The Girl Named Z

~Z's POV~ Have you ever tried to just be invisible? Because that's all I want no one ever sees me at school I'm so thankful! I have no want to know anyone and the one person I do know is Lacy she's GORGEOUS! She has long curly brown hair, big Hazel eyes and a body a girl would kill for she's sassy and kind all in one. I have known her sense I got placed here when I was 8 with my "care giver". That reminds me I should introduce myself haha! I'm Z yes.. Z is my name I have grey eyes, I stand around 5'9 with long thick black hair and my body is mostly muscle now I will explain why one day. Lacy says I have the body of a goddess blessed with curves and both a big butt and chest. But I hate that I have them honestly.. I'm quickly pulled from my thoughts when I hear "Time to close thank the Lord!" I hear Lacy almost yell while locking up. We both work together at Lydia's dinner about 35 minutes from our high school we both are seniors at Holland High School here in Baltimore, Maryland its on the outskirts of the city almost excluded from the city its nice. "You know Lydia isn't making us work that hard right CC." (I call her CC because her name is Lacy Capacorn literally) I have no idea why CC just kinda happened to come out one summer and it stuck she's the closest thing I have to a friend. I look at her while she gaps at me. Then starts yelling "Take that back! You know I work so hard and you never even break a sweat! Women your 18th birthday may be in two weeks but I will spank that ass!" I'm pretty sure she's about to explode on me and I'm to tired to argue tonight mybribs hurt still and I don't have an excuse ready today to fend her off. With a sigh I begin "Lacy look I was kidding okay and spank me really... You know better then to threaten me with a good time." I say as I finish putting up the mop bucket. When in reality I hate being touched only time I allow it is.. My train of thought is broken when Mrs.Lydia walked into the back room. "Hi Mrs.Lydia" I murmur lowly trying to shake my thoughts away. She smiles wide walking to her desk to start counting the till for the day. "Hello pumpkin" she winks at me "How was school sorry I didn't ask earlier we got so busy today!" See Mrs.Lydia is the only adult I know who truly cares for me I guess she would be like my stand in mom in a way sense I don't have one. " It was another day at school but I was going to ask can we head out I still have to walk CC home and then myself?" There I go normal me cold as always.. Will I ever accept her kindness apart of me feels bad because she's so nice and has been here for me but everything in me has to be under control 100% of the time. I hate how everything in my head won't let me trust I hope one day I can. Her smile falters for just a second before she smiles again "Pumpkin you know you only had to ask! How is that man doing.?" She asks me with gritted teeth. I sincerely hope she hasn't noticed the bruises I do so much to hide my second job and the s**t that Donald does to me. "Fine" I answer flatly. " But I should get Lacy home we walk the same direction im sure she's ready. Good night Mrs.Lydia. Thanks" "No problem dear remember tomorrow is your day off rest! Also stop by for your paycheck!" she yells as I'm already in the front of the store. "CC you ready to go?" I absently asked walking to get my backpack. "I have been ready for 15 minutes now" she snaps back I give her the don't start look and start towards the side door that auto locks once its closed I don't want my boss getting hurt because we left a door open. Once I got Lacy home she hugged me and I froze as always, she began to whispered in my ear, "I know you live 12 blocks from me but it means alot you walk me home. But you gata stop it isn't safe for you." I look at her like a deer caught in headlights. For a good minute she shocked me I had no control over my face. I scolded my self as I began to gain control of my brain again. "I am fine don't worry about me. See you at school tomorrow." quickly turning around to start walking back to my personal hell. Walking up the street I could hear music.. There is no way he is partying right now im literally trying to just go up to my room and sleep. My ribs still hurt from earlier today when he kicked the crap out of me. I need to find a way inside without him seeing me. I make my way through the back yard to attempt going in through the back but no use there are people everywhere I feel like I live with animals. I scuff at the thought. I finally give up and just go in hoping I am not noticed once I get inside I run like my life depends on it up the two flights of stairs. Scramble to get the attic door open so I can go unnoticed. Once I got inside I whisper/yelled "Wow I actually did it" as I fist pumped before turning around locking the door so I can feel safe see awhile ago I went to Ace hardware in town and bought a barrel slide lock I don't know that was what was on the package and a screw driver to help me feel safe. It didn't help though that man is evil he once beat me so badly I was in the hospital for a week I have scars on my back no one helped me not even the doctors he made up a lie they believed I learned after that to never call him dad again.. Looking around seeing the little I do have everywhere meaning he's been going through my things again. I pull up a floor board praying he didn't get my money stash under it. Lifting it I found the bag still there full thankfully! I work at the dinner I save as much as I can but I have another job its not as safe I should say. Starting to really think I should move this tomorrow out of this house having this money here worries me. Packing up the things that mean something to me in with it along with a couple of outfits which only consist of jeans or sweats and t-shirts all put together with my back pack by the window because my broken dresser can't hold anything on top without it falling apart more. I lay on the mattress on the floor for some much needed sleep. It doesn't come easily ever. THE NEXT MORNING- The Great another day in hell. Waking up to my "care taker" Donald screaming and beating my door. Saying "You need to get the f*ck out of my house! *Bang*Bang* WHY IS THIS DAMN DOOR LOCKED! HURRY UP BEFORE I BEAT THIS DOOR DOWN AND KICK YOUR A*S!!!" I start scrambling to get my bags. I start to overthink again, He is just your care taker Z remember he told you when you were 10 he's not your father. There has to be someone who loves me.. "I can't take this much longer ill just get ready in the old school again.." Which I did not realize I said out loud before I could get out of the window he breaks through the door. "Sh!t!" Is all I can get out before he pushes the other half of my body out of my room window, I hit the cement hard attempting to get up everything hurts I know he's about to come out here to finish what he started I have to get away. My "room" is in the attic space two stories he pushed me out of a window! I scream internally all because of his whores yes plural were coming back "home". That fall hurt so damn bad. I have to get somewhere the old gym is the only place I can think of that would be able to house me safely. Getting there around 6:55 no one was around yet so I picked the lock and went to the women's locker room I needed a shower I hadn't even brushed my hair. The pain that is radiating throughout my body is over whelming almost numbing. Getting in the shower I was finally able to see and feel what just happened the pain really started to settle in my body sense the adrenaline was coming down. I realized there is blood going down the drain had not even noticed it at first I start checking over myself to find a gash on the back of my head. s**t! Quickly wash up get out thankful they never removed things to shower from this locker room! Towels laid folded in the cabinets grabbing two starting to dry off wincing at every motion. Got dressed with a towel wrapping my head is my way of hoping the bleeding will stop I'm already dizzy. I have to call Marco I dont have a choice was my last thought before everything starts to fade. I am trying my hardest to stay awake and get the call made but honestly I couldn't see much before everything faded to nothingness... Please Comment! Hope yall enjoy!