Chapter 11: I'M OKAY
My forehead creased as a warm feeling touched my skin. Marahan ang naging pagmulat ko at ganoon na lamang ang gulat ko ng mabungaran ko si Mr. Radcliffe na naka-upo sa tabi ng kamang aking kinahihigaan. I looked down at my hand that he was currently holding and was putting light kisses on.
"N-Nasaan ako?" tanong ko at isinantabi ang naramdamang pag-iinit ng aking mga pisngi. Inilibot ko ang aking mata sa buong paligid at doon napagtantong nasa loob kami ng isang pamilyar na silid.
"We are at my house. I called you earlier to check if you safely arrived in the University, good thing that you are with your friends when you passed out so they answered my call immediately after they took you to the clinic," he explained on his monotone voice.
Napatingin akong muli sa kamay kong hinahalikan niya kanina at doon ko lang din napansin na may dextrose pa lang nakapasak doon.
"Are you okay?" he asked when he noticed that I am staring at my wrist.
Pinakiramdaman ko ang sarili ko. Wala naman akong ibang maramdaman kung hindi ang kirot sa pagitan ng hita ko at mainit na singaw ng katawan ko.
"I'm okay—aghh!"
Akmang babangon pa lang ako nang makaramdam ako ng matinding sakit mula sa pagitan ng aking mga hita. Damn, it hurts!
"f**k! f**k! Are you alright? Ano'ng masakit? Tell me!" sunod-sunod na tanong ni Mr. Radcliffe na ngayon ay nakatayo na sa gilid ng kama. There's a hint of concern on his eyes.
He cupped both of my cheeks. "I'm sorry, I did this to you. I should've been more gentle to you. f**k me for f*****g you hard. I'm really sorry, Baby, this is all my fault."
I couldn't help but to smile as traces of concern spread across his face. Hindi ko maipaliwanag ang kasiyahang nararamdaman ng puso ko dahil lang sa pagpapakita niya ng mga emosyon.
"Please, say something..."
Halata ang pagsisi sa tuno ng boses niya. Sa ilang beses ko ng nakikita ang guwapong mukha niya ay ngayon ko lamang iyon nakitaan ng ganitong klase at katinding emosyon. Gumapang ang kamay ko patungo sa mga kamay niyang nakasapo sa mga pisngi ko.
"Hey, don't worry, I'm fine. Sumasakit lang naman kapag... nagagalaw," nahihiyang tugon ko.
Sabay na nabaling ang atensyon namin ni Mr. Radcliffe sa pintuan ng bumukas ito. Iniluwa noon ang isang maganda at matangkad na babaeng doktor. Umalis naman sa pagkakayuko si Mr. Radcliffe sa akin at umayos na sa pagkakatayo.
"Good afternoon, Ms. Dela Torre," her face lit up as she smiled at me.
Panandalian akong natulala sa mukha ng bagong dating na babae sapagkat hindi siya mukhang doctor. Her honey eyes, smooth skin, and her bright smile made me feel light inside. Her mid-back length and natural wavy hair gently sways as she walks closer to our direction. With the beauty that she have, she can be a model or endorser of any smoothening and whitening products.
Bagay sila ni Mr. Radcliffe. Hindi ko alam kung saan ko nakuha ang bagay na iyon pero sa tingin ko ay nababagay silang dalawa para sa isa't isa. Pareho silang matangkad, guwapo at maganda, at higit sa lahat ay parehas silang mukhang mga propesyonal.
The woman suddenly frowned as her gazed landed on Mr. Radcliffe.
"What?" There's a trace of annoyance on Mr. Radcliffe's voice as he looked back to her.
"You still haven't really changed," she shook her head.
Magkakilala sila? Well, they maybe friends or they can be something more. Wala naman akong magagawa doom dahil bagay naman talaga silang dalawa.
"You really like that face, huh," she meaningfully said.
"You think that I am that low?" Mr. Radcliffe said with a controlled voice and serious face. "Stop talking nonsense."
