Bound to love you

BTLY |10

Jaeden's POV

"Den, ayos ka lang? You looked pale." Agatha's worried expression turned at me.

"I'm just a bit nervous. What if your Dad won't like me." I replied and assured her with a smile. Hindi naman ako kinakabahan dahil do'n since nakapunta naman na din ako dito noong nalaman kong nagkasakit siya at na-diagnose ng leukemia kaso nasa isang business trip ang daddy niya at kakauwi lang nito nayon at sakto namang birthday ng kuya niya.

"Ano ka ba, ilang beses ka ng nakakapunta dito. Ngayon ka pa kinakabahan?" Mahinhin siyang tumawa bago hinawakan ng malambot niyang kamay ang braso ko para pakalmahin.

Sa totoo lang kinakabahan talaga ako kanina pa n'ong iniwan ko sa classroom si Psyche and as usual my mind always occupied by Psyche. She called me on the phone but there were loud noises in their garden earlier where the party was held and her voice seems restless over the phone.

Siguro nasobrahan lang ng kakalinis sa classroom at pagod sa paguwi sa bahay. Pero kahit gan'on hindi mawala-wala ang kaba sa dibdib ko.

I chose to distance myself from her because she might just be infatuated in me. But on the contrary, I avoided her because I am also confuse with my feelings for her. There's something in me that don't want to confirmed this feelings.

Ayaw ko siyang bigyan ng motibo para umasa sa bagay na baka hindi ko kayang panindigan.

Gustong-gusto kong kasama siya at laging kinukulit niya pero baka dahil lang siguro 'yon sa sobrang attached namin sa isa't isa simula pa ng mga bata pa kami.

Tinignan ko ang babaeng nasa tabi ko habang nagsasalita siya papasok sa bahay nila. I can see my future with her, I see her as the mother of my children. But why do I feel so unfair for Psyche.

This must because I knew that she love me, but I don't want to replicate her feelings just because he loves me as a man.

But... Why does I feel pain in my chest with the thought that it would never be Psyche? I don't want to loose psyche either.

"Is there anything on my face? May dumi ba?" Agatha asked confused trying to wipe anything in her face. I laughed at her and wipe her cheeks using my thumb even though there weren't any dirt. I am definitely sure, the dirt will be ashamed to placed on her face.

" You're gorgeous," She giggled from what I said and tuck her hair in her ear.

" I'm flattered," She said. I smiled at her before we continued our way inside to their mansion. She guided me inside and talk about her dad's likes and dislikes.

I am drown with the thought of Psyche's dad. What does he looked like? Hindi din naman kasi madalas magkwento si Psyche tungkol sa pamilya niya. Tuwing nag tatanong ako tungkol d'on ay agad niyang iniiba ang usapan at binabalik sa akin para ako ang sumagot.

We grew up together yet, I didn't have the chance to know her parents or any other relatives other than her grandma. She was living on her own at the age of 10 when Lola Dina passed away. Pinilit ko na din siyang manirahan sa hacienda pero mas pinili niya parin na mag-isang namuhay sa dating bahay nila ng lola niya.

I am aware that her parents support her financially but still it's hard for a child to live on her own.

After Psyche and I moved up from tenth grade. Psyche confessed about her being in love with me. I was happy back then but there were what if's inside my head. I was unsure of what I feel for her. And there was when my mother was so eager to make me come here at metropolis to study and achieve my degree.... that's when I met Agatha.

She approach me first because I was obviously struggling living outside my hometown. I don't even have friends here but Agatha didn't hesitate to help me.

"Good evening, Sir Albion." I greeted after seeing Agatha's father. A bearded man with a big belly his black formal attire suit him well and even made him look strict.

He gladly offered his hand for a shake and I reach it using mine and firmly held it while we shook hands.

"You must be Jaeden Austin Wilde. My daughter Agatha keeps talking about you, day and night!" The old man laughed while holding his stomach.

