The sad story of the babysitter

Chapter eight - Weekend of babysitting

Lily's POV:

It's Friday. The weekend is finally here. To be honest I am not very happy about it. I don't have to go to school, which means that I have to stay whole two days in one house with my parents. I hope that they won't be at home most of the time. I have nothing to do so I probably will watch movies. Maybe I can go to see Lizzy, but I have to be careful. Mom and dad can't understand that I still go there. They don't like when I talk about it so it'll be better if they don't know. 

Now I am in school, standing in front of my locker. I was looking at my phone when I saw the eyes on me. I looked up to see that it was Ryder. We haven't talked since the last time when I was at his house. I always start crying when I think of Lizzy and I did it when we were alone. Luckily, he never asked anything. I still don't trust him enough to tell him everything. 

For some reason, he kept looking at me. The bell started ringing. I gave him a small smile and walked to my next class. Sometimes I forget that we have the same classes and this was one of them. To my surprise, he didn't sit with some chick, but with me. I'm not going to lie that this feels uncomfortable. I don't know is nice or only doing it to make me trust him so he can get what he wants. 

- Hey Lily, how are you today?

- I am fine, thanks. 

- I am glad to hear it. By the way, Mia and Lea asked for you last night. They want you to come again. 

- They or you?

- What? I don't want you to come. 

- I get it. 

- No, I meant that I wasn't the one who wanted you to come. You are always welcome home. I said that I'll be nice and that's what I am trying to do. 

- Good luck then. The change is never easy, but it's not impossible. 

- I know. Thanks for being patient. 

- No problem. I only hope that you really are doing it, not pretending. 

- You still don't trust me, do you?

- If you didn't realize it already, I don't trust people that easily. Especially if they are like you. 

- I can show you that I am changing, just give me some time.

- You have the whole time on the world. - I smiled

I really hope that what he says is true. Otherwise, he'll prove to me one more time that he will never change. I want to trust him, but I can't. Something inside of me tells me to be careful. I mean people don't change just like that. These things take time. Maybe I can help him with that. Who I am kidding? I can't even help myself. My life is a complete mess. 

- I have to say that you are not as bad as I thought. 

- You never know a person before talking with them. 

- And as always you are right. - Ryder smile

I think that this is the first time when he is smiling because of me. I won't say anything. I don't want to ruin the moment. Probably this will be the last time when he will do it. To be honest I think that this was a real smile. Something, which you don't see every day from him. I don't know why, but I feel more comfortable being around the good side of him. I only hope that this is not one of his plans. To be heartbroken is the last thing that hasn't happened to me yet. 

After school, I went home. Mom and dad were there. I walked by them, straight into my room. I am in good mood, something rare for me, and I don't want them to ruin it. I decided to chill this afternoon. I don't have any plans so I can watch a movie while eating something. 

I went to the kitchen. Maybe I can get a bowl of cereal. Usually, I eat it only for breakfast, but today will be different. I was about to get it from the drawer when my parents came. 

- How was your day today? - dad asked

- It was good. Thanks for asking

I won't lie that sometimes they are nice, but sadly, that happens rarely. 

- What did you...? 

- Sorry mom, but I have to pick up. 

I looked at my phone and saw that it was miss Collins. 

- Hello miss Collins. Can I help you with something?

My mom told me to put her on speaker. I forgot that they still don't trust me completely with this job. Anyways, I did what she said, but told her to be quiet. 

- Yes. Please tell me that you are free today. 

- I am. When do you want me to come?

- Actually, I need you to make me a huge favor. 

- Ok, what is it?

- David and I have a business trip this weekend and I was hoping that you could stay at home. It's only until Sunday. You don't have to worry about the money. I will pay you for every hour that you have spent at my house. 

- It's ok. I don't have any plans so I can come. 

- Thank you, Lily. You are a life savior. 

- If you say it. When do you want me to come?

- Can you come in an hour?

- Yes, sure. I will be there. 

- Ok, I will see you in an hour. 

- Bye miss Collins. - I said and hung up

I looked at my parents. They don't seem to be enjoying the idea of me being away. I will use this as an opportunity to take a rest from them. Not like I am complaining, but they don't need to know what I do every minute. 

- I will go get ready. 

- And who told you that you will go? - mom asked

- I already said that I will. 

- But you never asked me.