"Wow. You know I am enjoying the time of my life and then suddenly you'll call me and ordered me to come here. Really? I am talking nonsense here!?" she hissed angrily and rolled her eyes to Mr. Radcliffe. Bumalik lang ang masiglang ngiti sa mga labi niya ng bumaling siya sa akin.
"Hi! I'm Doctora Tatyanna de La Vega, a Gynecologist. You can call me Tatyanna or just Taty," she introduced before pointing a finger to Mr. Radcliffe's direction. "If this guy forces you to do 'that' thing, tell me, and I'll help you file a case against him."
"Hala—hindi po," umiiling na sagot ko
"Taty, I don't do forcing!" Mr. Radlciffe defended himself but the woman ignored him. "Just tell me if she's okay or what happened to her."
Nagulat ako ng unti-unting napangiwi ang magandang babae sa akin. Napatagal ba ang pagtitig ko sa mukha niya?
"Please, don't give me that look." Umasim ang mukha ni Dra. de La Vega at sinulyapan ang lalaki sa aking tabi. "Stop what you are thinking, it's making me want to puke."
"What?" clueless na tanong ni Mr. Radcliffe at nagpapalit-palit ng tingin sa amin ni Doktora.
Lumapit sa akin si Dra. de La Vega na tila may ibubulong.
"Don't be jealous, please, that monkey is my cousin," she whispered and I almost sank under the bed. She grinned as if she's teasing me as she took a step back away from me. "How are you feeling now?"
"What did you told her?" tanong ni Mr. Radcliffe ngunit walang pumansin sa kanya.
"Uhm... sumasasakit po 'yong 'ano' ko tuwing g-gagalaw ako," nahihiyang tugon ko.
"First time mo ba?" she asked that almost made my eyes pop out.
"Do I really need to answer that?" My whole face was turning into red because embarrassment but she just raised her brow at me. I gulped before I answered, "Yes."
She slowly nodded her head.
"Don't worry, Swetheart, common lang ang makaramdam ng sakit kapag first time." She kindly smiled at me before she turned to Mr. Radcliffe and hissed at him, "Like what she said, Mr. Radcliffe, her v****a is in pain because of the hugeness of your f*****g d**k. You should have been more gentle to her because she's a virgin and your size is too big that you just freaking hit her cervix. You, idiot!"
"Tatyanna! Stop! Your words are too—"
"Too what? I am just telling the truth," Dra. de La Vega innocently cut him off. Tumikhin siya at umayos ng pagkakatayo. "She passed out dahil masyado nabugbog ang katawan niya. I even saw bruises in different parts of her freaking body and her vulva is really swollen! You know she was in pain pero hinayaan mo parin siyang magkikilos na dapat ay nagpapahinga lang siya, moron!"
"I didn't know! She was in school!" sabay kaming napangiwi ni Dra. de La Vega dahil sa sinabi ni Mr. Radcliffe. "And stop calling me names!"
"And now you are into students? Oh, my gosh! Puwede ka ng kasuhan ng child abuse!" sigaw ni Dra. Tatyanna na hindi makapaniwala sa narinig. She frustratedly glanced at my direction and sigh. I bet, inside her mind, she's already judging me.
"Tatyanna, stop over reacting," naging matigas ang ekspresyon sa mukha ni Mr. Radcliffe nang sabihin niya iyon.
"Whatever." Malalim na napahugot na lang muli ng hininga si Dra. de La Vega bago bumaling ulit sa akin. "I will give you a list of over the counter pain reliever that you can take, and you may also need to take a warm bath. If your swollen vulva or the opening of your vigina really hurts, you can try putting an ice cube in a washcloth or in a plastic bag and rest that on the outside of your underwear for 10 to 15 minutes. Don't forget, no s*x muna, okay? Kailangan mo munang ipahinga ang katawan mo." She strictly looked at me and Mr. Radcliffe. "I'm going back to Dela Vega's Resort. Don't ever disturb me again, David. The pain shouldn't take too long to subside, just give it a time. But if it doesn't, call me, okay?"
