Taste of Poison

Kabanata 3

Kabatana 3

Desire

"I'm not bluffing..." he said that after the kiss.

I blinked twice. My mind was still trying to process his sudden revelation. He took a step backward and stared at my shocked expression. He tilted his head, there was a shy smile playing on his lips.

"Why are you so surprised? Was I the only virgin you slept with?"

I darted my eyes somewhere. Did I hear it right? That I took his virginity, too. Kaya ba pinipilit niyang panagutan ako? And since I was his first, he realized that I should do the same, too. Tumawa ako, hindi dahil sa tuwa 'kundi dahil nababaliw na siya.

And really? A virgin with a performance which I rated eleven out of ten?

Unbelievable.

"I was safe when we took each other's virginity. Hindi ako mabubuntis at kung sakali man, doon mo lang ako pananagutan. And as if you're capable of bearing a child..."

He scoffed. "You didn't answer my question."

"How would I know? You were the first man whom I slept with."

"Yeah? How about those guys you flirted with? Were they already tainted?"

Umirap ako. Umupo ako sa sofa at pinagkrus ang braso sa dibdib sabay ang hita. Inilibot ko ang tingin sa opisina niya.

It was just a simple office. A working table, behind was his swivel chair and a big window. The curtains were all set aside and that made the light enter the room. There was a printer in the corner and a table for materials needed for printing. And a long sofa. May dalawang pinto rin na hindi ko na inusisa.

Tumingin ako sa kaniya na nakatayo pa rin.

"What now? Tapos na ang usapan kaya hayaan mo na akong umalis."

He chuckled and then looked at me from head to toe.

"You want to leave but you're sitting there comfortably. Really..." tumango-tango pa siya.

"Wala akong masakyan. I was hoping for your help?"

Why am I talking to him this way? I feel a bit awkward after hearing him confessed. Parang kanina lang ay kulang na lang sumabog ako sa inis tapos ngayon, kaswal na kaswal ko siyang kinakausap na para bang walang nangyari.

"Ipapahatid kita..." aniya.

"Okay."

He let go of me that day. Of course, I left with his kisses. Hinatid ako ni Brandon pauwi at tinadtad ko talaga ng inis si Mallory dahil sa ginawa niya. I only focused myself on working the next few days. Mama Astrid was out of the country and she trusted all the work to me so I was really busy and exhausted.

Hindi rin muna ako sumama sa Friday night out namin. Ayokong makita si Azar kung naroon man siya. At tiyak naman na nakalimutan na niya ang nangyari! Ilang linggo na rin. He should be thankful because I gave him a reason to explore s*x the next time.

"You won't still go with us, Ry? Still drowning yourself with paper works?"

Umangat ang tingin ko kay Mallory. "No. Huwag mo na akong pilitin."

"At baka sumama ka? C'mon, three nights out na ang na-missed mo. Hinahanap ka na ng alak."

Binalik ko ang tingin sa binabasang report. Umalis na rin siya pagkatapos ng mahabang pamimilit. Hindi niya ako napapayag, pero nakapangako naman ako na sumama sa susunod na Biyernes. At labis ang pagsisisi ko nang dumating ang araw na iyon. Sana pala hindi ako nagpatinag sa pagmamakaawa niya.

"I missed you, bebe girl! Bakit hindi ka man lang nagpa-feel sa akin? Mallory told me that you were so busy sa work."

Inangat ko ang baso sa labi ko. "I was making money, yeah." I drank the liquor in one gulped.

Nasa bar counter ako at nakaharap sa mga taong nagsasayaw sa dance floor. I saw Mallory and Yves dancing wildly under the neon lights. Si Audrey, hindi ko alam kung ano ang trip sa buhay. She came with us but doesn't have plan on drinking.

Nilapag ko ang baso sa counter. I was about to call for another shot when I feel the burning stares pierced right through me. Tinuloy ko ang pagtawag sa bartender. Pagkatapos ko inumin ang alak ay hinanap ko iyon.

Tumingin ako sa taas. There, I saw Azar on the railing. There were few people around him, mostly girls but his eyes were settled on me. Nakalagay sa balustrade ang kaniyang libreng kamay habang ang isa ay may dalang baso ng alak.

