Lost.
I woke with a start, my heart beating out of my chest. I couldn't shake the fogginess from my pounding head. What the hell happened to me? I slowly looked around at my surroundings and was even more confused.
How did I end up in the middle of a forest? What the hell? I can't remember anything. Omg what is my name!! Who am I? What happened? How did I get here? I tried to move, and my body hurt like I was hit by 10 Mac trucks.
My head hurt, and my vision blurred. I couldn't even think about trying to stand up. The pain was horrible. My vision was spinning. I tried to lean against the tree I was near, and I lost the fight as I fell into darkness. When I woke up again, it looked like the sun was setting. I needed to find some shelter of some sort before I couldn't see anymore as I tried to move my body to stand up.
I noticed the pain wasn't as bad as it was, but it was still very noticeable there as I slowly got to my knees and held the tree for support. As I began to stand, my legs were shaky, and I didn't think I could get my body to work. It hurt so badly that I wanted to curl up and sleep, but I told myself to get to shelter and I could sleep, and hopefully, I'd feel better.
I stopped and listened for a moment for anything, really! I was amazed at what I could hear in the silence water moving over rocks in the distance animals walking in the tree's the wind blowing in the leaves I figured it's best to find the water and go from there, so I focused more on the sound of the water rushing and headed that way I looked down at the ground as I walked.
I didn't want to hurt myself more than I was already and with no shoes on and just a summer dress with rips and teares in it, I don't remember anything I can't even remember my name or where I came from man this is so not good taking a deep breath to try and calm my racing thoughts I realized I can smell the water yeah I know it sounds crazy smelling water but yeah it totally has a smell, so I followed my nose and walked as fast as I could with my aching body and pounding head.
I finally found the river and decided to go with the flow, so I walked down stream with the river it was getting darker the more I went, and I was getting worried I'd be stuck out in the dark forest with nowhere to hide from predators as I came around the corner the scenery changed from mostly tree's to now huge rocks and rocky terrain.
I carefully maneuvered over and around the rocks and when I looked up I saw a cave I tried to hurry as much as my hurt body would let me I finally come to the entrance it was dark inside, and I was a little scared of what may live inside said cave but the need for shelter and sleep made my body move before my brain registered I was moving.
As I entered the cave I inhaled deeply trying to see if I could smell any animals but all I smelt was dirt, minerals and the water from outside I was scared to go into deep in case I was invading something's home I went in far enough I could see the entrance and was far enough that No one would see me immediately as I sat down against the rock wall I just gave myself a few minutes to just breathe and rest my aching head it really was no use my mind could not rest.
I was safe for now at least I hope so, but I can't remember anything to say how I had gotten so beat up or how I ended up in the forest man I am so screwed right now I don't even know what forest I am in let alone how to get the hell out of it. Something had to have happened to get me here in this condition, but what and who am I? What am I going to do? Where am I from? Is anyone even looking for me? Do I have anyone out there worried about me? "Fûck!"OK, calm down, breathe, destiny flashback." Green eyes." You are my destiny. You're my own destiny.. Or death.. Wait, what was that? is that my name? OMG, I can't think anymore. I need to sleep. It is completely dark outside now.
The only sort of light was from the moon outside the cave. I closed my eyes and tried to get comfortable, and I drifted off to sleep. I was awoken by a sound. It was pitch black everywhere, and I could hear the thunder and the rain from outside the cave. Oh man, I hope it doesn't get too cold. I don't have anything to keep me warm shît! What was that? I thought as I heard a scuffling sound I held my breath to listen for anything or anyone that made that sound but didn't hear anything and let the breath out slowly to try and calm my racing heart and next thing I knew I heard a deep voice say "Why are you hiding in my cave" I screamed out at the surprise I didn't see anyone "I..i...I don't know I just found it for shelter from the night I'm.... I'm sorry! I didn't know anyone was here, really.
I meant no harm, " I winced as I tried to move to stand, and I heard the deep voice again. "Are you injured? Did you fall" Are you OK" and heard him moving around. I could feel his presence closer to me, and when something touched me, I flinched, and he said, "Sorry, I didn't mean to scare you, please can you come with me?" I'm sure you are thirsty and hungry." I nodded my head and realized he couldn't see me, then said,"I am Yes."