"Thank you," I softly said.
Nang makalabas si Dra. Tatyanna sa silid ay pabagsak na naupo si Mr. Radcliffe sa upuang nilisan niya kanina bago ako nagising.
I looked at Mr. Radcliffe as he held my hand. "I'm sorry if you got offended by my cousin's words."
I turned my gaze to Mr. Radcliffe as he got up from his seat and went to the sofa where he placed my bag.
Akmang magsasalita pa lang sana ako ng marinig ko ang malakas na patunog ng cellphone ko. Hinanap ko kung nasaan iyon. I turned my gaze to Mr. Radcliffe as he got up from his seat and went to the sofa where he placed my bag.
"Thank you," saad ko pagkabigay niya pa lang sa akin ng bag.
"It's already 7 pm, you must be starving. Dito ka na kumain, I'll just get you food downstairs." He kissed my forehead after I nodded to him.
Pagkalabas niya ng kuwarto ay agad kong kinuha ang cellphone ko sa loob ng bag. Pagkabasa ko pa lang ng pangalan ni Mark sa screen nito ay agad ko na itong sinagot.
"Ate, nasaan ka?" bungad na tanong sa akin ni Mark.
"Bakit, Mark? Did something happen?" Kumunot ang noo ko dahil may pag-aalala sa tuno ng boses niya.
"Ate, ikaw ang ano'ng nangyari sa 'yo? Nasaan ka ba? Kanina ka pa namin hinihintay dito sa ospital."
Napasapo naman ako ng noo. Hindi ko naman magagawang pumunta ngayon sa ospital sa ganitong kalagayan na kahit tumauo ay hindi ko magawa.
"A-Ah, nag-overtime kasi ako ngayon s-sa trabaho. May um-absent kasi, sayang din 'yong kikitain ko dito," pikit-matang pagsisinungaling ko.
"Pero ang sabi ni Nichol ay nangako kang pupunta muna dito bago pumasok sa trabaho," malungkot ang tinig na saad ni Mark sa kabilang linya. "T'saka isa pa, hinahanap ka na ni Mama sa amin. H'wag mo namang pasamain ang loob niya."
I took a deep breath as I felt a big lump on my throat. "Mark, I'm sure Mama will understand me. Bukas ay wala akong klase, pangakong hindi ako aalis. Sasamahan ko lang buong araw si Mama." I blew out my cheeks when I felt my chest heaving up because of his silence. "Can you pass your phone to Mama? Ako na ang kakausap sa kanya."
Nang wala pa rin akong natanggap na tugon mula sa kanya ay sinilip ko ang cellphone ko, at doon ko lamang na napagkumpirmang pinatayan na ako ni Mark ng linya.
I tightly closed my eyes and slapped myself. H'wag naman sanang magtampo sa akin ang kapatid kong iyon dahil napakahirap niyang suyuin.
Makalipas lang ang ilang minuto ay napamulat ako ng marinig ang marahang pagbukas ng pintuan. Pumasok doon si Mr. Radcliffe na halatang bagong ligo sapagkat basa ang buhok niya and he was already wearing his pajama pants and crew-neck sleep T-shirt. May dala siyang bed tray with legs at may kasunod din siyang isang katulong na may dalang damit. After the woman put the clothes on the bedside table, she immediately left the room.
Umupo si Mr. Radcliffe sa gilid ng kama at ipinatong ang tray sa ibabaw ng aking mga hita. Naiwang nakaawang ang mga labi ko nang sumandok siya ng pagkain at itinapat sa bibig ko.
"Open your mouth, Baby," he said with a hint of smile on his lips.
Nahihiyang nagbaba ako ng tingin at sinubukang agawin ang kutsara sa kamay niya. "K-kaya ko namang kumain m-mag-isa."
