RAY OF LIGHT

CHAPTER 31

My heart was happy just by thinking the thought of me and my son being okay again.

I was smiling from ear to ear as I walk closer to my Gelo's room. Then naabutan kong nakabukas ang pinto niya.

"Maybe Glade's here already," mahinang sabi ko.

I was about to push the door when I heard someone's voice.

"Not all lies are bad Gelo. Some lies are made because they don't want to hurt someone. Some lies are made not only to deceive people but it was because there's a good reason behind it, and that is what you're mom did."

I didn't know that I will hear those words from him. This is so unexpected!

"Good reason? What is it Daddy H?" rinig kong tanong ni Gelo.

"Because you're mom knows that you are too young for this matter. And she wanted to tell it you when the right time comes. She lied not because she doesn't want to let you know about it. She lied because she's protecting you're heart, since it's still too fragile because you're too young. And..." the voice stop for a moment so I lean forward at the door to clearly hear their conversation. "Do you think, telling you the truth that she's not your real mom was easy for her?"

Wala akong narinig na sagot kay Gelo.

"You see, she treated you as her own son. She treasures you so much. Kaya kapag sinabi niya ba sa'yo na hindi siya ang tunay mong mommy, matutuwa ba siya? There's a lot of possible reason for your mom to feel afraid and frustrated. Because telling you the truth means accepting it too. That someday she will let you go and be with your family. It will make her feel broken too Gelo. You're mom loves you so much and that is for sure," mahaba niyang sabi.

A lone tear escaped from my eye that I immediately wiped away. I've decided not to come in and just went downstairs and sat on the sofa.

Nagkakaroon na talaga ng pakinabang sa mundo ang Engot na iyon 'no.

Ginugol ko ang ilang minuto ko sa pagmuni-muni. Hanggang sa mahagip ng paningin ko si Hiro na pababa ng hagdan.

Agad akong tumayo at sinenyasan siya na lumapit sa'kin.

"Ah... Are you going home already?" I awkwardly asked.

"Nope. Pinapapunta ako ni Hillary sa Club H," sagot niya.

Nakagat ko ang labi ko at tumango.

Ano pa ba sasabihin ko? Bakit ko nga ba siya tinawag dito? Hayss.

"Sige, baka hinahanap ka na niya," sabi ko at bahagyang ngumiti kasi gusto ko nalang din kutusan sarili ko. Bakit bigla-biglang nagtatawag ng kung sino.

"Aren't you gonna say something?" kunot-noong sabi niya.

Mapakla akong tumawa. "Tulad ng alin?"

"I don't know. You ask yourself why does you called me here."

Nagkibit balikat na lamang ako kaya napabuntong hininga siya.

"Okay then. I'm going," paalam niya at lumabas na ng bahay.

Ay buti nalang nakaalis na!

Nang makabawi ako ay agad akong nagtungo sa kwarto ni Gelo.

I knocked twice. "Gelo?" tawag ko. "I'm coming in okay baby?" sabi ko at tinulak na pabukas ang pinto.

I found my baby boy sitting on his bed looking at nowhere.

"Baby?" pagkuha ko ng atensyon niya nang makaupo ako sa gilid niya.

Nagising siya sa malalim na pag-iisip at nilingon ako. I still tried to smile when I saw him being on serious mode.

At haggang sa mabagal na gumalaw ang sulok ng kanya labi. Ngayon ay nagawa na niya akong ngitian.

"I-I'm sorry mommy," sabi niya.

Natigilan ako sa sinabi niya at hindi nagtagal ay nag-init ang sulok ng aking mga mata. And even him, his nose started to get red.

"I'm sorry for raising my voice at you mommy. I didn't mean that," sabi nito.

"It's okay baby. It's my fault I kept the truth from you. I'm sorry Gelo," sabi ko at inabot ko siya para mayakap.

"I understand mommy," then we hug each other.

I had this feeling that tell me to say thank you to Hiro for enlightening my kid's mind.

After a moment, I thought of going to Hiro and say what I had to say to him.

"Wanna go outside baby? Kanina ka pa nandito sa kwarto mo," sabi ko.

"I already did mommy, when your out with daddy H."

My eyes literally widened when I heard him.

He suddenly smiled. "I saw you walking out of the house mommy," dagdag nito.

Hindi ko alam kung anong sasabihin ko. Baka kung ano na iniisp ng anak ko na hindi naman dapat.

"Uhmm... Sinamahan lang niya ako baby kasi wala si daddy Glade mo kanina,"I explained.

"Mommy why does you sound so defensive?" then he chukled. "I was just telling you that I saw you. Nothing more mommy." he added.

Bumuntong hininga na lamang ako. "Ay ewan ko sa'yo baby," sabi ko at hinila ang kamay niya. "Let's get you out of here. You have to breathe fresh air baby."

"Okay," tatalon-talon itong naglakad.

Nang binuksan ko ang pinto ay siya namang pagkagulat kong muli.

"Ya- or should I call you mommy too?" Gelo said the moment he saw Cheena and Gelo standing infront of his room.