I felt his hand on my arm, moving down to my hand. I was shocked, to say the least, the warmth of his hand in mine as he helped me to stand up. I was shaky and trembling he asked if I was ok to walk, and I said I'll try my best he waited for me to move before he did and after a few steps I almost fell he held up by my waist from behind and the feeling of his warmth made my belly erupt with butterflies more like dragons but either way it was a totally inappropriate reaction to this man I have only heard speak to me three times ever as I came from my inner dialog he asked "are you sure your alright you seem to be hurt let me carry you" I said "No I can do it I'm sorry I just lost my balance"
I went to take another step, and he kept his hands on my hips to steady me as I moved I felt embarrassed here I was with a total stranger having inappropriate thoughts, and he's just trying to help me I made it four more steps and had to stop I was breathing heavy like I ran a marathon, and he asked if I was alright, and I responded with a breathy "yes" he chuckled behind me and said "You are a stubborn one I see let me help you please I promise no ulterior motives here just want to eat soon"
I let out a breath I hadn't realized I was holding and said ok, but before I could say anything more he scooped me up letting a squeal of surprise escape me I grabbed around his neck and held on for dear life as he traversed the cave you could not see a damn thing till we came around what felt like a bend and I saw light coming from in front of us he said this is where I spend my nights when I'm hunting, so we will be warm and safe tonight as we entered the room I looked around taking it in as he set me to my feet and I first noticed the fire space he has made it to be enclosed, so no smoke filled the room and there was a kettle on the top of the stone hearth he moved it to the middle, so the fire was right underneath it.
I turned to look around and saw there wasn't much else other than what looked to be a bed covered in soft furs and a stump right by the homemade table filled with hunting tools. Just to the left of the room was a small alcove with meat from his kills hung there to cure. I turned back to say thank you, and he was standing there with his hands in his pockets, looking nervous. I gave him a small smile as I roamed his body with my eyes.
Damn, he was sexy just standing there, hiking boots on his feet. His jeans fit snugly to the muscles of his legs and Oh my! my! oh shît! I shouldn't. Be looking at that area crap I'm sure I am ten shades of red by now as I made my way to his eyes. Wow, those beautiful blue eyes. I completely forgot what I was saying. was i saying something shît. "Sorry. umm....thank you." He chuckled and slowly pushed off from the wall and took a step towards me, and said "your welcome." Let's get you looked after.Then I will make us some food." With that, he walked from the room and went to a room opposite the meat alcove.
When he came back, he had a bowl and some. Cloth. He said, "Come sit, I'll get your wounds cleaned up. I just shook my head and sat where he had indicated. As I sat and tried to get comfortable. He went and got water from the kettle and put some in the bowl, came back, and knelt before me.
He dipped the rag into the water and started cleaning my forehead and asked what had happened. I felt so dumb when I said I didn't know anything, really, so I went into what I do remember, and when I was done, he seemed shocked. I asked him what was wrong, and he said it was nothing. I started to feel anxious and wanted to ask him what was wrong, but before I could, there was a sound from where we came from, and he jumped up really fast and grabbed me, covered my mouth and whispered in my ear, "Be quiet don't say anything and stay here don't come out no matter what"
I hadn't realized he had moved us until i was able to see I just nodded my head, and he let me go I was shaking so bad he whispered "it's ok sweet girl ill keep you safe just stay here ok Bambi?" I nodded, and he said,"Good girl," kissed my forehead and walked out, leaving me alone with my fear and my racing thoughts.
I slowly moved, trying to hear anything of what was happening. Why was he hiding me? Was I in danger? Is he in danger because I found his cave? No, I didn't want that. I went to try and get closer to the entrance when I heard voices saying "Well if you do see her, detain her and call us." His response was that he was only going to be around for three days, and he would keep an eye out. I was frozen in my place.
Why were they looking for me? Clearly, someone had tried to get rid of me. That's the only thing I can think of. With this revelation, I slid to the ground, buried my head in my knees, and cried. What else would it be? why beat me and dump me? I don't even know my fûcking name, let alone why someone would want to hurt me.
I really don't know, but it's someone to be searching the forest for me. Did I do something bad? Oh, what am I going to do?
