Reckless

Chapter 62

I let Brion sleep. I told him that lola is fine. He won’t believe me at first, but he didn’t have a choice since he was really sleepy.

Gusto ko man siya dalhin sa hospital pero madami kasi siyang makikita doon. Ayaw na ayaw ko pumupunta ng hospital simula nung mawala si mommy.

Lagi kong iniisip na baka hindi na humaba ang buhay nila. That’s why even though I’m sick sometimes, I don’t want to go to the hospital.

It’s either I deal with it or call a private doctor to check on me in my house.

I don’t know if Gio knows that since he brought me to the hospital when I was unconscious. Buti nalang.

I hope lola’s okay. Hindi pa rin umuuwi si Louis or nagtetext samin. Tinignan ko na ang cellphone ko pero wala akong natanggap ni isang text galing sakanya.

I sighed. I don’t think I can sleep again tonight.

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Nag umaga na pero hindi pa rin ako nakakatulog. Louis still didn’t text me. I wonder what happened.

Hindi na ako nakapigil at tinawagan ko siya.

Medyo matagal bago niya sagutin. After five minutes of trying to contact him, he finally answered.

“Hello? Louis? Kamusta na si lola?” Tanong ko.

“Who’s this…” He said with husky voice.

“Katherine,”

I heard how the chair moved. Sigurado ako ay napatayo ito.

“Katherine, I’m sorry I fell asleep. Inoperahan nila si lola. She’s now in the recovery room.”

Parang nabunutan ako ng tinik nung sinabi niya ‘yun. I’m glad she’s okay now.

“Wala naman daw possible na complications while on recovery?”

“Wala, Kath. I’m glad we were there when lola collapsed. The doctor said if we were late for a minute, she could be in a critical condition.”

Oh, God. Buti nalang at inaya ko si Louis na pumunta kila lola. Louis drives pretty fast too kahit hindi emergency.

Ilang bess ko yan pinagsabihan noon, pero tuwing magkasama lang kami niya ginagawa. I once caught him kasi inaantay ko siya sa labas ng bahay.

Sobrang bilis niya mag patakbo ng kotse at rinig na rinig ang tunog kahit medyo malayo pa siya. I don’t know if he still does that, pero sana hindi. I tend to get really worried.

I know he knows what he’s doing and he’s a professional driver, pero kasi you never know who or what you will encounter in the road.

Madaming lasing, madaming kaskasero at kamote drivers. Kahit na mag-ingat pa siya pag nakasalubong niya mga ganun drivers, ay nako.

We talked for a bit and then he ended the call since the doctor was calling him. Si Brion sa tabi ko ay mahimbing pa rin na natutulog.

Maaga pa naman din kasi. It’s seven o’clock in the morning and I haven’t slept yet. Hindi ko rin alam kung ano oras nagigising si Brion.

I have to take care of him and let him eat breakfast first.

I sighed and stared at the window. The view here is nice. I can see the buildings from the city.

Nag vibrate ang phone ko kaya kaagad kong tinignan ‘yun dahil baka balita iyon tungkol kay lola.

It’s Gio.

Gio:

Good morning. How are you feeling?

I don’t want to reply yet. Masyado pang maaga at hindi ako nagigising ng ganito kaaga. Baka mag alala nanaman siya at maisipan niyang pumunta ng bahay.

Umupo ako sa tabi ng bintana at sinandal doon ang ulo ko. I feel sleepy now. Medyo nakampante nadin ako dahil ayos na si lola.

Lola is so kind to me and she was kind of my family when mom left this world. Si tita din, pero si tita minsan ko lang makita dahil busy ito sa work. Ang palaging bumibisita noon ay si lola.

So if I lose him, I would be really sad.

She’s done so much. To me and to my son, Brion. Never niya kaming pinabayaan ni Brion.

I didn’t know she was sick. Katulad lang ni Louis na wala rin palang alam. I think she’s been hiding this pero sana naman ay kumukunsulta siya sa doctor.

For her medicines and maintenance. I’m sure she still wants to leave ‘cause she told me na gusto niya mapanood si Brion na lumaki.

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“Mamaa,”

God. I fell asleep. Unti unti kong minulat ang mga mata ko at tinignan si Brion na nakangiti.

“Good morning, Honey,” Sabi ko at nilapitan siya.

I looked at the digital clock beside the bed and it’s eight in the morning. So he usually wake up at eight.

“Where is lola, Mama?”

“Lola is at the hospital. She’s recovering so you don’t need to worry,” Sabi ko.

Hinaw ko ang buhok niya at ngumiti. He smiled back at me.

“Really? We play later?”

“Uhm… I don’t think lola can play with you yet. But once she’s fully recovered, you can play.”

He pouted.

Brion plays a lot. Lahat ng nagbabantay sakanya ay napapagod after, si lola lang ata ang alam kong hindi.

He’s just too hyper and he wants to do everything. Ayaw niya kapag nakaupo lang siya tapos nakatunganga.

He doesn’t like to watch that much too unlike other kids na gusto manood nung mga videos sa internet.

Nanghihiram lang siya ng cellphone kapag may tatawagan siya. It’s either he calls lola, Louis, or me.

Hindi sila gaano close ni tita eh. Dahil nga busy di sila masyado nakakapag-usap, pero kapag magkasama sila ay maayos naman.

Gusto din naman ni Brion, but he’s not as attached to his grandma. Nagtatampo nga si tita. Iniinggit pa siya ni lola.

I smiled as I remember how they used to argue at kung paano sila mag asaran dalawa.

“We can play naman later,”

Kuminang ang mga mata niya at tila excited na kaagad. Wala din naman akong gagawin at hindi ako makakaalis ng bahay.

“Hungry mama,”

I smilled and said, “Okay, let’s have a breakfast together.”

I’m still glad to have Brion kahit hindi ko inexpect na dadating siya sa buhay ko. Kahit na nung una ay ayaw ko sakanya, but then mommy told me that I should love my child. I should take responsibility.

No one deserves to be abandoned. That’s what she said.