In her life she had sworn never to waste her life falling in love. She had grown up witnessing couples break up and heartbreaking each other's heart. She hated the process of meeting someone, falling in love with them then just when its cloud nine, fall apart. she knew if she would ever fall, it would be in her old age, and never let go. So she decided to wait! Little did she know it would not last long. Her crushing day had neared and she was not ready. That morning she didn't wear any make up because to her it was just another day. dressed in her normal work wear, she rushed out, hair unkept with nothing but hopes for a good day. she couldn't even spare a second for her mother's cup of tea for the last thing she needed was a bad day with the boss. Fortunately, she was first to reach work and the boss was late. Anyone that comes in late plays silent and busy, its basic science! The boss kept on acting supportive and humble and this encouraged her to add a positive aura to her workplace. The day was breaking well. She couldn't place time or moment he walked in because she was busy attending to the others, but the moment she saw him, she smiled. He smiled back and he must have thought that it was customer relations that she was serving. Deep down she felt excited and eager with every stare and every inch he neared her. Pleasantries were exchanged, stomachs filled with butterflies, but deep down she knew he would be gone like any other customer. This made her sad. She knew he was the most handsome man she had ever set her eyes on, dark skin, deep dimples, white teeth, tall and heavy, just as she had fantasized in her dreamy moments. He carried himself with pride, one that she didn't know would be the end of them. He was manipulative with his purchase, controlling but with a charm. This rubbed well with her eager wildness that she had hid so well her entire teenage. She could feel the cat in her yearn for his masculinity, one he concealed so well with authority and ignorance. He must have sensed her prowess from afar and too would just ignore her to lure out her beast. Her whole life she didn't know love, pain and lust. She believed it was a waste of time and opportunities by her agemates, who were already loving or breaking up the fifth time . She wanted to wait. She had boys her age profess love and emotions towards her though it didn't move or stir her a little. She didn't want it. No she didn't feel it back, she came to realize. All this time she didn't feel it. All the while she knew it would be levelage to want it, and it would be worthless. It's not that she didn't try, she did. All she did in it was wait for the day she would fault and put a stop to it. It wasn't exciting, it wasn't mutual. On this day it was different! She wanted everything about him. The way he talked, the way he smiled, his laughter. The way he ignored her prowess yet acknowledged her presence, she. wanted all of that. Did he too? She wondered. Her fears were calmed when he left some work behind, with commands of how to be handled. That whole evening his face kept flashing her thoughts. She would see his smile in her thoughts and smile back like a toddler, to the ghost of him. If only she knew this would be the norm for her whole life, she would never have entertained these thoughts. That whole night she didn't sleep. He was everywhere in her thoughts, flashing back and forth all the memories of things and word he spoke or did. Was she cheeky or was she falling? She didn't care. Finally she had met those movie hunks that you catch a bullet for and she was ready. He would come back he had said and she kept wondering if it was a date he concealingly gave. He wanted it to be their date. He wanted it to be real because with. him she would forever be ready. He had not left any contacts behind and gratefully, she assured herself it was for the best for she couldn't hold down her itchy fingers. This one she was sure she would call him every. night and morning. This one she would do all those things her friends in high school did with every boy while she had stayed busy acting nun. The following days he did not come. It killed her every nerve turning her numb and deaf to any dates and interest thrown her way. She craved him, yearned to just hear him order her around, exchange smiles and watch his chuckles. She dressed each day with her best catchy styles that said "I look good for you" . But he never showed up. She undid her hair, shaved the unwanted ones like he would know if any was different. She polished up every hour, for who knows the time, atleast she knew the place. She was now. giving up. Whenever her phone rung she would get jumpy yet she knew he didn't have her number. But what if? What if he felt the same? What if it is mutual? What if he couldn't resist her either? And what if he didn't even remember her? This consoled her. She started composing herself back to normal self.All her high temperature blood lowered back. Then