I sat there lost in thought, for I don't even know how long before I saw his movement in the doorway. I was too scared to breathe, let alone move. I looked up into his eyes and could see concern as he moved to kneel beside me. "Hey, hey, it's OK," he said as he wiped tears from my face. I hadn't even realized I was crying. I felt so embarrassed, crying like a child. But his words brought me back to the present." Bambi, it's OK, you're alright, you're safe," Yeah, I'm safe.
But I don't think it's true how can I be safe when someone is looking for me for something? I don't even know why, and to top it all off, I am putting this nice man in danger. Oh my God, I'm spiraling right now.
I can't breathe, "I cant...cant... No, I can't let you protect me and get hurt because of me. I don't know what I did to make this happen, but I can't let you get hurt because of me. Maybe I should just go to them and ask why they are looking for me."I cried out.
I started to get up but was stopped instantly. His hand grabbed my arm and held me in place, and he said to me, "Stop!. You will do no such thing. I chose to help you. You didn't do anything wrong, but I can't let you leave. I don't know why you are hurt or why people want you, but I will help you figure it out. OK, Bambi C'mon, let me feed you so you can sleep."
He helped me to stand, kept hold of my hand in his and led me from the tiny room, sat me on the stool and got to work cleaning my facial wounds and the cuts on my arms and hands. I watched him in complete awe as he worked his concentration solely on my cuts and cleaning the blood from my body.
His face is calm but Stoic, his cheekbones prominent, his chiseled jaw line, his plump juicy pink lips, his slightly crooked nose just adds to his beauty and his big bright blue eyes are almost aqua, but not quite, his black hair falling forward when he bends to rinse the rag and clean more of my skin I inhaled a deep breath and his eyes shot to mine watching waiting to capture my soul im sure.
looking at me, he asked, "Are you good, sweet girl? Did I hurt you?" i watched him for a second and said,"N.. No, no, I'm fine. Sorry, " he didn't say anything and just went back to work cleaning my wounds. After he was finished with my face and arms, he stood and said, "Stay" before walking away with the dirty water. When he came back, he poured more water in and came back in. He sat the bowl down and said, "I'll get you something to wear. If you want to clean yourself up, I will leave it here and go get some food for us, OK?" I nodded my head.
After that, he left the room for a minute and came back with some shorts and a shirt. He said, "They might be too big, but it'll cover you enough. I'll give you a few minutes." and walked away. I stood there lost in thought for a moment before I remembered what I was supposed to do, so I started to take the torn apart dress off of me and bent to get the rag and started cleaning myself as best as I could.
I had cuts and bruises all over my body. I washed everything I could reach and pulled the shorts or boxers on my frame. They were alright. I rolled the waist down a few times, and they were good for now. As I was contemplating the shirt, I heard him walking in, so I covered myself and stood up.
As he entered the room, he was looking down until I cleared my throat to say something, and his head shot up. His eyes went wide with surprise. He took a second before he spun around, saying, "Shît!! I'm so sorry I wasn't thinking"... and I stopped him, saying. "It's OK, it's my fault I was waiting for you.. I. I need some help if you don't mind.. umm... please."
He walked slowly watching me as I watched him and I know I shouldn't be lusting after this man that I hardly know, but god I can't help it, he is so beautiful and so sexy. uuuggh, stop it. You can't do that i scolded myself. as he made his way to me, he asked, "What do you need, Bambi?" I looked in his eyes and a million different needs and wants raced through my mind.
He flashed me a smile, and I cleared my throat and said, "s... sorry, um, I needed help with my back, um.. There are cuts I can't reach, um.. Do you mi...mind?" His deep voice sounded even deeper if that's possible he said. "No, I don't mind, turn around for me."
I gave him the rag I had and turned around. I used one hand to hold to shirt covering my breasts and pulled my long hair to the front so he could get to my back and clean it. As soon as his fingers touched my back, I gasped in surprise at the electricity that ran through my body. Goose bumps spread everywhere.
I had to remind myself he was just cleaning my cuts and nothing more. Yeah, ya see, that seems to be the problem. My mind says one thing, but the man makes my body want things with him that should not happen. Dâmnit, I wish I knew who I was and what had happened because everything was so confusing and overwhelming.
Uughgh, what the hell is wrong with me!!! I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't realize he was done till I heard him ask if that was all I needed. My body was screaming, no, no, it was not, but my mouth said, "Yeah th..thank you." He replied, "No problem, I'm going to start the food dress, Bambi, please."
