I'm Not Me Anymore

13

"What the f**k?!" she said while helding her chest, surprised.

"Happy birthday!!!" sigaw namin.

Lumapit kami sakaniya at dahan-dahan ibinigay ni Kallie yong cake. She was staring at the cake and she took a glance on us, and later on, she started crying! Noong una walang tunog yong iyak niya, she was trying hard not to make noise, biting her lips.

"Shush! We're to have some fun hindi drama! Mamaya na 'yan!" Lina joked.

"f**k off, Lina! f**k you... all of you!" she said while wiping her tears, laughing. "You guys tricked me! Akala ko galit kayo sakin or may nagawa akong masama!"

We all laughed so hard at lumapit ako sakaniya at tinapik tapik ko yong balikat niya. She looked at me while frowning kaya natawa nanaman ako. Nakakaawa si Ali kanina kung iisipin ulit yung itsura niya noong nagpapanggap kami na galit kami sakaniya.

We had so much fun. Nag picture picture kaming lahat at nag photoshoot si Ali, syempre ang photographer si Sydney. Nang matapos kami mag picture-picture, Ali decided to start eating our dinner meal.

"Blow the cake! Blow the cake! Blow the cake!" we cheered her up.

"Okay okay!" she said while smiling and laughing. She took a deep breath and she slowly closed her eyes. She pursed her lips as she blew air against on her five candles.

"Wooo!!!"

"Happy birthday, b***h!"

"Pwede na mag shot!"

"Pwede kana makulong!!!"

Nagsimula kaming kumain habang nag k-kwentuhan. Nag party kami nang matapos namin mag kainan and we spent for hours, celebrating my girl friend's special birthday.

Nang matapos ang celebration mas naunang umuwi sila Bryan, Sean, at Eiden. Habang naman yong iba, nagkakainan pa rin sila habang nag k-kwnetuhan.

"I'm glad you came." paninimula ko.

Narito kami ni Kiel naka upo sa bench, malayo nang kaunti sakanila.

"Of course. I don't want to missed your friend's birthday. Besides, Kallie invited me,"

I chuckled. Ang desisyon talaga ni Kal! Parang akala mo birthday niya para siya mag decide kung sino yong pupunta. Pero sabagay, isu-surprise namin siya e.

"How are your parents?" maingat kong tanong.

It took him for a second to respond. "Good... I guess?" he shrugged.

I knew something was off.

Tumayo ako sa inuupuan ko at humarap ako sakaniya as I playfully moved my foot.

"What?" he asked confusedly.

"Everything will be fine, okay?" I wrapped his arms around him as he raised his head a bit to look at my eyes.

We stared for a second while I was looking down. His eyes... his eyes are so fine. I'm literally attracted to brown eyes.

Marahan kong ibinaba ang aking ulo dahil natatakpan ng ilaw yong muka niya dahil sa anino ko. I looked at him for a second when he slowly pushed me away.

"Don't look at me like that," umiwas siya ng tingin.

Huh?

Agad akong napakunot at natawa nang mahina. "Bakit naman? Pangit ba? Pano ba dapat?"

Magsasalita na dapat siya nang biglang tawagin kami ni Ali. Sabi nila manonood daw sila ng movie, habol nalang daw kami kung gusto namin.

"Alright... pasok na kami. Enjoy your bebe time!" sigaw ni Kal.

"Wala kayong gagawin na kababalaghan ha!" pahabol ni Syd bago sila makapasok sa loob.

Siraulo talaga.

Liningon ko ulit si Kiel and I gave him a small smile. I grabbed the chair na pinanggamitan nila kanina and I placed it infront of him.

I sat down comfortably and I put my legs on his lap, laughing. Ewan ko kung bakit!

Narinig ko rin na tumawa siya and he grabbed my legs, rubbing softly.

!!!

