His Night Obsession

Kabanata 1: SPG

"Ano sa tingin mo ang ginagawa mo, Luke," mapait kong sigaw habang tinutulak siya papalayo sa akin.

Hindi ko siya naitulak agad dahil ang puso ko ay nagtratraydor sa akin. I longed for that kiss, but I wanted to hear his explanation first, dahil hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko. Masyado na akong napahiya.

"I missed you, Davi. I missed you so bad," aniya.

Hinila niya ako papalapit sa kaniya. He tried to kiss me again, but I pushed him away. Ano sa tingin niya ang ginagawa niya? Matapos niya akong ipahiya sa lahat ng tao na naroon may gana pa siyang landiin ako kaysa magpaliwanag sa kaniyang ginawa.

"Shut up, Luke! Ayokong marinig ang mga walang kwentang sinasabi mo. I want your explanation right now," galit kong sigaw sa kaniya.

Binitawan niya ang kamay ko at hinilamos sa kaniyang mukha. Nakatayo lang ako sa harapan niya habang pinipigilan ang hikbi kong lumalakas na.

"What do you want to hear?" walang buhay niyang tanong sa akin.

I bit my lower lip and tried so hard not to chuckle. Hindi ko alam kung pinagtritripan niya ba ako sa tanong niya o wala lang talaga siyang konsensya?

"I want your explanation. That's what I wanna hear," mabilis kong sagot.

"Look, Davi. Kung nagagalit ka dahil sa exhibit ay wala na akong magagawa roon. I have your approval kaya bakit ka nagagalit?" nagtatakang tanong niya.

Ang dating galit kong mukha ay napalitan ng pagtataka. Nagsalubong ang kilay ko matapos marinig ang sinabi niya sa akin. Pinipikit ko sandali ang aking mga mata upang alalahanin kung nagpaalam ba siya sa akin tungkol sa bagay na ito ngunit wala akong maaalala.

"I didn't give you any permission to use my photos, Luke. Sino naman ang gustong ibalandra ang mga hubad niyang larawan sa lahat ng tao diba? Hindi ako baliw para pumayag," giit ko.

He chuckled in disbelief. Malakas siyang tumawa habang nakatingin sa akin na para bang may nakikita siyang nakakatawa.

"Are you sure, Davi?" he mocked me.

"Yes," mabilis pa sa kidlat na sagot ko.

He laughed again. Now he's hurting my ego real bad.

"Bakit ko naman ipapalabas ang mga litrato mo kung hindi ako nagpaalam sa'yo? I will be sued if I do that, Davi. Makukulong ako," he explained.

Natahimik ako sa sinabi niya. Luke is a very conscious man. Gusto niyang lumayo palagi sa gulo dahil ayaw niyang masangkot dito. He's meticulous and wanted his life to be peaceful as possible. Kaya may punto naman ang sinabi niya.

"I didn't remember giving you my permission, Luke," tanging sagot ko.

I'm very sure that I didn't give him my permission dahil wala akong naaalala. Hindi ako tanga na papayag ipakita sa buong mundo ang hubad kong larawan. I'm very secretive and introverted kaya malabong pumayag ako sa gusto niya.

"If you can't remember, then I'll make you remember," pinal niyang sabi.

I watched his every move. I watched how he grabbed his cellphone on his slacks and walked towards me. Nakatingin lang ako sa kaniya habang ang puso ko ay halos mahulog na dahil sa kaba.

Habang kinakalikot niya ang kaniyang cellphone ay nag-iisip rin ako kung kailangan siya nagpaalam sa akin ngunit walang pumapasok sa isip ko dahil wala talaga akong maalala

He stopped moving and faced me. Tumigil rin ako sa pag-iisip habang inaantay na ipakita niya ang cellphone niya.

"See for yourself, Davi," mahinahon niyang sabi habang binibigay sa akin ang cellphone niya.

Mabilis ko itong kinuha galing sa kaniya. Natulala ako habang tinitignan ang video. I'm hesitant to hit the play button dahil natatakot ako. Natatakot akong masampal ng katotohanan, natatakot akong malamang nagkamali pala talaga ako, natatakot akong aminin sa sarili ko na kasalanan ko ang lahat ng ito.

"What are you waiting for? You're dying to know my explanation tapos ngayon hindi mo naman pala kayang tignan ang ebidensya ko," may himig ng galit sa boses niya.

