Chapter 13: Trust again
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Lilibangin ko nalang ang sarili ko. Manonood nalang ako ng movies hanggang umaga para mabantayan ko sarili ko. Who knows what will happen?
"I would never do anything without your permission and I respect you." He said.
Really? If you respect me, you won't lie to me and you won't let me look dumb.We're still walking on the way to his cottage.
I should still call him Troy since that's what the people knows. I'll try my best to avoid him. Wala nanaman dapat ayusin sa'min eh. We're done.
Pagbalik namin sa Manila, magreresign kaagad ako.
"You can't do that. You already signed the contract."
Tinignan ko siya ng masama. So he's not planning on letting me go? After what he did? Hindi ba siya nahihiya sa sarili niya?
I wiped the small drops of water on my arm. Nung una akala ko sa dagat lang 'yon galing pero umuulan pala.
"We should hurry." He said.
Tumakbo kaming dalawa habang papalakas ng papalakas ng ulan. I'm so wet!
We reached his cottage. Para kaming mga basang sisiw. s**t I don't have any clothes to change! He opened the door. Bumungad sa'kin ang malaking space at malinis na interior.
Malinis talaga siya sa gamit at organized, compared sa'kin na kung saan saan lang nakalagay ang gamit.
Tinignan ko ang mga pagkain na nasa lamesa. What? A CEO take out food from a wedding? Halos matawa ako at tinignan siya.
"They delivered it here." He said and pouted.
Defensive. Wala pa nga akong sinasabi. Nakatayo lang ako sa rag dahil basang basa ako. Nakakahiya naman kung dudumihan ko yung sahig niya.
Lumabas siya sa isang kwarto dala dala ang isang twalya at black na shirt.
I almost forgot we had a fight. I don't know but every time I talk to him I forget the things he did to me. Hindi pwede. Wag ka maging marupok, Cleo.
I dried myself with the towel he gave me and proceeded to the bathroom. He only gave me a shirt, wala man lang shorts or kahit boxers? The shirt is long though, parang dress lang.
He smell like his shirt.
Lumabas ako sa banyo at naabutan siyang nag aayos sa dining area.
"You should eat. Hindi kita nakitang kumain simula umaga."
I ate lunch at the mall pero konti lang. Now that he mentioned it, ginutom na tuloy ako.
"You look good with my shirt." He said and looked at me from head to toe.
"W-What?" Pumula ang pisngi ko sa sinabi niya.
Shit.
"Wala. Let's eat." He said.
Uupo na sana siya pero tumunog ang phone niya. He excused himself, tumango naman ako.
"Yes? What? Why? Okay."
What kind of response is that?
"We can't leave tomorrow. Our flight is cancelled since there is a big typhoon."
Hindi naman talaga dapat kami bukas aalis ah? I mean 3 days and 2 nights 'diba?
"I bought tickets. Since I know you might not want to stay here since nandito ako." He said.
Natahimik ako. He's right pero hindi ko naisip na umalis kaagad kinabukasan since he's the one paying for our travel. After we ate I volunteered to wash the dishes.
Una nag talo pa kami dahil gusto niya siya ang maghugas and I got angry so ako ang nag hugas. I mean what's the big deal of washing dishes? Duh.
"You can sleep in my room. Dito nalang ako sa labas. Lock the doors if you doubt me." He said.
As if he cannot open the door when he can teleport anytime he wants to. He's setting up a film in the living room. Gusto ko manood pero ayaw ko siyang kasama.
I'm trying to put space between us.
"Okay thanks." I said and went inside his room.
Sinara ko ang pinto pero hindi ko nilock. I trust him, pero ayoko sabihin sa kanya ng diretso dahil ayaw ko lang.
I turned off the lights and Tuck myself in his bed. Tinakluban ko ang sarili ng kumot. Every inch of this room smells like him. I feel like I'm hugging him right now.
I woke up with a loud thunder. Napatingin ako sa digital clock and I only slept for about 30 minutes. Dinig ko pa din ang TV sa labas. Maybe he's still awake.
"Ahh!" Tili ko nung lumakas lalo ang kulog.
I opened the lights and ran outside the room. Nagtama ang tingin namin ni Dane. He's really still awake.
"I thought you're already sleeping?" He asked.
"Nagising ako. Ang lakas kasi ng kulog."
I saw a ghost of smile on his face. Tumakbo ako papunta sa tabi niya nung kumulog nanaman.
Damn. I hate thunders now.
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Tinanggal ko ang kamay ko na nakahawak sa braso niya at Lumayo konti. What the hell are you doing Cleo?
"You're still scared of thunders when you already fought with much stronger and scary creatures." Tawa niya.
Bakit ba? Tinignan ko ang nasa lamesa at puro can of beers and nandoon. Iniwas ko ang tingin ko doon at nanood nalang ng film.
Destiny is really playing with me. The scene in the movie is a wedding. The girl was excited as I am and the guy didn't showed up like Dane. Tumulo ang luha ko pero agad ko 'yon pinunsan para hindi mahalata ni Dane, but it's too late. He's staring at me.
"Cleo, I'm so sorry..."He said.
Nanlalambot ako pag binabanggit niya ang pangalan ko. Yung iyak ko naging hagulgul na. Hindi ko na mapigilan. He hold both of my arms and calmed me down.
"Why did you do that Dane? Sana sinabi mo nalang para hindi na ko umasa."
Why can't he answer? Totoo ba ang sinabi ni Lawrence na ibang babae?
"Who's the girl then? At least tell me who is she and what she looks like. Is she better than me, Dane?"
"No... walang ibang babae Cleo. No one could ever replace you."
"Edi bakit? Why?!" Iyak ko.
Why would he waste a precious day? Why would he destroy my most awaiting day?
"I'm sorry... I'm sorry... please understand me. I can't tell you, but I'm doing this for us. Trust me, please. Everything will be back to normal and I'm going to marry you." he said.
I can see the sincerity in his eyes. His eyes are teary and really sad.
"You don't know how much I love you, you don't know how I sacrificed everything for you."
"I wish I know..."
Sana nga he's telling the truth. Dahil kung pati dito ay nag sinungaling pa siya hindi ko na alam kung paano ko pa siya patatawarin.
I'm going to trust him one last time. Last na.
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