"Open your mouth and eat this or I'll eat you first." May tuno ng pagbabanta ang boses niya na siyang naghatid ng kakaibang daloy ng kuryente sa aking katawan.
"Pe-pero ang sabi ni Dra. Dela Vega—"
"That's why you better follow me." He shrugged. "Now, open your mouth."
He smirked when I slowly opened my mouth. Ang totoo ay hindi na naman niya talaga ako kailangang subuan dahil kaya ko naman pero may parte pa din sa akin ang natutuwa dahil ginawa niya pa din.
"You better change your clothes. Pawisang-pawisan ka ng dalhin kita dito."
Halos manlaki ang mga mata ko ng i-angat ni Mr. Radcliffe ang lace seethrough nighties na dala ng kasambahay niya kanina na nakapatong sa bedside table. Makikita sa mga mata ni Mr. Radcliffe na nagulat din siya sa damit na hawak.
"Damn, Clarissa," he mumbled.
"O-okay lang 'yan," I said when I saw him winced.
Umiwas siya sa akin ng tingin. "Can you—"
"I can handle myself," mabilis na putol ko sa sabihin niya.
"Sure?"
Tumango agad ako.
"Okay. I'm just outside the door, call me if you need me."
Gaya ng sinabi niya ay lumabas siya ng kuwarto. Sinimulan ko ng tanggalin ang butones ng aking blusa ngunit ng tatanggalin ko na ang skirt ko ay hindi ko magawang i-angat ang katawan ko. Kumikirot ang pagitan ng mga hita ko sa tuwing igagalaw ko ang ibabang parte ng katawan ko.
"M-Mr. Radcliffe!" Pagkatawag ko pa lang sa kanya ay agad ng bumukas ang pintuan.
"Wha-what happened!?" He quickly approached me but when he saw that I wasn't wearing a top, he suddenly backed away.
"Can you help me?" naiilang na tanong ko at tumingin sa aking pang-ibaba.
Humugot si Mr. Radcliffe ng malalim na buntong-hininga bago tuluyang lumapit sa akin. I hold on to both of his shoulders to support myself as I lifted my lower body up. Ramdam ko ang mainit at bawat paghinga niyang tumatama sa leeg ko.
"Oh, f**k. I can't take this anymore," he whispered.
Noong una ay nagtaka ako sa sinasabi niya ngunit ng maramdaman ko ang paghalik niya sa aking leeg ay agad kong nakuha ang tinutukoy niya. Unti-unting umakyat ang bawat halik niya mula sa aking leeg patungo sa aking labi.
I moaned when he slowly nipped my lips. He is kissing me like we never kissed before. Naglalaban ang aming mga dila at parehas na ayaw magpatalo. His hands was now starting wonder around my body. Lalo namang humigpit ang pagkakakapit ko sa balikat niya as I am slowly running out of breaths.
"Hmm. I really want you now," he softly whispered as our lips parted. I thought he was going to kiss me again but he just leaned his forehead against mine. "But I know I have to control myself. Even how much tempting to see you like this, I need to control myself."
Mr. Radcliffe suddenly moved away from me. Ngayon ko lamang napansin na wala na din akong suot na pang-ibaba. I am really bare in front of him. He could do anything he wants to me but he still chose to control himself.
"Magbihis ka na," he muttered before he turned his back on me. Hindi siya umalis. Nanatili lang siyang nakatalikod mula sa akin.
I smiled before I started wearing the nighties na mabilis ko lang namang nagawa. It was perfectly fit to my body.
"Ta-tapos na," I said.
Marahang humarap sa akin si Mr. Radcliffe.
"Turn around and sleep," he ordered using his cold voice.
Nagtataka 'man ay sinunod ko na lang siya. Tumalikod ako sa kanyang puwesto at nahiga na. I was about to close my eyes when I felt a strong arms encircled around my waist.
"Goodnight, Baby," he whispered against my nape.
And that night, I fell asleep with a smile on my lips.