Masama ko siyang tinignan. Tinaasan niya lang ako ng kilay at naglakad papalayo sa akin. I quickly returned my gaze at his phone while trying to calm all my nerves.

I hit the play button and started to watch the video.

"Do you like this, Davi?" he said while panting.

"Hmmmm," I moaned while holding the edge of my bed.

"What about this?" he said, then pushed me towards the bed.

Napahiga ako habang nakatingin sa camera.

"Why are you filming? Stop that. I'm getting shy," tumatawa kong sabi habang tinatakpan ang mukha ko.

"I just wanted to record this very special moment, babe. I want to remember this," he sweetly said.

"I looked ugly. Stop that," I giggled.

"You're the hottest," he said while licking my hand.

Napaigtad ako dahil sa kiliting naramdaman ko.

"Can I film you, babe?" he asked while still licking my hand.

I bit my lower lip and nodded.

"Thank you. I'm just going to put it here. There you go!" he said while checking the angle to make sure that we're on the frame.

"Come here now, babe," I impatiently said.

He looked at the camera then walked towards me.

"You're impatient!" he said while drawing circles on my stomach.

I arched my back because of the sensation I felt.

"I love you," he whispered.

I smiled. He didn't let me respond and devoured me. He kissed me thoroughly without giving me any chance to breathe.

He removed my shirt and unclasped my brassiere. I moaned when he touched my b*ob. His kisses went down from my lips to my neck while his hands are busy holding my valley.

With each touch, I can feel heaven. I anticipated his moves and can't wait until he reached down there.

"Babe," I moaned.

He chuckled on my neck. I can feel his hot breaths on my neck while his hand is slowly traveling on my stomach while drawing small circles that makes my body so excited.

He stopped kissing my neck and stopped his hand on my stomach. I looked at him with annoyance.

"What?" I said.

"Nothing," he replied.

He resumes his kisses. He kissed me from my neck down to my br*ast. Napaigtad ako dahil sa sarap na aking nararamdaman. Ang buong akala ko ay mananatili siya sa mga bundok ko, but he continued his kisses down to my stomach. He's now licking my stomach while slowly traveling down there.

Napasinghap ako nang maramdaman ang hininga niya sa shorts ko. My cotton shorts looked so helpless. He pulled down my shorts, leaving me with my brand new lace panty.

"This is new, huh," he chuckled.

I covered my face because of it. Nakakahiya.

"How did you know?" sagot ko sa hindi makilalang boses.

"I just know," he said while bitting the hem of my lace panty.

Napasinghap ako nang maramdaman ang hininga niya sa pagitan ko. I'm all naked in front of him while he's still in his clothes.

He quickly removed all his clothes while I'm busy watching him grow big.

Pinaghagi niya ang mga tuhod ko habang tinitignan ako. I bit my lower lip, trying so hard not to moan because of his hot breaths on my gem.

He slowly massaged my cl*t while holding his thing. Napapikit ako dahil sa sarap. He knows how to make me go crazy over him. Without any warnings, he devoured me. He's licking me down there, and I don't know where to hold onto.

Napadaing ako sa sarap habang sinasabunutan siya upang mas lalo akong masarapan. Hindi na siya nagtagal roon at pumosisyon na sa pagitan ko.

"I love you," aniya

"I love you too," I smiled at him.

He slowly inserted his thing inside me. I can't feel any pain right now dahil halos araw-araw namin itong ginagawa dahil aalis na siya. We wanted to cherish every moment dahil alam kong ma mimiss namin ang isa't-isa.

He slowly thrust inside me. Slowly but making sure to hit the right spot for me to moan. Napakapit ako sa kumot ko habang nakatingin ako sa kaniya.

Ang dating mahinang pagbayo ay napalitan ng mabilis at malalalim na pagbayo. He's panting right now ay kitang-kita ang butil sa kaniyang mukha.

"I want to be on top," I said without hesitation.

He didn't want me to be on top dahil hindi niya ako ma control. He wants to control every aspect of our relationship kahit sa ganitong pangyayari ay dapat siya pa rin ang masusunod.

"No," pinal niyang sagot habang patuloy sa pagbayo.

"Please," I begged using my bedroom voice.

I know he won't agree with this, but I want to shoot my shot.

"I'll let you but in one condition," he said while thrusting deep and rough and flicked my cl*t.

