My love, devotion and dedication to him for 8 years, was trampled under his feet by 'Divorce'. The satisfactory glances from his family at the whole ordeal is a mockery of my selfless love and care for them for years. But nothing matters now. His uninterested look, his so-called friend's cunning smirk, and his family's happy chatter don't affect me at this juncture. Standing at this crossroads of my life, I don't know where to go from here and what to do. I am feeling numb to this situation. Do I need to go back to that house again? To be a burden, an unlovable person again? Is my life and sincere feelings so easy to step on and be at the mercy of others? Why do I need to beg for just a little bit of love, care and respect from everyone, to be disappointed every time? Do I deserve to be treated this way by them, while they demand my selfless and unconditional sincerity without any reciprocation? After all these years, now when I look back at my previous naive and pathetic self, I feel I deserved that then. All of that shaped me into what I am today. I do not regret being ME, neither then nor now.