"Are you two dating?" He added. While looking intently at us.

"Sir, we're just frie---"

"Yes dad. We are, " Agatha butted in. I wasn't able to finish my word and just smiled at her dad's direction. Hindi ko na siya tinama pa dahil doon din naman kami papunta.

I AM WAITING at our classroom early as 6 o'clock in the morning for Psyche to greet me a good morning wearing her usual bright smile.

Ko-konti pa lang ang mga tao sa campus at dalawa pa lang kaming early bird sa room. Ako at ang classroom president namin na si Elle. She's somewhat mysterious, she don't usually talk like almost all typical high school students.

I thought she may be an introvert but how come she managed to become our classroom president?

"Pres. Ano'ng oras na nga pala kayo natapos sa paglilinis kahapon?" I approached her. Tinignan niya lang ako saglit bago binalik ang tingin sa binabasang notes. Nakalimutan ko na kasing tawagan pa ulit si Psyche pagkatapos kong makauwi galing kina Agatha.

"Sa tingin ko pasado 6 P.M? I'm not sure... Pero parang ganun," I thought she'll gonna ignore my question but she answered it without looking back at me again.

Madilim na n'on kung ganoon. I massage my temple as my heart beat rapidly. Masama ang kutob ko 'mula pa kagabi.

I immediately dial her number but the operator answered that the number I have dialed is out of coverage. I calmed myself and tried to think rationally.

Nagsipasukan na rin iba ko pang mga estudyante, there were girls asking for my number and some of them are looking at me like they will gonna eat me alive. But I didn't mind them, I'm used to it.

Hindi ko nga rin namalayan na nasa tabi ko na si Agatha at naglelecture na pala ang professor namin sa History pero nang sinilip ko ang likuran ay nanatili pa ring bakante ang upuan ni Psyche.

Pagka-uwi ko madali akong dumeretso sa apartment ni Psyche at agad na ipinaalam sa akin ng landlady niya na hindi pa raw nakakauwi simula pa kagabi ang babae.

I threw my bag angrily against the wall of my unit and all my things got scattered over the floor. Napasapo ako sa ulo at inis na ginulo ang kanina pang magulo ko ng buhok.

"Fvck!" I cursed myself. I already contacted my family from the hacienda and they said that Psyche didn't go there. Kilala ko rin si Psyche, she won't go anywhere without telling me.

Pag may nangyare lang talagang masama kay Psyche, hinding-hindi ko talaga mapapatawad ang sarili ko.

The next two days there were still no signs of her, kahit anino niya hindi ko mahagilap. I already filed a missing case of my best friend.

Gabi-gabi akong nagsusunog ng kilay para gumawa at ma-ipasa ang mga na-missed niyang requirements and projects para naman pagbalik niya ay sabay parin kaming gagraduate.

I look outside my window, wishing for my neighbor to open her lights and look at my direction like the usual but all those things were only my wishful thinking.

I drank up all the alcohol left in my glass and furiously gripped the shot glass until it got broke from my hand. My blood runs through its shattered pieces but I didn't feel any physical pain. Hinayaan ko ang sariling makatulog na hindi man lang nalilinisan ang sugat na ako din mismo ang may kagagawan.

"Beh, S--si fafa Nicolai!!"

"OMG!! Girl, 'yung jowa ko papunta dito!"

" Gaga, jowa ko 'yan. Mga pangarap mo uy, "

At ano naman ang ginagawa ng isang college student sa campus ng mga high schooler? At hindi lang siya isang simpleng college student. He's a dangerous man hiding in his bright fecade.

Nicolai sparrow walk inside our classroom likes he owns it. Our teacher stops from her discussion because of the commotion of the students made by mostly girls and gays.

"Yes, Mr. Sparrow? What brings you here?" Our teacher asked about his presence. He flashed a smile that cheered half of our class.

"I'm sorry to disrupt your class Madame. Can you spare me some of your time?" The teacher cheerfully agreed and lead the guy to talk outside.