Biglang humangin nang malakas kaya medyo nagulo yong bangs ko. Hindi naman masyado nagulo yong buhok ko dahil naka messy bun.

"Bangs mo ang gulo na," he pointed at my forehead.

I was about to say a word when he suddenly grabbed my chair to get closed to him.

Kaya ang nangyari, both of my thighs are wrapped on his waist. He leaned closer to me when he fixed my bangs hack to my forehead.

And he looked at me...

And I saw his eyes looked at my lips

Down to my... chest

Napalunok ako nang mariin when he suddenly started rubbing my inner thigh, while his other hand were beside my arms.

Mas lalong lumapit ang muka niya kaya napapikit ako nang mariin.

Nang biglang naramdaman ko na may dumampi sa labi ko.

Was it... a kiss?

Ramdam kong humiwalay siya sakin kaya napadilat ako. Tahimik lang kaming dalawa. Ang tanging ingay lang na naririnig ko ay hangin.

He looked at my neck and he whispered on my ear.

"Can I?"

Kusang tumango ako. He suddenly started kissing my neck as I bit my lower lip. His kisses were going down to my chest...

I felt his hands playing my n*****s against my crop top as I moaned uncontrablly.

Fuck.

He took a glance behind me kung may tao kaya napatingin din ako. Napansin kong walang tao kaya ibinalik ko ang tingin ko sakaniya.

He continued what he was doing. Kissing my neck, while playing my n*****s, but this time, it's already inside my croptop.

I unbuttoned my pants and I unzipped it. Tumigil siya sa pag halik dahil napansin niya yong ginawa ko.

"Take it off, lahat"

Biglang nanlaki yong mata ko kaya narinig ko yung tawa niya.

"Teka,"

Naglakad siya papasok ng terrace habang akong takang taka.

What's his deal?!

Hindi rin nag tagal lumabas siya, while tossing the car keys while smiling.

"Kallie's"

My mouth formed 'o'

He grabbed my hand at pumunta kami kung saan naka parking yong sasakyan ni Kal.

He opened the door for me at nang makapasok ako, sumunod siya papasok. He turned the aircon on at pinatay ang mga ilaw.

Kinakabahan ako!

"Do you want us to continue? It's okay if you-"

Umiling ako agad and I saw the smirk on his face.

"Higa," he commanded.

Humiga ako sa backseat when he sat on top of me.

He started me kissing me passionately. He pushed his tongue inside my mouth to taste me and he bit my lower lip and that made me moaned.

His kisses were getting down to my neck, I can hear the sound of his kisses...

He took my croptop off and he stared at my chest for a second. He suddenly grabbed my neck and he started kissing my chest and immediately licked.

"Ah!"

He didn't take off my bra, instead, he pushed my forehead to lay down once again to take off my pants.

"Why is it so hard to take this off?" reklamo niya.

Natawa ako nang mahina kaya tinulungan ko siyang tanggalin yong pantalon ko.

Nang matagal, he take his shirt off and he leaned on me again. He started licking my chest, down to my tummy, while playing my c******s against my panties.

"You're wet for me, I see" he said while smirking.

"f**k you," I rolled my eyes.

His expression suddenly changed. It got darkened, full of lust. He immediately take my panties off and threw it somewhere. He grabbed my thighs papalapit sakaniya.

For a second, I felt something more wetness on my thing

"Ah, s**t!" I moaned.

Napasambunot ako sakaniya nang sobrang diin habang siya, patuloy pa rin sa ginagawa niya. Maya maya, I felt two fingers went inside of me, thrusting slowly.

"f**k!"

Ang sakit...

Maya't maya, nawala yong sakit na sa ibaba at napalitan ito ng sarap. He started thrusting faster, hearing the sound of wetness.

I took a glance on his face habang ako naghahabol ng hininga. He was biting his lower lip. I can feel his thumb finger rubbing my c******s while his two fingers are on inside me, thrusting endlessly.

"Ah, Kiel!"

