LOSTREGO SERIES #2: Twisted Fate

CHAPTER 12

SIENNA

The big event last night made me so damn tired through out this day.

I already heard some knocks on my door but I am too lazy to move an inch on my bed. Even to open my eyes is just severe-test for me.

I know to myself it is kinda late...but Bakasyon naman na ngayon wala na akong pasok, I just wanna sleep all day ng walang umiistorbo sa akin. Is it that hard? I don't think so.

May naririnig na akong mahihinang boses sa labas pero masyadong ukupado ang utak ko sa pagtulog kesa intindihin kung sino yung mga nagdadaldalan sa labas ng pintuan ko.

"Tulog pa ata ang alaga ko hijo, pero ikaw nalang ang gumising." I overhear Manang Sally's voice outside on my room but I don't cope up what she is saying.

While I was still closing my eyes, I had the distinct impression that my door was about to open.

At this rate, my sleepiness consumes me and makes it easy for me to fall asleep even more. But, just as darkness descended on me, I was startled awake by the sound of a familiar voice.

Ramdam ko ding lumubog ang kanang bahagi ng kama ko at isang mainit na haplos ang bumalatay sa malamig kong braso.

I thought at first it was a ghost but then again his scent filled up my nose at doon palang alam ko na agad kung sino yon.

"Mornin' sleepyhead." Lukas baritone deep-voice whispered on my ears that gives me undeniably chills through out my spines and body.

Agad akong napabalikwas ng higa at gulat na napatingin sa direksiyon nya. He is clean aftershaved and well-suited na akala mo may business meeting na pupuntahan at dumaan lang dito sa bahay namin para makapag paalam.

His branded perfume is also attacking to my nostril that currently asking myself where's this man is going to? Bakit to bihis na bihis.

Doon palang tuluyan na akong nagising.

I covered my face immediately so he just know that, I will not entertaining him right now in the state of my look in the morning. Oh gosh! I look like a fluppy 'muffin' with a bird nest on my head. Unlike him who literally look like a frickin' greek-god beside me on my bed.

I heard him chuckled when he sees my shocked reaction on him.

Umiwas din ako sa kanya ng tingin at patakbo ng nagtungo sa loob ng banyo na para bang hindi siya nag eexist sa tabi ko at dali dali ng pumasok doon para makapag hilamos. He is just startled me! Ofcourse I don't know what to do. Hindi pa ako nakakaapag ayos bakit ba 'to nandidito?

Lito man kung bakit, sinimulan ko na ang ritwal ko sa umaga at mas binilisan ko pa iyon para matapos na ako kaagad at mapuntahan siya sa kama ko. I don't know if we are in good terms to be honest tingin ko kase may hidden agenda parin siya sa akin.

I don't fully trust him for now...but maybe it will change in some other time. Patuloy parin kaseng nagpa-flash back sa utak ko yung pangungumbinsi nya sa akin nung mga nakaraang buwan para lang mapapayag nya ako sa kasal na to.

That is why I don't put my hundred percent assurance on him unfortunately.

Matapos ang ilang minutong pananatili ko sa banyo napagdesisyunan ko naring lumabas at harapin si Lukas na ngayon ay nakahiga na sa kama ko habang nakatakip ang kaliwa nyang braso sa ibabaw ng kanyang noo. He was half-asleep when I come out to my bathroom door nagising lang sya ng mapagtantong nakatayo ako sa gilid nya ngayon.

"Sorry, I didn't mean to fall asleep—"

I cut him off and assured him that it was okay. Not a big deal to be honest. Naupo nalang din ako sa kama ko at ganoon din ang ginawa nya.

He somewhat looks devastated na parang ang laki ng problemang kinahaharap nya base sa pinapakiya nyang itsura.

"Is there's something bothering you?" pagtatanong ko habang pinupunasan ang basa kong mukha gamit ang face towel ko.

Tinitigan nya lang ako ng isang beses at pilit na ngumiti. He clenched his jaw on my question and began to trace the flower print bedsheet on my matress with his fingertips.

He coughed twice while still looking down.

"We jut got some small argument with my dad earlier." He said.

Napahawak pa sya sa batok nya bago tuluyang ibinagsak ang kawatan sa sarili kong kama.

Napakunot noo ako sa binigay nyang ekspresiyon sa akin. Anong meron? Why I suddenly feel that he is so being sarcastic?

"Is it serious? May nagawa kang mali?" I asked concernedly.

He groaned on my lament before he decided to grab my waist and pinning me down to my bed. Nagulat ako doon at bahagyang napatili dahil sa biglaan nyang ginawa sa akin.

Napatakip pa ako ng bibig dahil sa biglaan kong sigaw. Mamaya kase puntahan ako ni Manang.

