Insecurities Within

Chapter 2

As Jacques put her hand on the doorknob, and began to turn the knob on the door, she tried to believe that what was happening with not happening behind the door. She wanted to believe that there was someone else behind the store door she wanted to believe that anything besides what she knew was happening wasn't occuring behind these doors. Jacquees open the door only to be confronted with Mark and Jessica hot and sweaty all over each other it was like a nightmare. One she couldn't stop and one she couldn't bear to see any more. Before Jacques could stop herself she launched the lamp at mark, completely ignoring Jessica sure she was a slut, but mark knew better he was in a relationship with her and even though they never had s*x he never pestered her about it, she thought he was just being sweet and patient. In a matter of seconds she had become the crazy ex girlfriend, and that wasn't who she was.

Why mark!? Jacques screamed

Jessica just looked on like a deer caught in headlights

Mark couldn't answer he didn't think he'd ever be caught, had been so careful.

Answer me!!! Jacques asked one more time

Baby I love y- mark tried but was cut off by Jacques throwing a book at his head, where she got it from he didn't know, but ducked just in the knick of time.

I'm done Jacques said, and stormed off while a naked Jessica scrambled for her clothes.

Mark continued to follow with nothing on and when he realized she wasn't going to stop he ran and threw on some basketball shorts and a white beater.

Jacques had already reached belina and across the room he could see belina shoot him a dirty look. She flipped him the bird and pulled her friend away.

For the rest of the night Jacques avoided mark she may have been at his house but she could still enjoy herself, right? His parents loved her and always welcomed her to stay over even if mark wasn't there. Belina suggested she show mark she could still have a good time even without him and that's what she pretended to do even though she was hurting on the inside, she put on a brave face. When Belina told Jacques she could stay over at her house that night Jacques was beyond grateful that she didn't have to go home and explain to her mother why she had been crying. She she took refuge at her best friend's house that night and cried until she couldn't anymore. Lucky for Jacques she had a friend she could cry and snot on who would wipe her tears away and tell her to stop acting like a baby over a boy. Belina always knew exactly what to say to cheer her friend up and Jacques was beyond grateful for her friend. (End flashback). 

As Jacques sat up in her bed she couldn't help the feeling of sadness that washed over her. She loved mark and she was sad that he had done that and maybe more behind her back. She pulled the covers back over her head as she contemplated skipping school that day. It was her first day back at school, how could she show her face when everyone knew she had found mark with Jessica. She couldn't bear the thought but when her mother's smooth voice carried upstairs letting her know she had 30 minutes left to get ready and eat breakfast, otherwise she would have to settle for school lunch. The thought alone made her repel herself across her bed and almost into her closet. She straightened and stretched her muscles preparing for the battle ahead, her hair was a mess and matted because she had been to drunk to put on her bonnet the night before. Her normally straight when dry and curly when wet hair was a tangled mess and she wondered how long and painful it would be to do it this morning as she climbed in the shower.