The Binding

The music booms, the smell of alcohol is disgusting , sweaty teens grinding on each other and this is far from my ideal Friday night. Being dragged by you best friend to fill up the classic red party cups she has in her hand isn't exiting me in the way it should. Boys smirk as drunk girls stumble around ready to be taken advantage of, little did I know I would be one of those girls two hours later is an understatement. 2 hours later  My head, omg my head its spinning I can not see straight for the life of me, doors why is their so many doors gosh, the sound of the music brings me into a stone hard wall, WHAT why is there a wall I hold my head but soon realise that this was no wall, well unless walls now consist of big strong arm things yup definitely not at all a wall, I open my green eyes to see dark brown ones staring back at me and one hell of a smirk. My eyes scan his body, brown messy hair, nice brown eyes tanned skin, yummy jawline, big strong arms, hm he’s one hell of a specimen for sure. “done checking me out” the boy standing inform of me speaks in a deep husky voice, “for sure” I say moving my eyes search the crowd of teens for my stupid also drunk best friend “looking for something” boy speaks once again still holding me by my waste, I look down at our close proximity and blush “um my friend” I say now trying to move away from the stranger “where do you think you are going” he growls lightly, “did you just growl at me mister” I say with wide eyes, he chuckles “your really drunk love” he says leaning closer to my face I look into his eyes and my drunk mind completely f***s me over and decided to lean in to, I feel his speed breath hit my face and just as we are about to share a kiss he picks me up and throws mw over his shoulder taking me to a quite room. The light pours throughout the room and my eyes are forced open, I immediately regret my decision of sitting up, the sickly feeling churned in my stomach and my head throbs. I sit back down and notice my soundings, this is definitely not my bedroom, I start to freak out and my heart races. I ignore the sick feeling in my stomach and run to the door and notice my dress on the ground, no no no I think how did I let this happen, f**k alcohol man. I quickly put it on and race out of the room and realise I’m in a massive mansion, more like the house of the party from last night, suddenly I hear a noise and I run as quickly as I can and reach the front door and run outside and notice people passed out and those bloody red cups everywhere, oh god help me know. I knew graduation party were crazy but I don’t remember anything and I woke up half naked in a bed and in the house of the party.  Its been 2 days and me and the Lucy my bestie are meeting up. She needs to tell me everything god damn I think to my self as I get out of my car and walk towards the little cafe and see Lucy sitting with her back facing me, i run behind her and sit in the seat, she finally comes to her senses and notices me and gives me a huge smile and hugs me tight. “omg Molly, wtf happened Friday I need details” she practically screams “ok clam down, but I actually have no idea how did I get so drunk” I say and I see her make a sad smile “I'm so sorry mol I didn't mean to make you drink so much but I was getting drunk and then you did and then I just lost you” she says with a pained expression “naw lu its fine, I just think I did something bad I mean I woke in a bedroom in the house and I didn't have my dress on” I explain feeling really uneasy “wait what no way” she says grabbing my hand “idk lu, I actually have no idea and its so scary” I say feeling tears prickle my eyes “don’t cry bby” she says pouting “i can’t believe I wasn't with you” she looked so troubled and sad “its over with now right” I say looking her in the eye “yeah let’s just have some fun ok, what do you want to eat” she says looking at the menu I just smile. 2 months later I always left eyes on me like there was always someone following me and watching my every move since the graduation party. I was walking down the street to my job at the cafe by the beach it was in just a pretty location I loved it, while studying to be a nurse I could just go and work in the cafe and hear the waves crashing against the shore I just made me so happy, so yeah it was about midday and I was walking along the beach and those eyes I felt on me felt more intense than before so I quickly speed up waking faster and faster as I saw the cafe in my sight I smiled, but I suddenly felt the need to throw my guts up, I run to the nearest tree and throw up behind it, my breathing speeding up as I slowly wipe my mouth on my jumper sleeve, then the feeling of someone watching me started up again and I looked around and saw nothing, I sit down and pull my black hair up into a bun to get it out of my face while try to compose myself. I force myself to get through work even though the yuck sick feeling stayed in my stomach, must of eaten something bad I think to myself as I realise I have a customer. I look up and out on my best fake smile “hello welcome to seaside cafe, how can I help you” not really paying attention to the person in front of me “ah yes, could I get a cappuccino with extra sugar please” a male voice that sounds very familiar to something i have heard before i look into his eyes and it clicked, I register everything from his eyes to his hair, “uh yes sure, won’t be to long” I say and give my coworker the order, while I go out back and to the toilet, I look at my reflection and it’s like my memory had come back from hearing his voice, I start to panic and then I hear a Knock on the door “hey Molly you need to come out bebe need your help” jade says to me through the door, I quickly fix myself up and try and breath normally, I walk out and smile at jade when she gives me a concerned look “you ok girl” she says looking at me with worry “of course” I say giving her my best smile, after telling her I was completely fine I walk back out to serve again “mol can you give this to order number 76 please” ken says holding a coffee, I smile and nod “order 76” I say out load, “yep that’s me” I see the boy from before approaching me with slow steps, I hold it out for him “thank-you” he says when his hand touches mine I flinch at the sparks that go through my hand at that single touch “have a good day” I say with no expression. As soon as my shift was over I was so shook I couldn’t even comprehend how strange I felt, i didn’t even allow my self to stay and have a my usual surf while I was on the beach before I headed back to school, it was sunset by the time I made it back to my dorm and I open the door