Mabilis nya din akong niyakap at dinantayan ang mabigat nyang binti para hindi na ako makaalis pa.

"L-lukas...what are you—"

He look at me handsomely while I am solving his attitude towards me. Ano bang meron? Why he is being so clingy?

May label ba tayo Lukas? Para umakto ka ng ganyan sa akin.

"I sincerely wanna make this marriage works. But they didn't believe me. Now I am f*****g grounded just because I go to bar last night with my brother. My dad logic was I bedded another women last night and thinking I am cheating on you which is obviously not. " He chuckled on his last sentences. He started giving some shallow kisses on the top of my ear after he said those words.

His breathe and kisses is kinda tickles me off for no reason and it is giving me unwanted feeling that I never experience before.

Nagsitayuan rin ang lahat ng balahibo ko doon at hindi ko alam kung anong dapat na gawin. His deep baritone voice is mixing along with his tempting kisses that makes the s**t out of me feels so f*****g lost.

I cleared my throat once after I realizing what he said. "Y..you go to b-bar last night? But...why are you grounded tho? You are an adult right?" kabado kong tanong.

Wala namang problema sa akin kung nagbabar sya ako din naman ganon ang ginagawa. Noon hindi na ngayon.

Tinanguan nya lang ako pero hindi parin inaalis ang mukha nya sa gilid ng tenga ko. Nararamdaman ko din ang mainit nyang paghinga sa aking pisngi na siyang mas nagpapahina sakin ng husto.

"I just go to bar to help my brother to find the woman he want to save I guess? And when he find it...Iniwan na nila ako. But I swear I never beded another woman on that club umuwi din ako kaagad. I will never tried cheating on you Sienna I just can't." pagpapaliwanag nya.

Tinaasan ko lang siya ng kilay at nangingiti na sa ginagawa nyang pagtatanggol sa sarili nya. Wala naman akong sinasabi Lukas...why so defensive?

"And...then? That is the reason why you grounded?" sabi ko nilalaro na ang daliri nya na kumikiliti sa tyan ko.

Sinuksok nya na ang ulo nya sa pagitan ng balikat ko at mas niyakap pa ako bago siya tumango. I got squished immediately dahil sa liit ko ba namang to yayakapin ako ng isang 6 foot taller na kagaya ni Lukas sa tabi ng kama ko. My bed is literally look so small on him which is hindi naman kapag ako ang natutulog.

"They will not allow me to leave the house kung hindi lang din naman ikaw pupuntahan ko," He laughed. "But it is okay I wanna see you everyday...I simply need your assistance this time; I have an important person to meet right now, but my father's bodyguards are following me wherever I f*****g go. If they see me changing my routes, they will pursue me at all costs. That is why I need your help, so they will gone to my eyesight and leave me alone."

Hindi ko alam kung anong mararamdaman ko knowing na ginagawa nya lang akong dahilan para may mapuntahan siyang iba habang kasama ako. Saan ba siya pupunta sa babae nya? Tss...he said he will never cheated on me so ano to?

Inaatake na naman ako ng mga kung ano anong masasamang scenario sa utak ko.

Mapait na ako ngayong nag iwas sa kanya ng tingin at pilit tinatanggal ang pagkakakunyapit nya sa akin. Akala ko hahayan nya akong makawala sa bisig nya but he never let that to happen.

"Where are you going then? Kay Loren?" mahina kong banggit sa mapait na boses.

Natawa siya doon.

Tinuko nya na ang isa nyang braso sa kama habang tinitigan nya ako ng may mapang asar nangiti sa labi. Bakit? That was my hunch...may mali ba don. So tama nga? See...he acting like that.

"To whom? Why her name bring this up? Why would I wanna meet Loren anyway? I don't have any business to her, Sienna. Were just close-friend that's all." He said in a teasing voice.

And he think I will buy his reasons? No! Ofcourse.

Umirap ako sa kanya pero tinawanan nya lang ako. Kaya mas lalo akong naiinis. Malay ko ba! Alam ko ba iyon? At tsaka nung nasa bar naman talaga kami halos may mangyari na sa kanilang dalawa ganon ba ang magkaibigan? Ginagawa ba iyon ng magkaibigan? I bet not. Ayaw nya pang sabihin pero baka naging fling nya narin iyon.

A f**k buddy maybe. Sino ba naman kaseng makaka resist sa kanya syempre wala.

Nasasaktan ko na siya sa ginagawa kong pagpupumiglas pero hindi nya parin ako magawang bitawan.

"Bitawan mo nga ako...I am hungry bababa na ako." reklamo ko sa kanya.