Pabilis nang pabilis ang pag labas pasok niya hahang patuloy ako sa pag ungol, while pulling my hair.

He thrusted slowly but much harder before I could feel my release. He take his two fingers off me as he smirked at me. Tumayo siya sa harapan ko habang naka yuko.

"Take this off."

Napatingin ako kung saan siya naka turo. Bumangon agad ako at ginawa ko ang sinabi niya.I take off his belt and I unbuttoned his pants at hinubad ko ito. I can see his bulge on his boxers kaya napatigil ako.

I take his boxers off and his black brief. Napalunok ako nang mariin dahil sa nakikita ko ngayon.

No way....

"Touch me," he said sensually.

"Ah, f**k" he groaned.

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Kinuha niya yong tissue para linisan ito and he also cleaned me, and I did the same.

He dressed me up at pagka tapos, I dressed him up as well.

"Ako na mag tatali."

"Ako na nga kasi, hindi ka marunong, Kiel. Papangit lang yan," kinuha ko yong panali sakaniya at itinali ko ito sa buhok ko.

Pagka labas namin sa sasakyan, sakto nag labasan na rin sila, nagpapaalam na sakanila.

"Uy, sakto kakatapos lang movie, sayang 'di niyo napanood." salubong samin ni Kris.

"Ano ba 'yon?" nahihirapan kong sabi.

Potek! Nanghihina kasi mga binti ko! Ang hirap mag lakad!

"365 days, char!" tumawa nang malakas si Kris. "Osya, rito na kami ni Syd. Bye! Ingat! Salamat sa pakain mga lodicakes,"

"Bye! Ingat kayo!" sabi ko. Habang sila nagkawayan lang.

"Dito na rin kami Kal, Ali, Apollo," ngiti kong sabi.

Tumango lang sila at nagpaalam na rin si Kallie at Apollo kay Ali. Mas naunang nag lakad si Kiel kaya bago pa man ako nakapag lakad nang malayo, Kallie grabbed my arm.

Muntik pa ako ma out of balance pucha!

"Are you okay?" naka kunot noong tanong ni Kal.

"O-oo naman!" mabilis kong pag tanggi. "Bakit?"

Tinanggal niya ang pagkakahawak niya sa braso ko and she gave me a suspicious look.

"Lah bakit nga?" gulong gulo kong tanong,

"Wala!" she laughed.

"Very sus," sabi ni Ali habang umiiling iling.

"Gagi kayo," tumawa ako nang pilit.

Halata ba?!

Halata sa muka ko?! Halata ba na hindi ako makapag lakad nang maayos?!

"Gonna go home na rin, bye, birthday girl! Isasabay ko pa si Apollo e." nakipag beso siya kay Ali at ganoon din sakin.

Shit. Na guilty tuloy ako bigla sa ginawa namin kanina!

Sasakyan pa talaga ni Kal! Halos wala siyang kaalam-alam!

Nakipag beso ako kay Ali at binilisan ko ang pag lakad ko para makauwi na ako agad dahil nag aantay rin si Kiel.

Pagkarating ko, umangkas ako sa motor at pinabilisan niya ang patakbo niya.

Pagkarating namin sa bahay, I kissed him on his cheek and hugged him before I could say a goodbye.

"Love you!" sigaw ko.

Mabilis niyang pinatakbo ang kaniyang motor. Nang mawala siya sa paningin ko, ngiti akong pumasok sa loob ng bahay.

Mga ilang panahong naka lipas, tahimik ang buhay ko. Wala masyadong ganap simula noong nag birthday si Ali.

Pero kahit wala masyadong ganap, I'm quite happy whenever I'm with Kiel.

"I heard there's a party going to occur." sabi ni Ali habang inaayos niya yong mga art materials niya.

Napalingon ako sakaniya agad. "Weh? Sino magpapa party?"