- And why do I have to do it? I am old enough to take decisions. Moreover, I'll watch kids, nothing else. I don't see what is your problem. That way you can take a rest from me. 

- I like what you just said. - dad said

In the beginning, this was hurting me, but now I am used to it. My parents never showed me proper care or love. Maybe this is why I am scared to get close to someone. I am afraid that they won't love me. 

Back to the main thing. I have to spend the whole weekend at Ryder's house. I hope that he will be outside most of the time. I don't know can I stay in one room with him. I mean Ryder can be nice, but you never know what is in his mind. I'm not going to lie that I like being around the good guy. Maybe we can manage to spend some time together. I would love to. Some distractions from my parents will be good. 

I grabbed a bag and put my things. When I was done, I walked out. After half an hour, I arrived in front of the house. I knocked on the door and Ryder opened it. 

- Lily? What are you doing here? Not like I don't want you, just...

- Your mom called me. Can I come in?

- Yes, sure. 

I walked in and saw miss and mister Collins. 

- Lily, thank you for coming. You can put your things in the guest room. 

- Excuse me, but what is going on? - Ryder asked

- Lily will stay here for the weekend. Your dad and I are going on a business trip and someone has to watch the kids. 

- Surprise. - I said awkwardly

Ryder looked at me. I gave him a small smile. I didn't expect him to be happy, but I couldn't say no. I love spending time with Mia and Lea. They remind me a lot of my sister. Maybe I can take them out tomorrow. We can go for ice cream or something else. I hope that everything will be ok. 

- We have to go. Mia and Lea are still sleeping. I have told them that you will be here. No funny business. I am talking to you, Ryder. 

- I won't do anything. You don't have to worry about me. Mom, I will be fine. 

- Let's say that I trust you. - miss Collins said

Both of them left. The only ones who left were Ryder, the sleeping girls, and me. I went into the guest room to leave my things. I was taking out what I need when I felt a presence behind me. I turned around to see that it was Ryder. 

- Can I help you? 

- I was hoping that I could help you. Do you need anything?

- No, but thanks for asking. 

I thought that he will leave, but instead, he sat on the bed. I know that this is his house, but I was hoping that I could be alone for a while.  

- Won't you sit? 

I didn't say anything and sat next to him. Now I feel uncomfortable. No one was talking. It was awkward or at least for me. I don't know what to tell him. We don't have many things in common. I felt how he get closer. Ryder lifted my chin, looked me in the eyes, and smile. I am very confused. Will he do something? I hope that he won't. 

- Um... Ryder... what are you doing?

- I want you to see that I have changed. I won't hurt you. I see that someone else has already done it. 

I have never talked about Lizzy or my parents in front of him. How does he know it?

- What? I don't understand. 

- Your eyes are telling me everything. I see that someone has hurt you. Am I right?

I didn't say anything. As much as I like that he shows some care, I still won't tell him anything. I don't like talking about that. Moreover, he is the last person with who I will share something personal. How can I be sure that he won't tell the whole school on Monday? I don’t have the right to think about him that way, because we don't know each other that well, but I prefer to keep my personal life and stories only for myself. The things are already bad. I don't want them to get worse. 

- Lily, I won't tell anyone. I promise you. 

- Why do you want to know so much?

- Because I want to help you. 

- And since when? Before like not more than a month you were saying how I am the last person with who you will go out and now you want to help me. I'm sorry, but I don't trust you. 

- I know, but you need to try. Never judge the book by its cover. 

- I don't judge about its cover. I do it by the story, which it's telling me. 

- Look, I know that we are not friends, but this doesn't mean that we can't try. 

- Ryder, I am here to watch your sisters. So if you don't mind, can you leave me alone? I said yes only because of your mom, not you. I won't lie that I was hoping that most of the time you will be outside. 

- You don't want me around. I get it. 

- I didn't want to hurt you, but you have to understand me. I trust you, but not the change. Nobody can change that fast. Especially people like you who are going from one thing to the opposite. 

- I understand. Don't worry, I won't bother you anymore. 

- Wait! Ryder, I didn't want to... 

He already has left. I don't want to be hurt, but at the same time, this is what I am doing. Maybe during this weekend, we can make up the things. I mean our relations. I don't want to argue with him or whoever it is. Ryder is trying to be nice and I have to appreciate that. I know how hard it is for him. It's not easy to switch from a bad boy to a good one. I think that I can help him with that. Well if he let me do it.