Natigilan silang dalawa at nagkatinginan, hindi nagtagal ay sumilay ang mga ngiti sa labi ni Cheena. "Anything you want G-Gelo," puno ng emosyong tugon niya.

Yumuko siya. "I will call you mommy... but not now yaya, maybe soon," sabi niya na nagpabago sa ekspresyon ng dalawa.

Alam kong masakit iyon para kay Cheena. Not being called mom by your own son, is very painful. It will make your heart broken.

Malungkot siyang ngumiti at tumango. "Naiintindihan ko ana- I mean Gelo."

"Mommy, I wanna see daddy," Gelo suddenly looked up on me to tell those words.

Nahagip ng paningin ko ang konting paghakbang ni Gogi pero agad din umatras.

"My daddy Glade, mom," muling sambit ni Gelo.

"S-sure baby," naiilang na sabi ko.

Gogi cleared his throat. "Hon, can we talk," nilingon niya si Gelo. "Later. Let's talk later when you come back," sabit nito.

"O-okay. Alid na muna kami," naiilang pa rin na sabi ko at bigla akong hinila ni Gelo.

"Make it fast mommy, I missed my dad already," sabi nito at patuloy siya sa paghila sa aking mga kamay.

At dahil nga dito lamang rin sa Samari Subdivision ang location ng restaubar nila Hills, hindi na namin kinailangang tawagin ang driver nila tita.

After 10 minutes of driving, we finally arrived the location.

"Hi miss Honeyleigh," masayang bati ng security guard at nginitian naman namin siya pabalik.

"Hello manong Vic," bati ko pabalik. "Gelo?" pagtawag ko sa anak ko dahilan para batiin niya rin si manong.

"Hi tito V," sabi niya kaya napangiti si manong Vic sa kanya.

"Si sir Glade po ba hinahanap niyo ma'am?" sabi niya pagkatapos ng batian.

Tumango ako. "Oo eh. Miss na daw siya ni Gelo," sabi ko.

"Nasa office po sila ni ma'am Hillary doon po kasi sila nag-meeting kanina," tugon nito.

"Gano'n ba? Sige, puntahan lang namin manong," sabi ko at binigyan siya muli ng ngiti bago nagtungo sa opisina ni Glade.

Napakalawak ng ngiti ni Gelo habang naglalakad kami patungo sa opisina ng daddy niya. Tumatalon-talon pa ito at paulit-ulit na binabanggit ang, "I'm going to see my daddy!"

He's really excited.

Pero hindi pa man kami nakakalapit ng tuluyan sa opisina ni Hills, nakarinig na kami ng sigawan.

"Bakit hindi pwede Glade?!" malakas na sigaw ni Hillary.

"You don't understand at all Hillary, don't you?" Glade talk back.

Ano na naman bang problema? Ang dami nang nangyari kahapon, kanina pati ba naman ngayon? Hindi na ba matatapos ang mga ganitong sitwasyon sa buhay namin?

"Are they arguing mommy?" Gelo asked.

Agad akong umiling. "No, baby," sagot ko at walang pasabing pumasok para hindi na makarinig pa ng kung ano si Gelo.

Nadatnan ko ang mabigat na titigan nila, parehong may galit ang titig nila sa isa't-isa.

"L-love," nanlalaki ang matang sabi ni Glade nang makita ako.

"Daddy are you two fighting?" tanong agad ni Gelo kaya napalingon dito si Glade at napalunok muna.

"No baby. I was just explaining something to you mommy H, because... she seemed to be in a bad mood today, kaya padalos-dalos siya sa mga desisyon niya," sagot niya.

"Mommy H, is there anything wrong?" baling ni Gelo kay Hills.

Napabuntong hininga si Hills at napilitang ngumiti kay Gelo.

"No baby. I'm good," then she chuckled. "Gutom lang siguro," dagdag niya.

"Then let's have a meryenda, with mommy and daddy," masayang sabi niya.

"I'm sorry but-"

"No buts for you mommy H," Gelo cut her off.

Bahagya siyang ngumiti. "Fine, fine, fine. Who am I to resist my baby boy," sabi niya at nagpauna na silang lumabas ng opisina.

"L-love, what made you come here?" tanong niya at nilapitan ako para bigyang ng halik sa noo.

Napabuntong hininga ako. "Well, Gelo missed you at kinulit akong puntahan ka," sabi ko.

He suddenly grinned. "How about you? Did you missed me?"

Napaubo ako bigla. "What? Ilang oras ka lang nawala sa paningin ko Glade. Nababaliw ka na," sabi ko naman at inirapan siya.

Inakbayan niya ako. "Dati na akong baliw, bali-" agad kong tinakpan ang bibig niya.

"Don't you dare say those words! Ang pangit pakinggan," sabi ko at inirapan siya.

He removed my hand from his mouth and smiled at me. "So cute," sabi niya at hinila na ako. "We better go before our son gets furious," tugon niya na sinang-ayunan ko.

Just thinking about my Gelo getting irritated because of waiting, I couldn't stop myself from smiling.

I wish I was his real mom.