"I don't know... I just heard our classmates' gossips kanina. Hindi lang ata sa section natin ang invited, if I'm not mistaken," tinignan niya ako nang matapos niyang ayusin yong mga gamit niya.

"Pupunta ka?"

I shrugged. "Ewan. Kung as in lahat invited, oo. Pero kung hindi, edi hindi," I chuckled.

Sabay kaming pumasok sa classroom at napansin kong nagkaka gulo ang lahat.

"Really?! Magpapa party ka?! OMG!"

"Are we invited?!"

"You're so cool! Buti ka pa nagpapa party!"

"Perez, our queen!"

Sigaw ng mga kaklase ko.

Nasa gitna siya, parang siyang nahihiya pero parang niyang pinepeke.

"Guys! Stop, oh my!" may pagka maarte niyang sabi.

"You guys are flattering me!" pinunasan niya yong mata niya na para kunware may luha as she held her chest, acting like she's touched. "Because of that... all of you are invited!"

Mas nag hiyawan yong mga kaklase ko at napatakip ako sa tenga at napapikit nang mariin.

"Geez." mahina kong sabi.

"Oh, Lily, there you are!"

Napatingin ako sa gawi ni Bridgette at napakunot ang noo ko. Tinuro ko pa yung sarili ko kung ako ba talaga o kapangalan lang.

She tightly grabbed my wrist, but she's smiling so widely, like there's no tomorrow for her to smile.

"Of course... we will have VIP guest... Oh, and you." tumingin ako sa likod ko at napansin kong tinuro niya si Kallie.

Kallie smiled at her while she's leaning on the wall. Nag lakad siya papalapit samin ni Bridgette at hinimas niya yong braso.

"How kind of you." Kallie smirked.

"Of course," Bridgette winked at her.

Napag desisyunan nila na sa sabado gaganapin ang event para lahat makakapunta. Kaya hinanda ko rin ang susuotin ko dahil Thursday naman na.

Kinabukasan, natanaw ko si Kiel nag lalakad sa hall. Napansin ko rin nakita niya ako and I waved at him with enthusiasm. Mabilis akong nag lakad papunta sakaniya at ganoon din siya.

Nang mag lapit kami, inakap ko siya nang mahigpit na higpit. Narinig ko yung tawa niya kaya liningon ko siya agad habang naka ngiti, while raising my head.

Ginulo niya yong buhok ko kaya tinawanan ko siya ulit.

"I miss you." ngiti kong sabi at inakap siya ulit.

"Miss you more,"

Nang humiwalay ulit ako sakaniya, napatingin ako sa likuran niya, at napansin ko si Bridgette, naka tingin samin.

Nang mag tama ang tingin namin, sa iba siya bigla tumingin at nginitian niya yong mga estudyanteng kinikilig pag siya nakikita.

What's so special about her?

Pagka sapit ng sabado, maaga akong nag ayos. Nanood pa ako ng 'get ready with me' kagabi para medyo alam ko ang gagawin ko.

Ngayon, pinapanood ko pa rin yung video habang ako nag ma-make up. I don't wanna mess up though.

Natapos ako mag make up ng 20 minutes. At nang matapos ako, sinuot ko susuotin ko sa party.

Black fitted dress and a white coat, with a pair of gold sandals.

Not bad.

Nang matapos akong mag ayos, hindi nag tagal nag door bell si Kallie. Sabay raw kami.

"Stunning!" pang bubungad niya. "I love your make up! I literally can see your improvement."

"Thanks!" I smiled. "Ikaw rin,"

Sasakyan niya ang ginamit namin papunta kila Bridgette. Hindi masyadong ma-traffic kaya agad kaming naka punta.

We knocked four times, at ang nag bukas samin si Bridgette.

"My VIP guests! You guys are so..." tinignan niya kami mula ulo hanggang paa and she cleared her throaf. "pretty! As always."

"Yeah, prettier than you." Kallie winked at her and she flipped her hair.