"Bebe girl, who was that? He looks hot. Go na, sunggab na agad!"

Tumingin ako kay Audrey. "Hm?"

"The way he stares at you, it seems like he wants to devour you. At ganoon ka rin!"

I shrugged. I want him, alright. So bad it hurts but I don't like how he acted after that night. Pero hindi na naman ako virgin! Maybe he wouldn't make the leaving part a big deal, right?

I excused myself to pee. Nang makalabas ako sa restroom ay isang marahas na halik ang bumungad sa akin.

"F-ck, Emory. Where the f-ck were you been?" Azar whispered on my lips.

Lasing ko siyang nginitian. I sneaked my arms on his nape before leaning on his ear.

My needs for him just grew bigger each day. The more I resist him, the more my body craves for his touch. Ayoko ng lumala ang pagnanasa na mayroon ako sa kaniya. So maybe after giving us the chance to f**k again, my needs for him would drop low.

Dinala niya ako sa isang kuwarto. Hindi na mapakali ang mga kamay namin sa paghubad ng damit ng isa't isa.

He kissed me again before I could even recover from his mouthful kiss.

I thrust my tongue inside him, tasting every corner of his mouth. My hands were busy unbuckling his belt while his hands were massaging my hardened peaks. He already ripped my top before we could even reach the room.

He's still fully clothed. That made me stop. I pulled away.

"You're still completely dressed while I'm here, half n-ked..."

He chuckled and then ripped his plain black shirt into halves.

"There, happy?"

Ngumuso ako. "No, get rid of your pants." I pointed out his jeans.

He shook his head but there was a playful grin on his lips. His eyes danced with amusement as he stared at me.

"Such a demanding..."

I glared at him. "Just do it."

He was obedient enough to do it. Nang mahubad niya iyon ay kaagad niya akong hinila palapit sa kaniya. Not giving me a chance to take a peek on his boxer which now bulging.

"Get ready for me..." he said dangerously.

Napalunok ako. He lowered his face on my neck and suck my skin enough to leave a mark. I tilted my head on the side to give him more access. Naramdaman ko ang kamay niya na hinuhubad ang pambaba ko. Hindi ako nagreklamo pa.

I bit my lip to suppressed a moan when he lapped my skin. Tumigil siya nang mapansin ang pananahimik ko.

He gently slapped my lips. "Don't bite that. Your moans are for my ears, Emory. Let that go."

I pursed my lips. "Is this soundproof?" I asked in a low voice.

Tumango siya at pinagpatuloy ang pagromansa sa katawan ko.

I threw all my inhibitions away outside the window. My eyes were on the ceiling as I moaned Azar's name when he lapped and suck my hardened peaks. His hand was massaging my boob while he licked the other one, he did it alternately. Ang isa niyang kamay ay nasa loob na ng panty ko't nilalaro ang p********e ko. Tuluyan na ring nahubad ang jeans ko.

"Az... Azar!" daing ko nang ipinasok niya ang daliri roon.

Tiningala niya ako. "You're dripping wet..."

I started breathing heavily. The pleasure his finger's giving me was too much now that it went faster and harder inside me.

Nakatingala ako, habang siya ay pinagmamasdan ang bawat sarap na lumitaw sa mukha ko.

Mas lalo pa akong nabaliw nang dinagdagan niya iyon ng isa pa.

"Azar! Ah! Azar..."

My hands were holding his arms more tightly as if holding on to my last shreds of sanity. I heard him groaned when we both heard the cream pie sound. Mas lumakas pa ang mga ungol ko nang unti-unti niya akong hinalikan pababa hanggang sa tuluyan na siyang lumuhod sa harap ko.

"Sh-t... That's it, Az. f*****g kneel down..."

He slapped my a-s cheek which made me pushed my body towards him. I moaned when I felt his breathe down there. Tiningnan ko siya. Nag-angat naman siya ng tingin sa akin.

"Remain standing and be a good girl..." he violently tapped my leg that made me jump.

Naging madali iyon sa kaniya para isampay ang isang binti ko sa balikat niya bago niya sinubsob ang mukha roon.

