Story By C.A. Kerst
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C.A. Kerst

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This is the dream... Being an author. I\'m gay, and even if I don\'t want to admit my age, (because I feel older than what I am, and I will forget to change this bio for the next 5 years and will stay the same age on here) I will say that it really is me in my profile photo and you would probably not care about my insecurities and tell me I\'m still really young. I\'m emo as fuck in many ways, and I cried really hard when MCR broke up. At the moment however I am obsessed with P!nk\'s new album and the song "Walk Me Home". I\'m tall, I care too much, and I am just fucktup enough to write tragedy without fucking myself up emotionally too much more than I already have. I write mainly boyxboy stories. It\'s where my greatest love lies at the moment, and let\'s be honest... Who better to write some proper gay feelings than a gay guy who went through all this shit already? Most of what I write is based on stuff I have gone through in my life. Love to make new friends and chat with people from all over the world since writing can become a bit lonely at times. WORKS: THE SILENCE SERIES: - Listen Before You Speak - (completed) Genre: Teen Fiction - Many Words In Silence - (completed) Genre: Teen Fiction *sequel to Listen Before You Speak STANDING BEHIND SERIES: - Behind Drawn Curtains - (completed) Genre: YA Fiction *Mature content - Behind The Mask - (coming soon but already available on Wattpad)
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Out in the Wind
Updated at Mar 30, 2020, 15:00
When Cory's father suddenly dies his entire perfect world is torn apart. Gone is the loving mother, doting sister, lovely house, and the huge allowance. In stead Cory needs to deal with the bank auctioning off the home he gave his first steps in, a illness that befalls his little sister, and the depression that's eating his mother alive. Just as it can't get any worse, Patrick with the golden-brown eyes, the infectious laugh, and the rich life finally shows interest in Cory. The thing that Cory believed would have made his once almost-perfect world completely perfect now becomes his biggest fear as he tries to keep his new life a secret. With juggling his depression, suicidal thoughts, and self-harm; Cory just doesn't know if the boy with the infectious laugh has a place in his life anymore. "Out in the Wind" is not just the story of a teen who is forced to grow up sooner than any kid should. It is also a real story that happens to lots of people around the world on the daily. This is a story full of tears, sadness, hope, loss, faith, and love. Note: This story contains affection between two male characters. If that in any way offends you, please refrain from reading. This story may also have triggers for depression, self-harm, and suicide.
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Behind Drawn Curtains
Updated at Jun 16, 2019, 15:00
For most of his life E.J tries to hide behind drawn curtains, to afraid that the world will find out about his abnormal situation. The one where he needs to please his stepfather sexually every night behind the same drawn curtains. When E.J meets Christopher he wishes that he could be whole for him and be in his arms as a pure boy again, be he know that is impossible. Add in E.J's stepfather becoming jealous of Christopher and E.J feeling he will never be good enough to be in a relationship and E.J needs to choose between killing his stepfather to be with Christopher or committing suicide to get out of this situation once and for all. WARNING: This story may contain adult themes or sexual abuse. Do not read if this affects you in any way. This story however is based on things that do happen in real life. If you are being sexually abused, please talk about it and tell someone that can help you. This story has a rating of 18. If you are not 18 please refrain from reading since this story contains scenes of sexual nature as well as strong language.
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Many Words In Silence
Updated at May 21, 2019, 07:06
# Sequel to "Listen Before You Speak" - the story of Elijah and Blake *Second book in the Silence Series Elijah is no ordinary boy. Never has been, and he is probably sure that he never will be the normal boy everybody wants him to be. How can you be ordinary and normal after your first love dies? After your father was the one responsible? How do you cope when your English teacher is the one who gives you a new home? Blend in a crazy friend and the fact that Elijah who learned how to speak one word of a time thanks to Blake has gone completely mute again. Will he ever be resurrected from the pain that is threatening to overwhelm him to the point where he will cut his own wrists? Is there any way someone could save him this time? Is there really that many words that can be spoken in silence? Can you truly be put back together when you are more than broken and half the pieces are lost forever?
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Listen Before You Speak
Updated at Jan 15, 2019, 05:00
*First Book in the Silence Series Elijah is no ordinary boy. In fact, he is as different from what a normal boy could possibly be. The golden rule in is life has always been "listen before you speak", but what happens when he meets a boy? Will he still be able to just listen? Even when the boy urges him to speak all the unspoken words he has tried so hard to silence for so many years? When Blake walks into Elijah's silent world, the sound starts forming around Elijah's mouth; and he speaks for the first time in four years. Will Blake still love Elijah after hearing everything that Elijah has listened to but never spoke about all those years, or will he get the hell out of dodge as his instincts scream? This story is PG13, since it may have strong language. This story may contain self-harm issues, abuse, and other traumatic scenes. Please be advised that the main character is homosexual, and therefore there will be romantic actions between same sex characters. If that makes you uncomfortable in any way, please refrain from reading.
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