All of my life.... “Her parents didn't visit her this month again?” “Why we should care? as long as they keep giving money, then that won't matter anymore.” ... Stuck inside of a white room, surrounded by machine that's is the only thing that's keeping me alive. "Belle, can put down your books first? It's time for your injection." the only one who's good at me is Lisa, my nurse, but I bet she keep up this for whole 8 years is just because she was paid a big amount to keep an eye to me. "Yes." I put down the thick book beside me as Lisa help me raised my body from the bed, she let my back rest at the backrest of the bed before she turn around and get the syringe. I force a smile when Lisa turn around smiling at me. _It feels like my skin are getting use to these injections, that I don't feel nervous at all unlike the first time_ “Your birthday is coming already, what do you want as a gift?” Lisa ask as she plunge the syringe into my skin, my eyes twitch for a second. Her lips parted at what she said before she pressed it together and smile at her. "That's holiday, you already spent your holiday with me last year, so you can join your family this time." i stated with a reassuring tone. Lisa seems to be taken by what I said, that she pause for a second before flashing a smile. It's impossible if I wouldn't notice what she really wants, even a child could say that Lisa also want to spend her time with her family than staying here with me. "Don't be silly, I prefer staying he—” I cut her from talking, "Instead, can you buy me the last part of the book I've been reading?" I ask holding her wrist. "If you'd buy me that, I'd take that as your gift for my birthday." I've been cope up in this room for almost a decade already, it would be idiotic If I can still have a normal birthday celebration, it's useless anyways. It was just a miracle that I'm still alive up until now, thanks to my family's money. After some chek up's Lisa leave saying that she'll return before dinner, I just nodded and let her leave. I glance at the scenery outside, the sun was already setting yet small white flakes started to drop from the sky. I hardly stood up from bed as I approach the window. "Snow..." I muttered. From outside, I saw a kid running in the field and her mom running behind her. They look so happy, I mean who wouldn't? Seeing their children run in the snow with that smile, ofc they would be happy. A pang of pain penetrate my body again as I clench my chest with my hand. This always happens before but this time the injection that Lisa gave me cannot relieved the pain anymore. I calm myself down as I sit back at my bed and breath slowly, even breathing hurts me that I started clenching my bedsheet. I close my eyes before I stood up again to get the book I putted at the side table, a book that I've been reading for almost a year now. At that night, I drawn myself continuing reading that book until I reach the last page, I close it as I still have to ask Lisa to get me the epilogue of this book. _I wonder, how will it ends..._ For 8 years all I've left to do is to read and read and read a lot of books to pass my time, everytime my family came they always bring me five to six books everytime that I ask my brother to also buy me a bookshelf to organize my books, yet just the past 3 years none of my family visit me, it's rarely to see them and I was cope up by the book that Lisa gave me which is this. I wonder if sister already graduated to college? I wonder if brother is still doing great with his girlfriend, I wonder if my stepmom and father is doing fine, I wonder if they still remember me. My mind was laden by thoughts that I didn't realize what time is it, I puultted down the thick book by my side as I lay down. Lisa would be mad if she'll see me still awak— I cut off my thoughts when I see the door to my room left a little open, and then shadows of people pass through it and Im sure one of those are Lisa's. "Mercy killing?!" that's Lisa's voice, she sounds mad or something. "Lisa, you shouldn't react like that in front of the mayor, we tend to be professional how could you of all people lost your temper?" It seems like Lisa is arguing with her senior again, I mean I always hear them arguing but I wonder what is it now this time. "But... Belle is still alive!" My eyes widen when my name was heard. Is it about me why they're arguing this time? "It's her family's decision, we were only keeping an eye to her, I knew you know how's Belle's condition was now, you also know that she must feel pain everytime, Belle is going tired already... " "Of all people, how can they ask to get a mercy killing for Belle, she's their family! A family that Belle still wish to see... " _Stop... Please stop already..._ "That is what they ask for! 10 years must be already too long for them to hope that she's going to heal! " "Belle is trying to live, she's... she's... ” “Enough Lisa, we will do our job because