Hinawakan niya ang braso ko at nag lakad kami paloob, leaving Bridgette stunned.

Hindi ko ineexpect 'yon! Akala ko pupurihin niya rin, e.

"Nasaan na sila?"

"Malapit na sila." she responded.

Tumango ako at tinignan ko ang paligid. Everyone seems enjoying though.

Literal na party ang ginawa ni Bridgette kaso walang alcohol as well as wines since we're not 18 yet.

Nakarating din ang UNGAS kaya mas lalo akong sumaya. Unang bumungad samin nag tatalo sila Eid at Syd.

Ugh. As always.

"Ano nanaman pinag tatalunan ng mga yan?" I took a glance on those two.

"Malay ko riyan sakanila. Parang mga tanga," Kris rolled her eyes.

"Ito kasi, e!" Inis na sabi ni Syd.

"Oh bakit?! Asar talo ka kasi, e. Kanina inaasar asar mo'ko, tapos nung inasar kita, napikon. Amputa!" reklamo ni Eid.

"Jusko, parang mga bata! Bumalik nalang sana kayo bilang grade 1!" reklamo ni Bryan.

"'Yaan mo na, pre. Away kasi mag jowa yan, e. Gusto mo ba maranasan din yan?" Sean smirked.

"Huh?!"

Ako yung unang tumawa nang malakas nung nakuha ko yung ibigsabihin ni Sean.

"Pre..."

"Pre... putangina mo!"

Nag vibrate yung cellphone ko at nag popped yung message sakin ni Kiel.

Ezekiel: i'm almost there. see you, love.

I smiled and I reacted heart on his message.

Habang kami nag lalakad lakad ni Kallie dahil gusto raw kami i-tour ni Bridgette, may kumalabit sa likod ko at agad akong napalingon.

Ezekiel!

"Ang ganda ganda mo talaga." he held my hand and I felt his soft as a cloud of his lips on my hand.

"Thanks." I chuckled.

"Tara?"

"Wait, paalam lang ako sakanila."

Bago pa man ako mag salita, tumingin sakin si Bridgette at kay Ezekiel.

"I-"

I felt Ezekiel's hands on my waist and he leaned me on his chest.

"We're just gonna roam around." pag papaalam niya sakanila.

"Go ahead," ngiting sabi ni Kallie

"What do you mean? I'm already touring you guys, bakit kailangan niyo pang humiwalay?"

"'Cause why not, girl? Let them be. What's the purpose of your so-called-party if you're not gonna let them mag ikot on your party?"

"Huh?!" may halong inis niyang sabi. "I mean-" pilit niyang huminahon pero tinigil din ito ni Kallie.

Pinalupot niya yung braso niya kay Bridgette at ang lakad sila papaalis.

I raised my head and I saw him looking at me. Tumawa kami nang malakas.

"Ano meron roon?" tawa nang tawa si Kiel.

"Ewan ko," I shrugged while still laughing.

Nag ikot ikot kami sa bahay nila Bridgette at kumuha na rin kami ng pagkain habang nag k-kwentuhan. We also took some pictures.

"You look so hot there, babe. Lift your head a bit."

Sinunod ko yung sinabi niya at pagka tapos niya akong picturan, siya naman amg kinuhanan ko ng litrato.

"Don't look at the camera. Ayan... ayan. Okay. 1... 2... 3..."

Pagkatapos naming mag picture, we decided to split up para maka bonding ko yung girls. He also made some friends habang kami kumakain kanina. Good for him.

"Lilyyy! My girl!" salubong sakin ni Ali nang makalapit ako sakanila.

I smiled. "Ano ganap?" tanong ko nang akbayan ako ni Syd.

"Wala naman, chikahan lang."

"Mukang nagkaka mabutihin na kayo ni Mateo, ah?" sabi ni Kris.

"Yeah. Gladly," I nodded.

