Fated To Love You

CHAPTER 12

Nagpaalam ako kay mama sa gaganaping pag alis patungong Albay. Hindi naman sya kumuntra at binaonan pa ako ng pera ngunit, hindi ko iyon kinuha at sinabi nalang sa kanya na may allowance pa akong natitira.

After that incident, I heard from the other parents of the other students how relieved they are. The day before the incident, they transferred school as soon as possible. Hindi naman daw ang kapatid ko lang ang binubully takot ang karamihan sa kanila dahil mayaman ang mga iyon. Well, not me. Pero natakot kaya sila sa sinabi ko? Mukha bang totoo e ang bata bata ko pa tignan.

From: 09********

I'll pick you up and send me your address.

Kinabahan ako ng may nag text na unregistered number sa'kin, tinignan ko iyon, at mukhang alam ko na kung sino. But how the hell did he get my number from? Pero mas kinabahan ako ng sabihin nyang susunduin nya daw ako. I immediately text him back so that he won't waste his time picking me up.

To: 09*********

No, let's meet at the cafe near school.

He replied fast saying 'okay' and he will be there at any minute now kaya nag paalam nako kay mama pati kay Levi na hanggang ngayon ay tulog pa bago lumabas pumara ng motor para makarating na sa cafe. While on my way, I changed the name of his contact and saved it. Wow, I have his number.

I saw Nash patiently waiting at the cafe outside, and when he saw me, he smiled and welcomed me with open arms that made me stilled. Ano bang ginagawa nya? Tinignan ko ang mga tao. We are getting attention, and this is bad. Baka headline na naman ako sa campus.

"Teka Nash, what are you doing? Let go of me," I pushed him lightly.

"Oh, sorry," he let go of me before grabbing my bag and maleta, not minding the stare.

We are now travelling about an hour now, and masasabi kong ang layo pala talaga ng pangarap kong lugar. My butts are hurting. Kompleto ang dala nya may snacks, neck pillow na ginagamit ko na kanina pa, may tubig, juice, beer, and more. Hindi naman halatang pinag handaan nya ang pag alis namin. This will be the start of our journey as I want to leave with a lot of happy memories with him. Only him.

Handa ba ako? I know this happiness I'm feeling right now has consequences. I know someday I need to leave him behind. Or is he the one leaving me?

Our hotel was located in front of an overview of the most perfect shape volcano, Mt. Mayon. Mag gagabi na ng nakarating kami sa hotel, I don't have any energy left dahil mas pagod pa ako sa driver. Bumugsak ang katawan ko sa king side bed ng hotel room at hindi ko na nagawang ilibot ang paningin ko sa kabubuan dahil nakatulog na ako. I even heard Nash waking me up for dinner, but I didn't flinch and just let myself doze off to sleep.

"Mahal..."

Being called mahal with the sweetest voice is a dream come true. Waking up beside him was my dream, and now it's finally come true. This may be my past life, but this is my best life so far. I will gain memories with him. Gusto kong umalis ng may ala ala na kasama sya. And maybe... just maybe we can meet each other again. Right?

"See that mahal?" he pointed the Mt. Mayon volcano while his eyes were shining. "That mountain will be our church soon, saksi ang bundok na yan sa mga plano natin sa buhay ng mag kasama,"

I smiled at him. I wish this will remain in his memory even after the afterlife.

"Yes, Nash, we will surely go back here at dito tayo mag papakasal," I hope kaya kong barogan lahat ng sinabi ko.

Hindi ko alam kung saan ako homugot ng lakas ng loob masabi lang yon. Pangako ko sa sarili kong tutuparin ko yan, pero hindi ko maipapangakong kasama sya na tutupad. Hindi ako siguradong ako pa rin ang nakalaan para sa kanya dahil kahit anong gawin namin we are really not made by heaven for each other.

I know that... I know that from the very beginning.

Nag picnic kami sa patag na lugar kung san kitang kita ang malaking bundok. Mt. Mayon never disappoints me with her beauty that shines among others. This place will forever have my heart and soul as this man I'm with owns me. Babalik balikan ko ang lugar na ito kahit na ano mang buhay ang meron ako.

"Do you know how much I love you?" Nash suddenly talk.

"No," I raised my brows. Teasing him.

"I will mary you Ukaye Marquez, papakasalan kita sa kahit saan mang simbahan,"

Tangina.

My tears almost fall when I see how serious he is while staring at me with his soft expression. I'm afraid I can't be with you in your plans, I'm afraid hindi ako ang madadala mo dito sa susunod na punta mo.

"Nash... what if hindi tayo aabot don?"

"No mahal, I will make sure that you and me at the end. Bawal kang mawala kasi babalik pa tayo dito, papakasalan pa kita dito," malambing ang pagkakabigkas nya ng mga katagang yun.

I'm speechless. I don't know how to react. So instead, I can't help but kiss him. Dito pa lang mag sosorry na ako we both don't know what's waiting for us but one thing is for sure hindi na tayo makakabalik dito ng mag kasama. Kahit anong gawin ko hindi ko kayang labanan ang tadhana, babalik at babalik ako kung san ako nag mula. At hindi dito yun.