I totally lost it when I felt his warm tongue slowly l-cking and sucking my folds. I gripped his hair that earned me a groan from him. I shamefully started grinding my hips against his lips and tongue. I screamed when I felt Azar entered his finger inside me. Good god, he was fingering me while tongue f*****g me!

I was biting my lower lip when I saw him looking at me evilly. He stuck his tongue out as he licked my clit faster with its tip.

The pleasure is too much I feel my body convulsed then I felt it. Tuluyan na akong nawala sa katinuan nang maramdaman iyon. Then liquid heat gushed down there.

Nanghina ako.

"Azar... I can't... anymore."

I almost lost my balance if it wasn't because of his strong arms wrapped around my thighs.

He stood up. "We're not done yet..."

He's so good I felt my whole world shook when he turned me around and without warning, he pounded hard and fast behind me while we were still standing high and proud. I was gasping for air as he moved instantly, not letting me adjust to his length.

I feel so weak and aroused. It felt so good, it was too much for me. His lewd grunts just urged me to meet him halfway and it made me soaked more than I was. He's gripping the sides of my waist as he pumped in and out.

Nababaliw na ako sa sarap. Hindi ko na alam kung saan ako kakapit. Hindi na rin mapakali ang bibig ko sa pagdaing. Pati ang mga hita ko ay nanginginig na.

"Damn, Emory! You're gripping me real good, baby."

Kinuha niya ang mga kamay ko at inilagay iyon sa batok niya. He bit my shoulder blade as he moved behind me.

"Azar..."

Imbes na tumigil ay patuloy pa rin siya sa paggalaw. His lips found mine and I answered it, sighing.

I felt my insides throb again. My mind is in haywire as he thrusts himself deeper and faster. Ramdam ko ang bawat gigil na binubuhos niya, sa klase pa lang ng paghawak niya sa beywang ko.

My mouth hang opened when I felt my release. Mas bumilis ang galaw niya hanggang sa naramdaman kong pinupuno na niya ako.

Napaupo ako sa sahig nang tuluyan na niya iyon tinanggal sa loob ko. I looked up at him.

"You're so rough..."

A ghost smile played on his lips. "You liked it that way...”

I glared at him. "Clean me up, Azar. I can't move my body so..."

He chuckled and lifted me up from the ground. He cleaned me up and tucked me in bed. I fell asleep the moment my back hit the soft mattress.

I wasn't expecting him to stay the next morning. Imagine my shock when I woke up next to him, his arms on my waist like I'm some kind of possession.

Azar isn't my type, I'm sure of that. Physically, yes but he's too dangerous for my liking. The first time I met him, I knew he's different. He is built like one of those men in the cover magazine page. All broad chest and narrow waist, strong forearms, muscled legs, and his face that screams maturity.

He looked powerful. At first look, I already concluded that he was one of Lucifer's followers. Or maybe, he's the devil and the people around him are his subordinates.

And I don't want to be one. I ought to hunt devils and not be tamed by one. Or to be owned by one.

I left that morning without his notice. Good thing I brought my car with me last night. I was wearing his shirt when I went out of the club. I changed clothes in my car with the help of my stocked clean clothes in my compartment for emergencies.

Umuwi ako sa condo. Hindi ko na naabutan si Mallory. I called her and found out she was out for work. Inayos ko na rin ang sarili bago pumasok sa trabaho.

Kakasimula pa lang ng araw ko pero umabot na yata hanggang langit ang gulat ko nang makita si Kuya Aamon at Simeon sa opisina ko. What the hell are they doing here?! I thought they're on the other sides of the world?

"At last, you're here! Bakit ngayon ka lang dumating?" tumayo si Simeon.

Tinuro ko silang dalawa, nagtataka. "Kailan pa kayo nakauwi? Nagsabay pa talaga kayo pero hindi man lang kayo nagsabi!"

Tumawa si Simeon. Hinayaan ko siyang yakapin ako.

"Surprised?"

Ngumuso ako at umirap. "Iyong pasalubong ko?" nilahad ko ang kamay.

Sinilip ko si Kuya Aamon sa sofa. Nasa amin ang atensiyon niya pero as usual, seryoso pa rin. Napasimangot ako nang tinasan niya ako ng kilay. Sungit!

"Pinauwi ako ni Mama Astrid, dito na lang daw ako mag-trabaho. Ewan ko kay Aamon," ani Simeon.

