Prologue
Growing up I wasn't sure of the things I really want to do, I was like an empty shell full of uncertainties. Pumapasok ako sa school na parang wala lang , basta ang mahalaga pumasok ako. At home, I was like a statue at the corner of the room; standing there without being noticed. But everything changed when I happen to crossed paths with him; Kurt Liam Caldwell the CEO of HIC Malls. Ang dating walang pangarap na babae ay nagkaro'n nang pangarap, he became my dream in an instant.!
He was the only dream I have, the only dream I wished to conquer no matter what the outcome would be. But just like any other dream he was really hard to pursue, I don't know how it happened but before I could even enter his life, destiny made it's way between us.
"Are you ready?" napalingon ako sa nagsalita. It was my bestfriend Lucas, Liam's cousin. He stayed with me and even gave up his dream to pursue their family inheritance. He could have fought Liam and become the heir of their family business but he chose to give up for my sake. Nangako siya na sasamahan niya ako sa ibang bansa para mag-aral at magkasama naming tutuparin ang pangarap naming maging isang doktor. After what happened between me and Liam I realized that life is not just about chasing someone and dream of a future with him, you should have a dream for yourself as well; a future where he doesn't exist.
"Hey, you're spacing out again," he chuckled then he patted my head. "What were you thinking? Maiiwan na tayo ng eroplano."
"Lucas, thank you." He smiled at me before he answered, "You don't have to thank me. I should be the one to say that. Claire, thank you for giving me this chance to be with you."
"I don't know when but can you really wait for me?" tanong ko sa kanya. Alam ko na matagal na siyang umamin sa'kin at mali na paasahin ko siya dahil hanggang ngayon ay mahal ko parin si Liam pero gusto kong turuan ang puso ko na mahalin siya.
"I will wait for you," he promised then he grabbed my hand at nagsimula na kaming maglakad papunta sa boarding area habang hila-hila ang kanya-kanya naming maleta.
Nakakailang hakbang pa lamang ako ay napahawak na ako sa tiyan ko nang maramdaman ko ang paggalaw mula rito; napabitaw ako sa kamay ni Lucas.
"What's wrong? Masakit ba ang tiyan mo?" he asked worriedly.
"I'm okay," I told him with a smile. My poor child is probably trying to stop me from leaving. I'm two weeks pregnant pero parang may binti na ang anak ko kung makapagwala sa loob ng tiyan ko.
'You don't want to leave your dad? Ayaw ko rin sana siyang iwan anak pero ayaw niya sa'tin. Hindi niya tayo kailangan,'
Leaving is not just a way for me to escape all the bad memories I had, it's a new beginning for me and for my child. Someday maiintindihan niya rin kung bakit kailangan ko siyang ilayo sa ama niya, mas mabuti nang hindi niya ito makilala kaysa lumaki siya na kagaya ko. Kasama ko ang mga magulang ko pero hindi ko maramdaman ang pagmamahal nila. I'm an unwanted child kaya ayaw kong mangyari 'yon sa anak ko. I would rather let my child feel na wala siyang ama rather than giving him one pero lalaki siyang naghahabol sa atensiyon at pagmamahal nito.