I lost all my sh*t when he did that flicking thing—Napadaing ako dahil sa sarap. My mind is clouded with the earthly sensation that I'm feeling right.

"What?" tanong ko habang kinakapos sa hininga.

He's thrusting deeper and deeper. Kinuha niya ang kamay ko sa gilid at nilagay iyon sa aking mga dibdib. He wants me to play with my own while he's enjoying watching me

"Let me use your photo on my exhibit. Not the normal pictures, but these pictures," he said.

I'm clouded and blinded by the sensation, but I'm still confused.

"Anong pictures?" nagtatakang tanong ko.

"You. Naked. Us, having s*x. Pictures and videos, babe," he sweetly said and flicked my cl*t.

Napadaing ako sa sarap.

"Ohhhh. Ah, okay. Now, let me be on top," I said.

The video ended just like that.

Tumulo ang luha ko pagkatapos mapanood iyon.

I bit my lower lip and tried so hard not to cry. I feel so betrayed. I thought he was joking that time. I'm too clouded with my desire that time and he used that against me.

"That's not fair, Luke. I-I'm not thinking straight that time," malakas kong sigaw.

Napatingin siya sa akin. Naglakad siya papunta sa direksyon ko na tila ba wala siyang pakialam sa sinabi ko. He quickly grabbed his phone and put it inside his slacks.

"I didn't force you, Davi. You voluntarily said yes," he pointed out the obvious.

Napaupo ako sa sahig dahil sa sinabi niya. He didn't force me, but he used my weakness. He took advantage of me while I'm clouded and not thinking straight. That's not fair!

"Hindi pa rin taman 'yun!" umiiyak kong sigaw habang nakatingin sa sahig.

I can't face him right now. Galit na galit ako sa kaniya ngunit mas lalo akong galit sa sarili ko dahil nagpa-uto ako sa kaniya.

"What do you want, Davi. I have your permission kaya may karapatan akong gawin ito. Don't act like a victim dahil ikaw mismo ang nagbigay ng pahintulot sa akin," aniya

Hindi ako nakatingin sa kaniya ngunit alam kong hindi niya ako tinitignan ngayon. He must felt stupid being here explaining everything to me while I'm the one being reckless just to get the pleasure I want.

"You want to become a model, right? Then use this as an opportunity, Davi. Many people are interested about you," dagdag niya matapos akong hindi magsalita.

I looked at him with disbelief. Ano sa tingin niya ang mabuting maidudulot nito sa imahe ko? Wala diba, magiging katawa-tawa lamang ako.

"Jesus Christ, Luke! I wanted to become a model, not a p*rnstar," I shouted all my frustration.

Napakamot siya sa ulo niya habang umiiling.

"It's a win-win for the both of us, Davi. Magiging sikat ka dahil sa ginawa ko. You can be a lingerie model or something," he reasoned out.

Napahilamos ako dahil sa sinabi niya. I don't know what to do with him anymore. He's always like that. Ayaw niyang natatalo siya sa usapan kaya palagi siyang may bala.

"It's just you who win, Luke. Kahihiyan lamang ang naging dulot sa akin ng nangyari," mahina kong utas.

I lost, I admit it. Alam kong may kasalanan ako sa nangyari ngayon ngunit bakit hindi niya man lang ako sinabihan nang maging handa naman ako. If he had my permission, then he can tell me while I'm thinking straight hindi iyong gugulatin niya ako ng ganito.

"Hindi ko kontrolado ang iniisip mo, Davi, but I want you to know that I'm doing this for the both of us, para sa career nating dalawa," he said while kneeling.

Umiling ako habang pinupunasan ang luha ko.

"No, you're just doing this for yourself, Luke. You never really cared for me. For the past five years of our relationship, you never cared. F*ck!" galit kong utas habang tumatayo.

I can't take this emotion anymore. Masyadong maraming nangyari sa araw na ito. My mind is within its limits, and I can feel that I might blackout anytime soon.

Nagmadali akong naglakad papalayo sa kaniya. He called me, but I didn't listen to him. I just want to go home and sleep right now. I want to rest and escape this reality for a while dahil masyado nang masakit ang mga nangyayari.

Realizations and regrets keep on flooding my heart and mind, and I can't control them anymore. I guess it's true, talo palagi ang mga taong sobrang magmahal.