Insecurities Within

Chapter 4

    Jacques followed her mom to the car, where she got in and threw her bags in the backseat. Jacques proceeded to lean her head against the window and turn her mom out as she started giving her, "you'll find another guy," and "there's plenty of fish in the sea", mom speech. Jacques just thought back to when she met mark in the 7th grade, when he was her nerd talking to her about anime and manga. They would meet in the library at their old school pennylinger middle school. They would spend hours reading manga and whispering about who would be who's waifu or husbando and it was entertaining, at least then it was. Mark used to love meeting online in their favorite anime chat forums to talk and watch anime together. It was their most cherished past time besides actually being in person. Mark first showed her an anime about a school girl who fought crime in a funny looking outfit and food shaped hair, which wasn't what always got her in trouble. It was usually her big heart and love for her friends that caused her to get into trouble and become stronger. The show was so inspiring and loveable that Jacques had no choice but to fall in love with it. The other factor was that mark seemed like main characters love interest, and always bought her flowers and encouraged her, plus she loved that character. He was her first crush which in turn made her fall for mark and Mark became her first 3D boyfriend.

    Besides anime, manga, ova's, and movies that centered around animation, they did normal things that people did in relationships. They went on dates, met each others friends and parent(s), visited each others homes, talked, she thought everything was perfect. Mark never brought up and dissatisfaction with their relationship, and when she thought back there were no red flags. Was mark a wolf in sheep’s clothing she thought.

"Hey Jacquesssss, lasand sang, are you listening to me, in Jacques head she called her mother by her first name but she wouldn't dare do it to her face. Sweetheart you don't have to think about him, and tune me out I’m just trying to help. Jacques knew her mother was but she still felt like she could deal with it on her own.

Her mother continued, sweetie even if you weren't my daughter you are a gorgeous girl, guys everywhere would love to have you. Do you know why that is?

"Why is that mom," Jacques asked.

"Because your Beautiful, intelligent, and you don't flaunt your beauty,  your youthful and optimistic, your heart is as genuine as they come babygirl. Besides that you haven't slept with a lot of men like Ms. Jessica has, she has been ran through. When Men are looking for a woman they look for a humble, pure, woman who is strong and confident in themselves. You have that babygirl so don't ever forget that. You are one in a million, not one in ten. Besides you are young you could have your pick of the BOYS around her enjoy yourself, date get to know what you like and don't like, you don't have to settle down right now love, ok". With those few words of encouragement Jacques did feel better. Even though it was cliché and cheesy moms always knew what to say to cheer you up and bring you back to being yourself.

"Thank you mom, I love you, your right, and ill try my best today",

"I know I’m right, now don't be trying to hide from that boy in the hallways", she said as she pulled up to my school waterluck high. I couldn't help but be nervous but with my mothers words, I mustered up some newfound confidence. "I love you mom," I told her as I grabbed my bags from the backseat and proceeded to get out of the car.

"I love you too baby" she yelled from the car and sped off.

        I knew today was going to be rough but I had no idea how hard it was really going to get. I started the long walk  up towards the school. Waterluck high was perched on top of a long sloping hill, so I had a bit of a ways to go. Luckily for Jacques, Belina was waiting at their usual bench, up towards the front of the school in between two thick bushels of shrubbery. This had been their meeting spot since they started high school. Everyone had their meeting spots on the school ground but this had become their favorite meeting spot before they headed inside the building. Jacques walked up to Belina giving her friend a hug.

"Hey girl how are you"? Jacques asked Belina

Belina replied "Shouldn't I be asking you that, but knowing you and your mom your just fine",

"Oh yeah, you know she gave me the speech, So I feel much better" Jacques did feel much better but she still felt nervous about today for some reason and that was a feeling that she couldn't shake easily.

"I can always beat Mark and jessica up for you" Belina encouraged.

Seeing the light in her friends eyes she knew her best friend was playing but dead serious. "No, girl you are too pretty to fight, besides I wont give them the satisfaction of acting like a crazed ex, I'm fine" Jacques loved her best friend with all her heart and was glad she had her at school with her.

Let's Go.