Nang sumapit ng 7:30 pm, isa isa na nag uuwian yong mga tao kaya napag desisyunan naming umuwi na rin.

Wala na rin ganap masyado. Puro tugtugan nalang at kainan.

"Si Kallie? Nasaan na?" tanong ni Lina.

"Ewan. Wait lang hanapin ko. Kasama yata ni Bridgette yon,"

Pumasok ako sa loob at nakita kong naguusap si Kallie, Apollo, at Sean. May mga iba rin silang kausap pero hindi ko kilala. Taga ibang section yata.

"Guys, uuwi na raw. Sasabay ba kayo samin?" tanong ko.

Napatigil ang paguusap nila kaya medyo nailang ako. Kallie smiled at me as well as Sean and Bryan.

"Oh yeah. Gotta go, folks! It was nice meeting you." pag papaalam ni Kallie roon sa kausap nila.

"Let's gooooo!" sigaw ni Apollo.

"Uuwi na kami!!! Wooo!!!" sigaw naman ni Sean.

Nang nasa sasakyan na kami, napansin kong narito pa rin ang motor ni Kiel. Binuksan ko yung cellphone ko, nagbabaka sakaling nag message siya tapos hindi ko nakita.

Pero wala. Weird.

"Uy, wait. Wala pa pala si Ezekiel. Wait lang!"

Tumakbo ako papunta sa loob ng bahay. Kokonti na rin yung mga tao.

Pumunta ako ng second floor, puro tugtog nalang din yung naririnig ko.

"Kiel?" sabi ko habang tinitignan ko bawat paligid. Ginamit ko rin yung flashlight ng phone ko dahil naka dim light yung taas.

Napansin kong naka bukas nang maliit yung isang kwarto, may music din at red yung dim light sa loob ng kwarto.

Bahala na! Muka namang walang tao.

Mariin kong pinikit ang mata ko habang ko dahan dahang binuksan yung kwarto.

Agad akong dumilat nang maramdaman kong nabuksan ko na.

"E-ezekiel?" nanginginig kong sabi.

Hindi ko alam ang mararamdaman ko...

Naramdaman kong umkyat yung lamig mula ulo sa hanggang paa

Kasabay na rin ng panginginig ng kamay ko, at pag sikip ng dibdib.

I held my chest and my tears started to fall uncontrollably.

"N-nag hahalikan kayo... Ezekiel? Bridgette?" I don't wanna misinterpet everything. 

I trusted him... 

"I- it's not what you think!"

Agad niyang tinulak si Bridgette. Lalapit na dapat siya sakin pero pinatigil ko siya sa paglakakad.

"Wag kang lalapit, Ezekiel." mariin kong sabi.

Hindi ko alam ang mararamdaman ko.

Galit?

Selos?

Pagsisisi?

Sakit?

"Lily, please makinig-" Maglalakad na dapat siya pero inis akong nag salita ulit.

"Sabi ko sayo wag mo kang lalapit!" sigaw ko. "Tangina, nandidiri ako sa'yo..."

"Is this what you planned, Bridgette? Kaya mo ba ginawa itong party para pag awayin mo kami?"

"H-huh? Of course... not,"

Mas lalong nag dilim yung paningin ko nang marinig ko yung pag iinarte niyang boses.

"Tinatanong kita, Perez. Wag mo akong ginagago!"

"At ikaw..." inilipat ko ang tingin ko kay Ezekiel.

Hindi ko na natuloy ang sinabi ko dahil biglang bumuhos ang luha ko. "Ikaw..." My vision started to blur because of my tears.

Tangina, mag salita ka!

Sabihin mo ang gusto mong sabihin!

Halos mang hina ang mga tuhod ko tuwing naalala ko yung nakita ko.

Bridgette was leaning against the wall, habang niya hawak hawak ang neck tie ni Ezekiel. While Ezekiel was looking down on her.

They were about to kiss.