I tried to escape on him again pero literal siyang mas malakas sa akin kaya halos wala akong magawa. Namumula na ako sa inis dahil hindi nya na lang ako hayaan. Patuloy parin siya sa mahigpit nyang pagkakayakap kaya hindi ako makagalaw.

"Lukas ano ba! I said let me go. Sisigaw ako—" I didn't finish my words because he suddenly rolled over on top of me while pinning my both hands on my matress.

I couldn't think straight lalo pa ng umamba siyang ilalapit nya ang mukha nya sa akin. My body suddenly react and I just closed my eyes and waited his lips to landed on mine...

Pigil ko rin ang hininga ko habang pinapakiramdaman ang sobrang lakas ng kabog ng dibdib ko ngayon ngayon lang.

I thought he was gonna kiss me but I ended up dissapointing myself dahil wala namang nangyari.

"Breathe baby." He whispered to my ears that actually got my senses back to the reality.

He chuckled.

Dumilat na ako ng mata at hiyang hiya na naghahabol ng hininga dahil sa sinabi nya.

Damn him! Akala ko...

"I have a very important appointment to Mr. Gaizler as of now and I want to cut my contract to him as a member of his team. I know I will abandoned a lot of sponsors on this decision but I will no longer join any tournament for now on. I decided to retired so I can focus on this marriage life soon." He explain, while playing my hair.

Hindi ko parin mai-compose ang sarili ko kaya nag iwas nalang ako ng tingin sa kanya habang hiyang hiya na sa kanya.

He has reason! I judge him quickly. That was so f*****g embarassing. God Sienna.

"O-okay...uhm, If you say so then...that's good. Ahm...anyway I want to go downstaire. Kakain muna ako ng breakfast then I will accompany you after."

He sighed a deep breathe and nod to what I say. Niluwagan nya narin ang pagkakahawak sa braso ko at umalis narin siya sa ibabaw ko.

It was an awkward scenario between us two. Lalo pa ng pareho kaming nag iwas ng tingin dahil sa mga pinaggagawa namin.

"Uhm...just wait me here. Aakyat din naman ako agad. Feel at home." dagdag ko bago ako tuluyang lumabas.

Hindi ko na hinintay ang responses nya dahil sobra na akong nilalamon ng kahihiyan. Damn it! That was so closed!

Akala ko mag iiniate siya ng halik buti hindi dahil kung nagkataon na nangyari iyon. Hindi ko alam kung kaya ko pa bang pigilan ang sarili ko.

Pagbaba ko naabutan ko si kuya na nasa dinning habang nagkakape at abala sa kanyang laptop ngayon.

"Good morning." I greet him, but it turns out that I am like the wind to him, who he didn't see.

"Morning kuya!" pag uulit ko bago ako umupo sa tabi nya.

He look at me once but he just give me a big sighed.

Sungit.

"Manang, bread toast nalang po sakin." I requested.

Agad naman akong pinagsilbihan ni Manang Sally kaya sinimulan ko narin ang pagkain. May pupuntahan parin kase si Lukas kaya ayoko naman magpaka V.I.P at magtagal pa dito sa dinning.

I was in the middle of putting some spread on my bread when he suddenly started talking to me.

"I heard Lukas is here." biglang sabi nya.

Tumango ako doon because he's right. Nandito nga. Ano ngayon? I know they are not okay. I am aware of that.

"He's in my room.Why?" tanong ko bago kagatin ang breadtoast ko.

Tinigil saglit ni Kuya ang pagtitipa nya sa laptop nya at binalingan ako. Ganun na lang din tuloy ang ginawa ko sa kanya dahil ang tagal nya akong tinitingnan. He somewhat look problematic and I don't know why.

We both just like in a staring contest dahil walang gustong pumikit sa aming dalawa.

He's a bit weird now to be honest. I don't get him.

"Did you two do it?" biglaan nyang tanong.

I got confused on his question? Do what? Like? Huh?

"Did what?" sagot ko.

Inayos nya lang ang pag upo nya at binalik ang ginagawang pagtitipa sa laptop nya.

"Do you guys have s*x already?"

I almost choked in my food after hearing what my kuya asked! A what? At bakit nya naman tinatanong yon? It was...private.

After he saw my suffering. Agad nya akong inabutan ng tubig at halos tanggalan na ako ng likod dahil sa lakas nyang pumalo. Siraulo ba to?

"E..enough. Kuya." I coughed with pain after I recovered.

Naiiling lang siya sa akin at bumalik na din naman agad sa pwesto nya. Habang ako hindi parin maka get over sa pinagsasabi nya ngayon ngayon lang.