to see Lucy typing fast on her computer “hey luc....” I stop mid sentence and run to the bathroom throwing up again, Lucy was quick to be by my side holding my hair, after I stop she sighs “what’s wrong, what did you eat” she says looking confused “idk we eat the same things, why would I just get sick” I say my eyebrows furrow “oh no oh no” Lucy says “what wrong” I say as I see her panic “get your shoes on let’s go” she says grabbing her keys and running out the door, I run out behind her “what’s going on I’m so confused” I yell at her “just trust me ok”. We make it to the pharmacy, and I’m still so confused we rush in and he goes to a section and my heart stops “no” I laugh “we have to make sure” Lucy says looking so serious “I’m going to cry lu” I say holding my mouth “it’s ok, I’m probably wrong but let’s just make sure yeah” she says hugging me tight, I hug her back. We got back to the dorms and I run inside the bathroom and do my business and I come out and holding the stick I place the it on the table and sigh and turn to face Lucy “I’m so scared right now” I say and start to sob “I’m always going to be here for you I promise I love you so much Bestfriend” she says pulling me into a tight hug, just then the timer goes off and I freeze in her arms “go on you have to check ok bebe” she say to me and nods towards the table, “ok” i make my way to the table and pick it up and I feel like my heart just got ripped out of my chest I start to cry I drop to he ground and drop the stick and I can’t feel or hear anything, I hear the slight muffled sound of Lucy speaking and bending beside me hugging while she cried, “I’m pregnant” I say crying even more. The next day I walk and look in my full length mirror, I lift my shirt and rub my stomach, I try not to cry but I notice I’ve put on weight and I’m surprised I didn’t realise sooner “hey mol” I turn and see Lucy yawning with her messy bed hair, I giggle at her “good morning messy hair” I say now laughing way more “hey not funny b***h” she says flipping me off, I slowly start to realise that my life is over and my head drops. “Molly I’m always going to be here for you, just know that your Bestfriend is with you for the long run” she says smiling from the bathroom “yeah I know” I say smiling, “but who’s the farther and when did this happen” she says and I feel my heart stop as I realise I haven’t even done anything since the grad night “omg no way” I say thinking out load “what who is it” she says standing in door way of the bathroom “i haven't done anything, expect when I woke up that day after the grad party” I say pacing trying to think “you think that guy is the farther” she says “i mean I haven't done anything since then and every other time I was careful I swear” I say “that son of f*****g b***h” she says walking into the living room where I was standing “we have to find him” she says and nods and walks to her room and shuts it “wow ok then”i say nodding then and going to my room to.  I bring Lucy to work with me the next day, after I say I had a feeling I saw him my last time working “ok here we are you sit and watch and I will give you a signal if I see anything ok” I say we both nod and split up when we walk in, I feel like I’m on a secret mission hahaha no this is serious. I put my happy work face on and start serving around the cafe when I hear the bell ring from the door I’m quick to look, and of course he walks in all his glory, I look at Lucy who is sipping her coffee on the corner table, her eyebrows raise up and down trying to tell me he is good looking, I giggle at her and he nods for me to serve him “hello how may I help you sir” I say looking at my hands “i was wondering if I could have a word” he says, I look at him straight away with wide eyes, “sorry I’m working” I say “please it will only be a moment’, I pause for a moment and look towards jade who is looking at the man with dreamy eyes “go on girl I wouldn't stop you” she says sighing all lovey, I roll my eyes at her childish actions “i guess but not for long” I say and take my apron off “thank-you” he says with a slight spark in this eyes, I frown and look down and walk towards a table outside and sit “so what would you like to talk about” I say once he sits down in front of me “i know you from grad night” he says rubbing his neck uncomfortably “really” I say acting surprised “yeah do you remember that night” he asked “some parts why” I say feeling uncomfortable “because we meet” he says looking me in the eyes, why the f**k is this guy trying to talk to be “oh yea whats your name” I say being really stubborn “Caleb” he says still looking deeply in my eyes like he’s trying to read my soul “and yours” he asked “its molly” I say breaking his stare and looking over the ocean “molly” he said I turn to look at him genuinely smiling “so why the urge to come and introduce your self to me” I asked him “because I made a horrible decision that night” he says looking down “what does that have to with me, I don’t even know you” omg maybe I do, no way he, he is the one who took advantage of me and left me in that bed and he is the possible farther of this child growing inside me “no” I say before he could speak “it was you, why would you take advantage of someone when they are not in their right mind space, thats rape” I felt tears falling down my cheek “f**k you, you ruined me” I said getting ready to stand up before he spoke “i know, I’m so sorry I was so stupid, I hate myself for it I could never forgive myself and I don’t want you to forgive me” looking down he signs “I’m sorry to have ruined you life with a child” he said looking at me with sad eyes “how how did you know that” I say stunned, his eyes widen “oh um I overheard” he says rubbing this neck again looking really uneasy “where did you hear it I’m the only one who know besides my friend this is all just new you couldn't of known” I say freaking out “ok, I have put you through enough you“ he doesn't finish his sentence before I cut him off “yeah you've put me through hell and it hasn't even started yet “i was trying to say you deserve the truth” he says “ok tell me” I say being very sassy, lucky the cafe isn't full this is getting heated “ I can’t show you here, can we go somewhere else” he asked me “why should I trust you” I say holding my stomach protectively “please I won’t hurt you” I sigh and agree after a while of me glaring “thank-you” we get up and I shoot Lucy a look as to say ‘I’m going to text you the details but this is important’ she nods showing me she understands and ask her to talk to jade and ask her if I could have the rest of my shift off, “where are you taking me” I say as we exit the cafe.