Tsk. 'di hamak naman na mas gwapo ako, mukhang mature lang siya sa akin ng isang taon. Baby face pa kasi ako.

"Stop glaring at him , you might kill him on the spot." Agatha said and chuckles awkwardly when I only ignored what she said.

Our teacher came in and continue discussing her lesson. I didn't listened to her instead I stood up from my chair and walks quietly using the back door of the classroom. Agatha tried to stop me and asked where the heck I am going.

Saktong naabutan ko pa si Nicolai na may tinatawagan sa cellphone.

"Hey, Have you eaten already?" He asked while looking up above the sky. He seems like savoring the moment of talking with someone on the phone.

Maybe it's his girl? Actually, I don't really care. Nacu-curious lang ako kung ano ang rason para puntahan pa ang isang senior high school professor. What business is he up to?

He chuckled and laughed that causes my thick brows to frown. I can't hear what they're talking about.

"Fine.. pfftt.. I mean, napatawag lang ako para sabihin na pinagpaalam kita sa mga teachers mo. I want you to graduate on time y'know." After I heard what he said, my mind directly form a conclusion about the person whom he was talking to.

I clenched my teeth and form a fist, after he ended the call I approach him. I am being irrational just the thought of Psyche being with this Man. I hate it!

"Was that Psyche?" I concluded. He face me with a smile. Tsk, ano ba'ng meron sa lalaking 'to at lapit nang lapit kay Psyche?

"Hmm? How did you know it was her?" He answered with a question. I do really want to erased that smile on his face.

"Where's Psyche?!" I shouted. Napatigil ang ibang napapadaan dahil sa pagsigaw ko. Ang iba ay nakasilip na mula sa mga classroom nila.

"Don't make a scene. Your surname suits you, Mr. Wilde." He laughed as if there's anything funny. I gritted my jaw and restraint myself from punching him right on the face.

"Stop blabbering. Answer my question."

" Bakit hindi siya mismo ang tanungin mo? You're her best friend. You're the one who should know where she is." I couldn't control my emotion and let my fist lands on his face.

If he can't answer me directly then, I'll let him talk with my fist.

Napaupo siya sa lapag at madaling pinahid ang dugo sa gilid ng labi bago tumawa. He's insane.

"Psyche's really thought that you don't resort to violence." He laughed. "You're fooling the girl. Kung ayaw mo naman sa kanya, make way for others." He said that added a fuel into the fire inside me.

"I will never make a way for you." I said like spitting some venoms.

"Nope, I already made a way." He laughed again and mock me. Thanks to my fast reflexes I swiftly catch his cellphone when he suddenly threw it on my direction.

"Call her." He commanded and tilt his head sideways and stare at me mockingly. At first I was confused but I immediately called the unfamiliar contact number on his phone.

She didn't answered it, so I tried to dial the number again... And again. I tried five times before she finally answered the call.

"Oh ano, na naman? Tapos na'ko kumain. No need to remind me from time to time!" Her soft but naturally loud voice filled my tympanic membrane. I breathe deep and make a loud sigh as my heart was full of relief, she's okay.

I almost don't have things to worry but realization hit me. She changed her contact number and I am holding Nicolai's cellular phone! She didn't return home for several days! And now, she communicates with this jerk?!

"Hoy, nic! Nand'yan ka pa?.... Haloo!?" I gripped my phone tightly as my chest tightened making me hard to breathe.

"You're busy answering this assholes calls? While I almost got insane to know where you are ? Almost got fvcking crazy if you're safe!? Really, Psyche?! " I had a lot of questions for her but the other line remain silent.

In front of me was Nicolai seems to be entertained by my sudden reactions. I blankly looked at the man wearing his sinister smile.

"... Sorry, you do not have enough load balance to make this call.... Toot... Toot.. " She said before ending the call, She even dared to make a call ended sound. My jaw drop by what she did.

What the fvck, Psyche?