Everyone gets excited when “summer” was talked.Of course who wouldn't be? It's the season that everyone awaits. “Gosh! It's so hot, were should we grab cold drinks? ”“I know a near store here, the barista there was quiet the beauty.”“Really? We should go then.”Each of everyone will start having fun, such as families going to beach together, students having fun, stalls with different new to date drinks and foods, and also...“P-please, please go out with me!! ”Romance.“Im sorry but I have things to do, thank you for this gifts.”Ah not to mention, not everyone can get the romance they want.“What a pity.” I muttered.But not in my case because I....KRRIINGGGG!!! KRINNGGG—_'ah! he finally call.'_I stood up and get out of the restaurant I've been sitting around to pass time and answer the call.[ Yiyi, where are you? ]Just hearing his voice made my day more complete again, I wonder where he is now, I can't wait to see him.“Im near the restaurant I've text you in Kakao talk, are you coming already?” I ask with a smile in my lips.[ About that... ] I momentarily stop when I heard his hesitating voice.“What? Is something matter?”[ Actually, I have to run a errand and I might finish this late afternoon so.... ]“Is that so? Then let's reschedule our date?”[ W-what? ]“8pm? Sounds good right? I'll wait for you until then.”[ Ah, also th- ]BEEP! BEEP!I immediately ended the call without hearing what he would say next, I knew clearly were would our conversation go through.“He should at least remind me earlier.” Despite of his excuse Im still disappointed to the thought that we won't be seeing again this time. I think this would be the fourth time we rescheduled our date because he always sudden errands to run to.I continue walking with a lousy body, I can't help wiping the sweat in my forehead for the reason that it's so freaking hot.Maybe I should at least buy something before goin—“That bitch, when will she quit bothering me!!” that voice.I immediately hide at the nearest post pole and eavesdrop at the two people inside a cafe shop. Does the hot weather make me hallucinate now? But that's too far impossible.“Your planning to break up with her right? when are you supposed to do that? ” I secretly lean my head to double check my assumption, and Im sure it was Minu, he said a while ago he has a errand to run, so what is he doing inside the cafe with...He stretch his hand and reach for that girl's cheek.“Today, I'll make sure to break up with her and be with you legally. ”“You're not joking right? Thank you very much!! ”My whole body tremble after seeing both of them kissing in front of me.Damn it! It's too hot that my eyes are starting to be teary. I hope everything I just saw is just because of the effect of the hot weather, I hope that was the case.“Y-yeiji?” without realizing it, Minu called for my name.Both of them look outside at my direction with their eyes wide open as if they've saw a ghost.“Yeiji wait for me!!” I immediately wipe my tears and run before Minu could even go out and go after me.My ankle hurt so bad yet that is not enough reason for me to stop crying, I don't care if Im wearing heels while crying, nor look stupid while crying, my ankle hurts but my chest hurt more than my stupid ankle.“YEIJI STOP!! LET'S TALK!!”Fucking bastard! Talk my eyes, I know you're going to lie anyway right? Everything from the start was a lie and you made me believe in those all this time. I should at least see the sign earlier, but I take a blind eye because I believe in his words. Im so stupid, if I stop now and turn around to talk to him, he would probably laugh at my situation.“YEIJI!! YEIJI THAT ARE—”What now? Can you just stop shouting my name with that filthy mouth of...BREAK!!A crack sound echoed in my ears as I feel my legs lost its balance. The tip of my heels broke while I was running and Im, Im falling...“Yeiji!!” a familiar hand save me from falling, but after seeing that it's Minu I immediately draw my hand away from him that cause me to lost balance again and wobble while backing away.This bastard, how could he even dare to—BBBEEEPPPPPPPP!!!!!I was to preoccupied of the anger I felt for Minu that I only managed to hear that loud beep before something big hit my whole body and send it flying.Im sure of it, my head hit at the sturdy street yet Im near my inconsciousness that my body went numb that I can't feel anything anymore. My vision were filled by crimson red blood that I see the sky as red as well.Fuck this life, it seems like I'd die in this way. Die after receiving a heartbreak, I need to take back the words I've said a while ago.Summer is not that Romantic at all.