Sana ay makakatagpo ka ng babaeng katulad mo na kaya kang ipagmalaki at hindi ka iiwan, at hindi Ako yon.

We made a lot of activities while we're in Bicol, and bicolano people are fun to be with. They are very approachable and jolly. Halos lahat ng pwede mong paglilibangan dito ay nagawa namin, we even ride ziplines! I was really having fun here, especially since I am with him. Bakit hindi ko naisip na pumunta rito noon? I have money kaya hindi ko na kailangan problemahin ang pagkain at gasto, we also have private planes! Why didn't I think of this?

It was August when we celebrated my birthday at the same spot we used to picnic on our first day here. This day is our last day here. We're leaving tomorrow.

"Here mahal blow the candle," nilapit nya ang binili nyang cake sa harap ko, at sinindihan ang kandila.

"Thank you, Nash," I want to call him mahal also but I'm too afraid.

I closed my eyes and made a wish.

"Done,"

He smiled. "So what did you wish?"

"Wala! Ang chismoso mo wishes are not supposed to tell anybody to make it work,"

"Oh! I didn't know that, sorry, my bad mahal," and he cutely smiled, which made me smile too. This guy really knows how to make me happy without even trying.

Why is he acting that way? Parang hindi ko sya ginost ah. I taste the icing of the cake. Luckily, it is ube flavor, which is my favourite. Pinahid ko sa mukha nya ang icing at tumawa. He pouted cutely at me, and I couldn't help but pinch his cheeks and take a picture of his face full of violet icings.

I wish this man right here succeed in life with or without me and if parallel world exist, I hope you and my other self are meant to love and never let each others hand let go even if how hard the situation is.

"Close your eyes, mahal. I have a gift for you,"

I closed my eyes naramdaman ko nalang na may malamig na bagay na nasa leeg ko. It's a necklace. I reached my neck and held the necklace he gave me. I opened my eyes and saw a beautiful moon necklace with our name grave on it.

"Nash..."

"Happy birthday, Ukaye Marquez. This necklace symbolizes how important you are to me that no matter how dark my life is, there's you that always show up... To give light and make me realize that I am not alone in this life," napapatitig ako sa kanyang sinabi sa kanya.

My tears fell from my eyes. I held my necklace tight as I saw how he kneeled in front of me, holding my hand like it's the most precious thing that needs to be taken care of. Tangina. Imbes na umiiyak ako sa tuwa bakit parang umiiyak ako ngayon sa sakit. Ang sakit ng dibdib ko.

His... he is looking at me like I'm the most beautiful girl he ever seen.

"Mahal na mahal kita Ukaye, handa kong gawin lahat mahalin mo lang ulit ako tulad ng pag mamahal mo sakin dati," he wipes his tears away.

It softened me.

"Nash, you don't have to kneel..."

"You are the reason why my life goes on, thank your for keeping me alive when the world tried to kill me, hindi mo man alam, but you saved me a lot of times, Ukaye," nakatingala sya sakin pero kita ko kung pano tumolo ng sunod sunod ang luha nya.

"Nash..." sinubukan ko syang itayo pero hindi sya nag patinag.

"Handa kong takasan ang mundo ko makasama lang kita... kaya please wag mokong iiwan," he said that like he knows something. Bakit parang alam nyang mawawala din ako?

Napahikbi ako ng maalala ang status namin sa buhay. Hindi kami pwede alam ko yon, at alam kong alam nya rin. His bound to mary someone else, and I can't force his parents to let us mahihirapan lang kami pariho. We can't fight this battle when his family and fate are the villains. Potangina ang sakit naman talaga tadhana, sa lahat ng tao bakit kami pa?

"Nash... against ang pamilya mo hindi tayo pwede, hindi tayo pantay... Hindi kita maabot," pinigilan kong mag salita at baka madulas pa ako.

"f**k them! I don't care about their opinions, what matters to me was you,"

"Nash... hindi mo naiintindihan..."

At kailan man ay hinding hindi mo maiintindihan yon. Iba ang mundong ginagalawan natin this is our past life and in our next life you won't recognize me anymore. Masakit man maiwan dito lahat ng ala-ala natin mas masakit pading kilala kita bilang ikaw pero ako hindi na, you soon will look at me as stranger. As I look at you I will saw a stanger in your eyes that once I saw a soulmate.

This memories we created will forever be remain as memory only that I will treasure for the rest of my life babaonin ko to hanggang sa katapusan ng buhay ko.

This is the life that I will never regret that I once have.

We stayed a couple of days in bicol before going back to manila leaving the unsaid words to Mt. Mayon in my head. I know someday Mayon will meet Nash again but without me anymore I just hope that brings him happiness more than I did. And when that day comes I will be thankful that finally you met the better version of Nash.

Bumalik kami sa dati na parang walang nangyari as we are busy with our personal lives. Being a Law student is a headache that's why hindi kami masyadong nag kikita dahil sa busy nyang schedule for his upcoming internship while, I got busy with my fashion show next week, kinuha ako ng isang brand ng make ups to be their model na hindi ko naman tinanggihan despite of my busy schedule as a med student.

This is the battle between love and dream. And I would never regret that I choose my dreams over love. I just hope that love will find it's way back to me, if it was really meant for me.

Soon this struggles will turns into finally.