A mistake made by a man i never knew hunts me for a long time now , with no identity given to my sperm donor as my mother will call it she decides to pour it all out on me . And at times i wonder why she kept me after she was raped by my sperm donor, why not take pills? Or after she conceived me , why didn't she just abort me like most people would have . But noo , she kept me even when she knew she already had the perfect family , the one she loves , she kept me when she knew there was no place of love for me in her heart .I keep asking myself why ? Why ?I guess just so she could punish me for a mistake i know nothing about , so she could punish me for ever existing.My quest for love leads me to another monster , my husband jake Alexander , he came to me with so much love to offer , but once again it was proven to me that i didn't deserve love , how could there be enough love to spare for a mistake like me .And there came him the one who's promising me the whole world , offering his heart to me , giving me wings to fly and veiw the world freely , not from an angle where i secretly pursue my dreams of being a singer , a masked singer . the angle he offers i could take off that mask , that mask of birdie the masked singer and then becomes allison the talented singer .What an irony how do i accept the hand he has stretched out when somewhere deep down i know that I don't deserve it , I can't get it , cause im nothing but a mistake , who ought to remain masked forever .