Her Memoire

Chapter 5

VIVIAN

First day of school is suck. Wala akong ibang narinig kung hindi ang tsismisan ng mga estudyante about  me and Lara.

And guess what? Laging bida si Lara. f**k! It's so annoying. Mapapasana-all ka nalang talaga. Sana all hindi anak sa labas.

Second day palang ngayon and hindi ako sumabay kay Lara sa kotse. I just made an alibi na may dadaanan pa ako kahit wala naman. I just don't want to see her face.

So now, I'm on my way to school. I just walk. Malapit lang naman e. Besides, it will serves as my exercise na din because this past few days, hindi na ako nakakapagwork-out.

Nakakapagod pala maglakad. Gosh! And one more thing, someone is following me. It's not that I'm assuming but I'm sure that he is. How did I know na lalaki siya?

He is in jeans and a white plain shirt. Plus, his black converse shoes. Kilala ko ang pormahang 'to. I guess I know him. What the f**k is he doing here?

"Stop following me", nilingon ko siya bigla na siyang ikinagulat niya. "What the f**k are you doing here John Viel Zevidroz?", I narrowed my eyebrows as I asked the question.

Mukhang nakabawi na siya mula sa pagkakagulat dahil nakuha na niyang ngumiti na labas ang mapuputi, kumpleto at maganda niyang ngipin.

"I am here to pursue you. Again," he said it with confidence. Like duh. He is not that attractive. I admit that he is handsome and rich but whatever!

He is half-Canadian and half-Filipino. He is also courting me since we were in Grade 7 but I just play around. He is one of my flings. Nothing more, nothing less. Just fling. It's not that he's not my type but you know, he is too good to be true that makes me scared.

"Yeah right!", he is also annoying just like Lara. Magsama sila. Bagay naman sila e.

I continue to walk and he did not follow me anymore. I guess.

***

My classmates are so noisy. They are now electing officers. Like the hell, I care! I get my phone and earphone from my bag. I turn some upbeat music on and ignore everything.

I am humming my favorite song, IDGAF by Dua Lipa. I really love this song.

You call me all friendly

Tellin' me how much you miss me

That's funny, I guess you've heard my songs

Well, I'm too busy for your business

Go find a girl who wants to listen

'Cause if you think I was born yesterday

You have got me wrong

Hindi dahil sa nakakarelate ako dito kaya gusto ko 'to. I just love the beat and the vibe of the song. I continue to bang my head slowly like I was following the beat of the song.

So I cut you off

I don't need your love

'Cause I already cried enough

I've been done

I've been movin' on since we said goodbye

I cut you off

I don't need your love, so you can try all you want

Your time is up, I'll tell you why

Love really sucks. It will just cause pain in the end. It makes you look like a loser.

You say you're sorry

But it's too late now

So save it, get gone, shut up

'Cause if you think I care about you now

Well, boy, I don't give a fuck

Feeling ko din may sasabihan ako ng I don't give a f**k 'pag nainlove ako tas niloko lang ako. Just assuming. Wala akong planong mainlove. Never. In my wildest dream. Duh.

Someone's poking me. Its Lara. Anong kailangan niya? Paepal talaga 'to.

"What?" nakakairita siya. Kitang busy ako makinig ng music e. Wala ba sa vovabulary niya ang salitang privacy? 

"You want to be an officer?" nakangiti pang tanong niya.

"No thanks", sagot ko sa kanya sabay balik ng earphone sa tenga ko. Salamat naman at nanahimik na siya.

Well, that's what I thought.

Nagulat ako ng bigla niyang itinaas ang kanan niyang kamay at tumayo. Tinanggal ko agad ang earphone ko para marinig ang sasabihin niya.

"I respectfully nominate Viena Vianna as our muse", proud na proud niyang sabi. Nakakainis siya.

Pabibo.

Agad ding nagtaas ng kamay si Sophie, isang b***h na hate na hate ako.

"I respectfully nominate Lavienna Rachelle as our muse", nakangising niyang sabi habang nakatingin sakin. b***h.

Hinawakan ni Lara ang kamay ko na para bang sinasabi niyang hindi niya alam na inonominate siya ni Sophie. The hell i care!

"Who is in favor with Lara?"tanong ni Josh, ang class president namin.

Lahat ng kaklase namin nagsitaasan ng kamay. Edi wow! I hate her so much.

"So, obviously Lara won. Lara is our muse." pag-aanounce ni Josh sa buong klase.

Sinadya 'to ni Lara para mapahiya ako sa lahat. I hate her. So much.

***

I immediately go out when our teacher dismissed us. I don't wanna see Lara's face. I always win. I am prettier than her. Lemme scratch that. I am gorgeous.

"Hey wait! Vivian antayin mo ko." I heard Lara's calling me while running."Hindi kita nakasabay kanina sa pagpasok kaya sabay na tayong umuwi", nakangiti niyang sabi nang maabutan niya ako.

"Yeah whatever", I said as I crossed my arms and continue to walk papuntang parking lot.

"Galit ka ba? Sorry ha? Hindi ko naman kase alam na inonominate ako ni Sophie", she apologized and cling her right hand to my arm.

I didn't respond and continue to walk while rolling my eyes. Annoying.

Nasa gate palang kami, I saw someone who is familiar to me. It's him again. When will he stop bothering me?

I removed Lara's hand on my arm and walk towards him, leaving Lara behind me.

"What do you what?", I am now in front of him. I saw his angelic eyes.

"Who is it Vivian?", tanong ni Lara. Hindi ko napansin na naabutan niya na pala ako.

"Nothing important", sagot ko sa kanya sabay lingon. And guess what?

Nakatulala si Lara kay John Viel. At ganun din si John Viel kay Lara. Wow. Staring game! Nice.

I made a sound from snapping my finger to catch their attention and I successfully did it.

"So? Tapos na ba kayo magtitigan?", kala mo talaga wala nang bukas kung magtitigan e.

"Hi. I'm John Viel Zevidroz but you can call me JV. Vivian's friend", nakangiting pagpapakilala niya kay Lara. Aba! Hindi man lang pinansin ang tanong ko at nagkamayan pa ang dalawa.

Wait what? Friend? He's not my friend, as far as I know, he is my suitor. As far as I remember, he always introduces himself as my suitor. Bakit ngayon hindi? Dahil kay Lara? Tsk.

"I'm Lara, Lavienna Rachelle. Vivian's sister", ang lapad ng ngiti natin sis ah.