was behave the whole time. Hindi siya naging malikot o maingay. Pinanood niya lang ang kanyang ama sa pagluluto.

This is where you would really see na naalagaan at nadidisplina ng maayos si Brion. If I took care of him, I don't know what will happen to him. I mean, I was irresponsible. I didn't deserve to be that blessed to have a child like that.

"Hello baby Brion," Nilingon ko si lola na pababa ng hagdan at sinasalubong ang yakap ni Brion.

I smiled and stood up.

"Good morning po," I said.

"Good morning din Hija," She smiled.

Brion is a bit heavy now, pero kaya pa din siyang buhatin ni lola.

"Kamusta naman si Danicah?" Tanong ni lola.

"Ayos naman po, siya po ang nagbabantay ng kumpanya ngayon."

"Ahh ganun ba. Buti naman at may napagiiwanan ka doon. Itong si Brion miss na msis ka na nitong bata na 'to. Akala ko nga ay hindi ka makakapunta ngayong taon." Sabi niya.

"Bawat taon naman po ako bumibisita, lola," I smiled.

"Oo nga, pero akala ko kasi ay may asawa kana."

I think she just heard about Gio. Hindi ko sinsabi sakanila at ayaw din ipagsabi ni Louis dahil nga ganito ang iisipin niya.

"Hindi po. Sino naman po ang nagsabi sa'yo niyan?" tawa ko.

"Nabalitaan ko lang. May boyfriend ka daw." Tumahimik ako. Nakita kong lumingon si Louis.