Kunot-noo ko siyang binalingan. "Huh? Hindi ba't ayaw mo rito? At saang hospital ka naman d-duty?"

Umupo kami sa sofa. Kaharap ko silang dalawa habang nag-uusap.

"Maghahanap pa lang..."

Tumango ako. Si Kuya Aamon naman ang binalingan ko.

"Mama wants to live here," sabi niya.

I squint my eyes. "Tita Maureen loves New York, why would she want to live here?"

He just shrugged my question off. Sinimangutan ko siya. Simeon called Mallory and we ordered food. Sa opisina ko kami kumain habang nag-uusap tungkol sa mga bagay-bagay, lalo na iyong dati.

"I was so jealous of Emory! Naisipan kong kunin iyong gold bow and arrow na ibinigay ni Lolo Gaspare noong eighteenth birthday niya!" humalakhak si Simeon. "Ibebenta ko sana iyon!"

Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin. "Kung kinuha mo iyon, tiyak na alam mo ang kahihinatnan mo."

"'Eto naman, masyadong seryoso. Siblings tayo by heart, 'di ba, Mallory?"

They spent another hour in my office. Nang umalis sila ay pinalinis ko ang opisina ko. Nakatunganga na naman ako sa harap ng computer, nag-iisip ng gagawin.

I closed my eyes just to opened it again because Azar's face suddenly appeared in my mind. Napaayos ako ng upo. What the hell?! Why am I thinking of that man?! At sa lahat pa ng tagpo ay iyong maiinit pa!

Kinagat ko ang labi. I can't help but to recall everything. From how he brought me in pure ecstasy, his heavy breathings... f**k! No! Get out! Ginulo ko ang buhok ko, napakapit na sa edge ng office table ko. I won't deny it but he really affects me so much and it is not damn good.

Being sexually attracted is the least thing I want to happen. Not with Azar...

But I can't keep on being like this, right? I'm a woman with fantasies, too. And if it's not Azar, then who?

I uttered some profanities in any language that I know. My office is air conditioned but I'm sweating as I remember Azar's skillful and sinful mouth. The urge to touch myself was too strong but it was interrupted by a phone call.

I sighed heavily, thankful to the unknown number that flashed on my screen.

Napakunot din ako nang mapagtanto. Sino naman kaya itong tumatawag?

I answered the call and for god heavens...

"Emory..." a familiar voice welcomed my ears.

Why does it sounds like he was moaning my name? And Mallory! For sure she gave my number to him!

"Azar? What do you want?" I asked in a calm manner.

Kahit na ang lakas na ng t***k ng puso ko dahil sa boses niya!

"Let's meet, Emory. Mag-usap tayo."

Kinagat ko ang labi. Dahan-dahan akong tumayo, pilit hindi pinaparinig ang ingay na nililikha ng paggalaw ko.

"About what, Azar? About what..."

I heard his deep sighs on the other line.

"Your moans were bugging me. I want to hear you scream over and over again."

I licked my lower lip.

"And? I think that's not my problem anymore..." I told him. "Sana ni-voice record mo na lang ang nangyari sa atin para may solusyon ka sa problema mo..."

Sinuot ko ang sandals na hinubad ko kanina. Pagkatapos ay hinalungkat ko ang bag at kinuha ang isang pouch doon, nag-iingat pa rin. Kinuha ko ang red lipstick.

"That's my problem but..." he groaned as if he's in a deep pain. "You're the only solution I could come up with."

"Am I? The solution?" I asked in a low voice.

I tapped the loudspeaker and put my phone on the table. I grabbed the mirror resting on my desk and started applying lipstick on my lips.

"I can't get enough of you," he answered instead. "Where are you? I will fetch you and let's talk about this burning desire I have for you."

I gulped. Tumingin ako sa cellphone ko at sa labi kong animo'y nang-aakit sa pula.

Really, Emory? You were getting ready because you know you'll come and beg for his kisses?

What happened to 'not with Azar'?

"Just send me the location..."

"No. I'll come over, send me yours instead," he said before I heard the static sound.

I took a deep breath before putting the lipstick down, grabbed my phone and texted him my whereabouts.

Yes, Emory. You are damned.