Back To Strangers

After I finished all the simple house chores, I took a bath. I then went to bed while busy scrolling on the phone screen. Minutes later, I got bored. But I thought of something that could let out that boredom. I went to a website where I can talk to strangers. "F," I started the conversation. "M, horny." He replied. I immediately skipped after I read his reply. I'm not into this. I just want to talk to someone with sense. "M," "F," I replied. "Cool. So, why are you here then?" "Nothing. I'm just bored. How 'bout you?" "Well, we're the same. So, what are you up to?" The conversation gets long as time goes by. Gusto ko pa sanang makipag-usap sa kan'ya kaso masiyado na ring mahaba ang oras na iginugol namin sa pag-uusap. I don't know why I get this feeling na para bang magkakilala kami kahit ngayon lang kami nagkausap. Or maybe it's just a coincidence na may pagkakatugma ang mga nangyari sa past namin? "Okay. One last question before we say good bye. You should answer this. I think okay lang naman kahit masiyadong personal since 'di naman tayo magkakilala personally," chat niya. "Okay. What is it?" "What's your biggest secret?" he asked. Napaisip ako nang malalim sa naging tanong niya. Mukhang mahirap 'to, ah? Nagdadalawang isip ako kung dapat ko ba 'tong sabihin sa kaniya. This is my biggest secret. I don't even tell my best friend about this. But, sa sinabi nga niya, we're strangers. We don't know each other, so I guess it's okay na sabihin ko 'to sa kan'ya since 'di niya rin naman ako makikilala. "My biggest secret is... I don't love him from the very start, even until now. But I choose him over that one guy I truly and deeply love. I chose to be with him because he's the one who loves me unconditionally, more than the love that guy could give me."