"Are you nuts kuya? Ano naman kung ginawa na namin yon o hindi? Labas ka na don and excuse me that was too private to tell gosh! And ofcourse it still a no! Ano akala mo sa akin easy to get." pagtatanggol ko sa sarili ko.

What his problem? He's way too weird.

Medyo nakahinga siya ng maluwag doon pero patuloy parin siya sa pangpepeste sa akin habang kumakain ako dito.

"Then good...you should not do it not until you get your depo-shot on your OB. And since, your in legal age now your fine to have it. I make some appointment to Dra, Angeles later after lunch. Puntahan mo nalang here's the address of her clinic pasama ka nalang din kay Lukas. He get it what I mean." He said it just like it is not a big deal.

Bigla akong nawalan ng gana kumain at lulan na gulantang nalang sa mga pinagsasabi ng kapatid ko. Is mom know about this? Why he suddenly making decision without even telling me.

That was disrespectful. This is my own body ako dapat ang nagdedesisyon patungkol doon. How dare him?

Let say he is just concern...but dude that was crossing the line. I don't like it.

Padabog akong tumayo sa dinning table namin without saying any single words to my brother. I just snap out. Wala na akong pake, nawala na ako sa mood. Thanks to him actually. Bwisit.

I hurriedly running towards our staircase para makarating na agad sa kwarto ko at doon magdabog sa sobrang sama ng loob. Why do I feel that this household is still controling me even after I turn my legal age. That was so f**k up! Gusto ko nalang talagang mag asawa at makawala na sa impyernong bahay na to. I don't have freedom at all. That was so f*****g upsetting to imagined.

I was literally breathing heavily. Nagulat ko pa ata si Lukas dahil sa sobrang lakas ng pagkakasarado ko ng pintuan ng makapasok ako sa kwarto ko. Naabutan ko siyang nag pupulot ng ilang mga kalat at nilalagay iyon sa maliit na basurahan ko sa tabi.

I am so f*****g annoyed that even him nasasamaan ko ng tingin dahil sa sinabi sakin ni kuya. Parang gusto ko nalang sumigaw.

"You okay?" he asked bago nya ilapag ang mga basurang hawak nya at nilapitan ako.

I know to myself na any minute from now iiyak na ako. I can't control my emotions right now. Ang daming tumatakbo sa isip ko ngayon.

Lukas is looking at me worriedly while I am starting bursting a silent-cry infront of him. Naiiyak ako kase galit ako sobra...you know that feeling? Masakit sa dibdib.

"Hey...hey, what hapenned?" He asked again while helping me to dry my tears.

I just look away iniiwas ang sarili sa kanya I was breathing heavily to think. I don't know what to do. Ayoko na talaga.

We don't say anything for about a minute. He waited me to calm down before I made up my mind.

I look at him sincerely.

"L-lukas...can I lived with you? I mean, magsama na tayo sa isang bahay ganon? Please...I don't feel safe here...I just can't." I sob, nagpaaawa na ng lubos sa kanya para tanggapin nya ang alok ko.

He look so shocked on what I say. But this is the only reason I've ever think of. Gusto ko na talagang bumukod ayoko na dito.

"I..if you worried about some bills tutulong din ako sa pagbayad...may pera naman ako ilayo mo lang ako dito—"

"Jesus, no...I mean. I can handle the bills Sienna don't worry about that. I just don't get it why are you so eagerly to live in with me? Why? May problema ba?"

Yes! Malaking problema. But I don't want to talk about it for now.

I hold her arms and bow my head dahil hindi ko talaga alam kung anong sasabihin. Can he just accept me?

"A-ayaw mo ba?" I asked trembling.

Umiling siya don but he look so confused.

"Ofcourse I want it...but did your parents know your plan?"

Umiling din ako doon. I don't think they agreed with this. Si kuya nga halos gawin na ang lahat sila mom pa kaya.

"Then no...Sienna. Your parents needs to know it first before I moved you to our house...I mean at my place."

I have a guess that he already buy a house for us. But I don't want to be sure.

"Then...help me to pursue my parents Lukas. Siguro pag ikaw ang nagsabi pumayag sila. Ayoko na talaga dito." pangungulit ko.

Napakamot sya sa batok nya ng ilang ulit tila nag iisip.

I waited for his response bago nya sya tuluyang tumango.

"Okay...I try but don't make your hope's up. Where's your parents anyway?"

Halos magliwanag ang mata ko ng pumayag sya sa gusto kong mangyari at halos magtatalon na ako sa sobrang tuwa. Finally! Kulang nalang kaladkarin ko siya ng mabilis para lang makausap nya sila mom.

I'm just hoping for the best. I'm serious; I want to get out of this house.

Doon nalang ako kay Lukas.