The Alpha of My Life

2. Feelings are strong

" The smell of baked bread made her want to sniff it until she would feel it in her lungs. It was a great day to open the eyes and have that smell. The smell and the pure air that was coming from the window. She let the sun caress her cheeks and eliminate all the thoughts and bad vibes inside her. It was a blissful state and she could not remember when she last felt like this. Her hands were along her body and while she was sitting like this she could feel twinkles in her palms. Such a familiar feeling but she could not remember exactly when she had felt it. She slowly opened her eyes, just half, in time to see the dust particles around her sparkling like little stars! She was surrounded by them. A feeling of panic started to crawl into her heart, making her want to run. She did something better. Forced herself to close her eyes and calm down. All the stars disappeared...."

Rosemary woke up a bit confused. She could swear that she was dreaming about something really important, but she could not figure out what. Gave herself a few minutes to stay with her eyes closed and try to remember something, but it was impossible. So, she grabbed all her energy and went off the bed. She had a moment of calm and serenity right after she woke up but it was long gone. She went to the mirror and looked at her face. So pale and with her beautifully, impossible long curly hair looked like a bird decided to make a nest in it! She sighed at her look and for once in a long time she had thought of cutting her hair. Down to the waist and curly hair needed so much attention, and she wasn't just up for it anymore. The mirror showed the depths of sadness that she could see in her green eyes, so she decided to go to the bathroom. It was too early in the morning to start to cry for pity. She washed her face and teeth and put a little makeup on because she always had a small side of the vanity. And also it was slightly possible that this move could change her mood. She almost missed the contour lip and her hand slipped a bit when she heard Tia in the bathroom door:

"That’s my girl! A little make-up on that pretty but pale face would do miracles." She said with a smile. You could see in her eyes she was really happy that her friend woke up in such a good mood to put make-up on.

"Don’t be silly. Is not like I want a miracle. I put make-up on because even I got scared of my reflection in the mirror. My heart stopped a bit."

Tia burster into a laugh, and said smiling:

"Nonsens, even with a bag on your head or with two holes in it you would look just ravishing! But, since you made this bold move, I won’t let it waste your work and will take you to town for a bit of walk."

Rose stopped for a bit adding her last retouch of make-up, thinking that getting make-up because of a pale face was something, but going out…hm…that could be too much, she might not feel ok.

Tia sensed her reticence and did not let her evolute in her mind.

"Please Rose! I need a new outfit for the new university year. Is our last one, we need to look ravishing rose-red!”

Rose’s eyes sparkled and made her show a little smile.

Tia waited no more and fled from the bathroom door screaming over her shoulder:

“Get dressed! We’re going out baby!”

Rose’s smile got wider and she looked at her reflection in the mirror. She looked in the mirror with a critical eye, the black marks under her green eyes made her want to cover them even though she would not have gone out but the make-up covered it very well. It was a sign of her last days but she was sure that her days will be like this Trying to survive the pain and doing her best to make her mother proud. She was sure her mother would sustain her. Her mother would have said to her not to mourn her for eternity. But it was hard. The only family she had disappeared because of a cruel fate. She could not be angrier about destiny, or life itself. She raised her head a little bit and looked in the mirror at her sparkling eyes full of anger. She closed them and tried to relax a bit. 'Seems I will do this all day' she mumbled. She slowly opened her eyes and could see that the angriness was no longer the main feeling that she had, but it was overwhelmed with determination. 'I need to finish my dream of being a psychologist doctor one day! I have to make my mother proud!' With these last inner words, Rose felt so much better and fled to her room. She was hearing Tia in her room singing. She smiled. Her friend’s good mood was contagious.

Rose chose an autumn green dress made from wool that was coming just over the knees with some high heel boots. A belt and some Gaultier perfume completed her look. She decided to leave her hair loose after seeing that there was no trace of wind out. With a little bit of wind, she was sure that her hair would go back to look again like a proper place for a bird's nest. Going out of the room almost bumped into Tia. She got out a small whistle looking at Rose.

"I hope I get with you all the way to the stores. The way you look someone would want to steal you away and take you to a nice dinner." Rose smiled and grabbed Tia’s arm.

"You don’t look bad yourself eighter Tia, and you know it" Tia was wearing a cashmere blouse with a short skirt same model, and boots. Big round earrings and a long necklace. Overall, she was looking hot too.

Tia burster in a laugh.

"In this case, I hope we come back with shopping bags, not with 4 extra arms!"

Rose started laughing too.

"Since you are ready, go and call the elevator while I take my coat."

Rose did not want her to be told a second time. Anyway, this was a thing they were doing. Being on the 6th floor of a building with 11 floors the elevator was coming quite hard so they needed to go and call the elevator once one of them was ready. They were lucky enough because the 6th floor and 11th were sharing the same elevator and the rest had another one. She pressed the elevator's button and looked at how it came down. She was a little bit surprised because it was already in the move when she pressed the button and she knew for a fact that the 11th floor was empty of tenants. Not many people would afford to stay there. While she was deeply stuck in her thoughts the elevator door opened and she felt like she was struck by the lighting. The most handsome guy was sitting inside looking at her with a big surprise on his face. Rose felt how she forgot to breathe. ‘His eyes!’ she thought. Her body forgot how to function for brief moments but her eyes and mind were analyzing the handsome guy in all his aspects. His appearance was easy to say muscular. The man had the height and the air of a powerful man that he knew what nature gave him and he was making great use of it. His hair was brown with golden strands here and there and the length was to touch his shirt collar. Rose felt an urge to touch it and check if it is at soft as it seems. He was wearing casual clothing with a black shirt and some material pants, looking really relaxed. The shirt was a bit open at the neck, showing a bit of blonde hair making Rose wide, even more, her eyes but the appearance was nothing. She was afraid for some reason to look straight into his eyes but in the end, she decided to lift her head, and she was mesmerized by the color of his eyes. One green and the other one blue. She felt the start of a hum inside her head and she was too shocked to search from where that could come. She could see he was in shock at her sight but somehow he recovered faster than her and with the most beautiful smile he asked,

" Are you coming?"

The only thing that she was able to do was to nod her head in a silent no. She forgot even that she needed the elevator but she was sure as damn she was afraid to go any near him. She would have transformed into a small pond at his beautiful muscular legs.

" Fine," he said smiling and he pushed the elevator button.

The doors were closing when she heard Tia behind her back.

" I see you have met our new neighbor."

Roses' mouth dropped and she turned slowly to Tia.

" Neighbour?" she asked in a whisper. She placed her hand on her chest to calm down her heart and she was feeling how the hum was fading also.

Tia asked with a huge smile on her face,

" I see that you are impressed..."

Rose could not speak anymore. She felt like she was torn apart and spread to the four winds. Impressed was such a small word.

"Love makes your soul crawl out from its hiding place."

Zora Neale Hurston